Boring day

Boring day, but mummy rina's cooking in the kitchen and it smells really good on a late sat morn.... I had my breakfast of cornflakes and milk, very rare to be able to enjoy breakfast on a nice sat morn.....

Had a chat with Kenji dear on MSN and it seemed he's really busy but we are both busy working towards our future together..... :)

PS: God helps those who help themselves. No point saying anymore cos the views are all different, a rite angle can become an obtuse angle and the problem will become magnified. If you look at something with prejudice, the outcome will never be the same. I should only bother if you do. I should care only when you do. Be honest. See wat you really want. If pride and anger are more important than me and if you think this is the best way to handle stuff, I accept it. I respect your decision.

A dream

Had a dream that woke me up at 8am this morn and left me feeling frustrated. Rina also had a weird dream. Haha. I guess it must be the zombie and weird movies we watch last nite before we went to sleep.

Yesterday was a rainy day. Supposed to have some programs with Wendy and Kerin but in the end it was raining and it did not go on as planned. So I went to Toa Payoh to get a vaccum cleaner and some other stuff.

Then we had dinner and watched the zombie and psycho movie till 1am....

Then we both had weird dreams.... I dreamt of my sec sch mates and weird thing was, the people I knew and liked were in my same class!!! Yeah..... It was the 1st day at sch after dec holidays but also the last day of sch jus before the holidays.... weird rite??? And I had a weird lit teacher and I had a weird recess time cos the canteen at the sch was jus like
a market, not the normal, disciplined canteen. And I had lotsa money to buy FOOD. Yeah.....

I saw myself in my white yuying sec sch uniform again.... I remember my days there.... and my friends that I spent my sec sch years with..... and woke up feeling frustrated because I dun understand certain parts of my dream.... ahhahaha... but its only a dream luckily cos dreams supposed to be opposite one rite..... so its good I think....

Tots

2 days ago was my anniversary. If we made it this year, it would have been 6years. Some tots came into me while I was driving.... and its not really easy to pen these down at 2am on a friday morn..... but i'll try anyway....

Does the male always expect the female's position to be in the kitchen and be traditional and settle down when they have a family? Does the female always expect that the male will be romantic and loving and will hold hands till the end of their fate together? Does the new generation thinking really apply where both woman and man are equal?

How true can love be? Someone you love might not love you and you might not love the one who loves you. How ironic can life be? Is there love at 1st sight? When a couple passes the honeymoon period, wat is there to keep the passion and rekindle the fire in them when they all dun put in effort anymore to please each other?

Today is a rainy day. I tot my dreams last nite would wake me up in PMS mood again but i'm quite amazed it didnt. I am not in PMS mood, I am in emo mood..... hahahaha..... walking down memory lane.....

Saw this paragraph when I was reading my usual load of 20-30 blogs a day (and I dun make money out of that ok) and I find this very heart warming.....

"I love you even though you may not be lovable. I'll be there if you need me. I am always here for you. I'll watch over you from the shadows without you knowing. I asked God to give you his blessings instead of me, because I have enough blessings when I have you. My shoulder is always here for you no matter wat and I will hold the skies up when the world come crashing down.

I would give everything I have in this world if you needed everything. I would give my life for you should you need mine. Jus know that in this world, there is someone who loves you and that someone, is me. We may not be together forever in this lifetime but I jus wan you to know that I would do all these for you, simply because I LOVE YOU."

And hey, I didnt need chocolates today.... and I am feeling fine, I didnt get really mad at my student also..... hahaha..... something is wrong with me.... hahahahahah..... I must be mad..... felt restless though, but its usual for the monkey to feel restless when I am bored..... so i decided to do up my bloggie and let my faithful readers benefit from my boring day today.....

Tue Wed Thu

Tuesday was a rush-day. After my class in the morn I rushed to get mooncakes for Kenji's mummy and mummy Rina cos she like mooncakes too. Went to Bengawan Solo to get the mooncakes and my fav egg yolk one left the LAST PIECE. I GRABBED it immediately.

Then I rushed back to bradel had lunch then rushed out again to deliver the mooncake to Kenji's mummy rite into their fridge (cos I bought the ice skin one) then rush to class again. After class, I rushed to my aunty's place to have dinner and I also bought them a walnut cake from Bengawan Solo and then rushed to meet up with my ex-colleagues.

Went to Rain Restaurant & Bar at Dempsy Rd on Tues with Cindy, Cynthia and Jesslyn. They are my ex-colleagues from my 1st permanent job @ Grandlink Group Pte Ltd since 1997. We normally meet up a few times a year to celebrate birthdays and occassions.

I had a Japanese Slipper that was quite strong. In fact the drinks there are quite strong. The ladies had a steamboat which I missed cos I had dinner at my aunty's place, but I was not sorry cos my aunty knew that I was going over and she cooked like 6 dishes and 1 soup for me for dinner. Normally they only have 2-3dishes the max only..... see how loved I am..... **feeling LoVeD**

The verdict of Dempsy Rd - I dun think they will last. Cos the place is too big and scattered. And the prices are quite steep.....but maybe rain restaurant might be holding on cos there is this indian/eurasian waitress (I didnt get her name though), she is really very good, her service is the BEST I have experienced in Singapore, Malaysia, Thailand, Indonesia, Australia, China, Hong Kong (the places I have been to). Really no fight. She should not be in such a place here, she should be in some high class hotel serving high class people cos SHE IS VERY VERY Service-oriented..... very patient and very hardworking and very very very very helpful. I like her alot. Next time if I go, i'll go rain restaurant cos she is there.

Wed also rush-day. From morn till evening the classes were back to back and I couldn't BREATHE. Only 1.5hours lunch break in between which I spent with mummy and Jakes and Pa and the 3 kids at Novena Square Hans.....

Then after my last class at Bukit Batok, I FLEW to Tampines Kerin's place for dinner..... give her another of my 1st time..... 1st time to her house..... The fish she caught - her mum and grandma steamed and cooked a few side dishes for us for dinner..... I LOVE THE EGG AND THE FISH...... so YUMMY..... i was in such a hurry that I forgot to take pics of everything and anything......

And the best thing I LOVE???? I LOVE the layout of her house. Her house has 2 living rooms leh.... and the rooms are quite good size and it is a CORNER unit.... I imagined Junior being able to run around the house freely and he wud be soooooo happy to do so...... anyway junior went there too and he told me he liked the house very much - I suspect its cos he saw Da Bao and Xiao Bao and he has an evil plan (HuMpInG plan) in his mind......

And today Thurs, lotsa people jus like to try to step on my toes and make me bite them back, but I was not in a mood to fight back...... I was deep in tots.....

I usually sms my students to ask if the weather was ok (only for rainy or cold days) and usually tell them I'm on my way. From bradel to Tuas was 45mins, and I sms my student at 5pm, she said its ok, not raining so I said I'll see her at 5.45pm..... I reached at 5.35pm and jus as I parked, she sms me saying Can I turn back cos it jus started to rain. I told her I jus reached.

Guess wat she replied..... Too Bad, I'll see you next week..... WA LAO..... this kind of people also have ah....

I told her, I still have to charge her for this lesson cos I sms her before I travel, as per my terms and conditions..... so, ended up, I went to IMM for shopping lor.... and I was quite happy cos I got a few stuff that I wanted to get for a while.....

See the rain clouds that followed me all the way from bradel to tuas..... see these people really iron-teeth dun wan to believe me when I say its raining on my side.....

Peanut & Butter

Introducing Junior's 2 younger brothers Peanut and Butter. They are same breed as Mouse Tze. I tried to change Mouse Tze's name to Kaya, but it didnt stick. Mouse Tze still sounded better than Kaya.....



And Junior has a new hobby. Pls check out Junior's Blog www.dinojuniorboy.blogspot.com to find out wat he is up to.....

I found Da Bao and Xiao Bao's cousins....

Sunday was quite cool cos I found Da Bao and Xiao Bao's cousins. 2 OF THEM. If you do not know who Da Bao and Xiao Bao is, pls go read Ms Kerin's blog http://www.mrstea.blogspot.com/ for more information cos they are her children.....

I found Pink Bao..... inside a $2 tikam machine where you drop the $2 in and turn and turn.... This machine can be found jus outside the place where Hersheys work and where anna used to work part-time too......

This ladybird is a tamagotchi and Ms Kerin, can exchange my blue one back when it dies in your hands ok..... I think you will love this pink one better cos it is PINK and it is a TAMAGOTCHI and IT IS WORKING..... hahahahaha.......

Then I went to pick my other aunty and we went to my eldest aunty house and there, I saw something sitting on the carpet on the floor.... and I smiled cos it CONFIRMED is Da Bao and Xiao Bao's Cousin...... FAT BAO..... so I asked it to pose for a photo and it was happy to know that it has cousins Da Bao and Xiao Bao and Pink Bao.....

PS: Ms Kerin, they have the same type of weird hair..... sure its cousin and not BIG Bro? By the way, Junior wanted to hump him.... so pls keep your da bao and xiao bao away from junior.... never leave them in tortilla alone with junior..... or else will kena raped.....

Sat FUN

SAT..... yeah..... I finished early and went back to get junior cos long time I didnt bring him out already.....

Picked the gals up (wendy from home and kerin from church) and went to Changi Village for dinner. Actually wanted to eat Nasi Lemak, but as I already ate a bit of mummy's cooking before I went out, I was quite full, so when wendy suggested chicken rice, I was quite ok with it.

We ordered half a chicken (boneless one) and my fav thai sauce chicken feet, and kerin wanted yu sheng..... so we had quite a bit of food.....

After dinner, we went to the fish shops cos Ah ber wanted to get some fishing stuff like weights, floats, hooks and silver pins for my PROfessional fishing trips..... hahahaha.....

Kenji called and he's meeting us at Pet Mart cos we wanted to try the new prawning pond there. So we ZOOMED there..... but it was really crowded and the prawns are soooooo small..... so we decided to go to pasir ris pond to do some serious prawning.....

And the price was ok only..... Jurong still the best in terms of price and prawns..... but not very good for distance travelling hahahaha......

Pasir Ris one - $14.50 per hour. Buy 3 hours $43.50 and get 1 hour free. For 4 hours, you can choose to take 1 rod for 4 hours or 2 rods for 2 hours each..... we chose the 2nd option..... and everyone had a try..... and no one could get anything except KENJI LIM.....

And the best thing is, the monster he caught is equivalent to his size...... everyone else caught small ones, he caught a monsterous giant one.......

And we were not satisfied with 1 giant prawn so we decided to fish. We tried the Sure catch at $10 a fish...... and we got 2 fishes..... kerin fought the fishes and she enjoyed it lots..... think very soon we will give up prawning and go fishing full time..... hahahahaa......

(dunno wat daddy trying to teach his son)

Thurs and Fri Adventure

Met up with Felicia and Brenda on thurs for drinks. I couldn't meet them for dinner cos my class ended late like 9pm.... so I had to meet them at 9.30pm. Parked at Taka with the intention of going to Indochine at Wisma, but the gals were worried that the carpark would close early and I didnt like orchard pubs also, so we decided to go to dempsy road.

Went to Hacienda (I have a feeling that tmr I will be going there with cindy and cynthia and jess also)..... and me and brenda both ordered 2 drinks each, felicia had her large glass of orange juice so she was quite comfortable.....

I ordered a Green Anjou Pear Martini and a champagne. Brenda ordered herself a Green Apple Martini and a white wine I think....

And the best part is, I broke the champagne glass after like 2 sips of my champagne... so wasted.... luckily they didnt charge me for it.....

Fri, was supposed to go on a date with my darling but he's not feeling well so I jioed the 2 ladies out..... we went to Zi Char at fisherman village cos our usual blue hut and the fishing place closed down already and the blue hut moved to the stall next to the zi char. How come we know? Cos we went to look at the menu and its the same lor.... nothing interesing, same old dishes....

So we went to have Zi Char..... We ordered Prawn paste chicken, their famous mee, fried baby squids, Kang kong, and my fav prawn salad.... and kerin ordered coconut (which costs $4) and me and wendy ordered ice tea which 2 glasses = 1 coconut..... hahahahaha.....

And I got surprises for Kerin and Wendy..... heehee... and ms kerin suspected it was YOU KNOW WAT - her enemy the RATS...... I am not so black-hearted one ok.....

I got them silk shawls from Tekka which was really cheap and I got them ring watches as well cos they dun like to wear normal wrist watches......

Rude Neighbours

I know I haven't been blogging for the past week. Been really tired and busy. Dunno issit cos my period coming soon that is why I am sooooo tired, always finding sleep.

Jus moved back from my holiday at bradel yesterday cos my aunties were coming to my place to use the computer and I need to do some downloads for them into their MP3 players and phone....

And we all realised wat rude neighbours I have. They are fairly new neighbours about 1-2years only. The one on my rite is a drunkard who rents his rooms to chinese nationals and they are always so rowdy. He talks at the top of his voice and he scolded my mum once when she put a shoe rack outside our door which happened to be under his window..... wat to do when HDB design the flats like tat? Our fault issit?

Then yesterday we realised that our left neighbour is as rude. They are a family of indians but are christians. It was 9plus pm and we were on our way out when we met up with a friend and stopped by for a chat for less than 2 mins. Yes, we stopped outside their window unwittingly and they jus caught up with each other...... when we were interrupted by a LOUD and RUDE knocking from the inside of the window. HELLO.... your lights were still on and we only stopped for 2 mins..... if you are so high and mighty, PLS GO STAY AT THE CORNER UNIT...... dun ever stay at the corridor cos if you do, the NOISE IS PART AND PARCEL OF YOUR F***ING LIFE..... So rude!!!!! I got a good mind to rattle back but I got more evil plans in my head like cutting off their plants, turning off their water supply and throwing stuff into their windows...... muahahahahahaha..... No la, you think I am so childish meh? I wun do these silly stuff one la....

I need to move out soon cos the longer I stay here, the more pissed off I get and I will get sooooo angry and irritated that I will fight back sooner or later....

Been looking at the prices of apartments these few days. Getting a decent 3 room can still kill cos they still require cash. I saw one that require +65K cash. MAD ah? And its not in any prime location lor....

Now pushing myself hard to work and save money so I can buy my own flat soon..... hope I have money to buy a condo so that my parents can enjoy the facilities and experience a different lifestyle.

Mummy RIna's Birthday 180907

Mummy Rina's birthday celebration was yesterday at Bradel.... close family and friends such as Alex, Kiean and Kenji (not my kenji lim), Adam, Aunty Mary, this new guy which I met for the 1st time named Delvin, his wife (I didnt get her name), Terence, John....etc....

In the afternoon, I brought the children out to get flowers for mummy and let them choose which flowers they wanted to get her..... Jared picked out a sunflower (mummy's fav) and ryan chose yellow roses which was a great choice in mummy's fav colour and Damon took Red roses that showed his love for mummy...... Aunty Mary also brought some yellow flowers for mummy> i think they are daisies if I am not wrong or jimberras or something.....

I went to pick Rina's mummy and daddy cos she was the chef of the day, together with the yummy food she cooked and the party started......

All the fishes that we caught were BBQed and steamed and grilled and baked...... COOL.... and they all tasted very nice and sweet cos they were very fresh and from the sea...... I personally steamed the promfret and everyone said it was GREAT..... YEAH....

D baked mummy a birthday cake and although the icing went bit haywire, it was still very yummy and everyone loved it including junior....

Monday NO blues

Mon, My classes were cancelled for the whole afternoon so my bradel family decided to go to the beach.....

I roller bladed together with John, D, Jakes and Adam.... and realised that I could still roller blade and I STILL DUNNO HOW TO BRAKE...... hahahaha..... they tried to teach me the T-brake, but I still cannot do it......

Jakes rented bicycles for the children and I also went on them cos I am also a kid wat..... and I raced with Jared - he was on foot while I was on his bicycle...... and he won..... After that race, D challenged me to a race on bicycles and I WON..... YEAH YEAH YEAH......

Junior saw us having so much fun so we decided that he should try blading too...... but he had bit trouble fitting into the skates..... and we actually wanted to rent him the ones with 4 wheels the roller skates..... but we didnt la...

After swimming and a day at the beach, the twin monkeys decided to go FISHING..... 1stly we sent the children and women (I am a tom-boy so not counted) back and we prepared for the trip. We wanted to do some hiking to get to exclusive fishing spots, so we really prepped ourselves very well......

And we proceeded to 3 places before we settled on a place where there are NO leeches and very good environment so next time we shall bring the children when we go again next week, but its a secret spot and only my besties should know where..... and we caught MANY fishes..... 6 fishes!!!! Me and D and jakes each caught 2.....

My best catch - the 2kg red snapper....

After reaching home at 6am, I had to gut the fish..... so ah ber the fishmonger went to work.... and I seriously think I can be a fishmonger already.... cos I am quite good at it..... I AM A PROFESSIONAL....

And I slept at 7.30 and woke up at 9am for work.... really a stoning day.....

My new Pet "Mao Zi"

I went to pick up my new pet on Sunday evening with mummy and the boys (including junior). There was a bit of misunderstanding and I had to get a different one instead of the couple that I booked, but its ok, because I am getting the frisky one that I saw last fri.


She was still jumping up and down in her cage as before. She was still as frisky and active as usual and I love her!!! But Junior didnt seem too enthu to have a new sister. I bought her a new cage, complete with a nice little house which she can curl up and sleep and a wheel which she can exercise, a food dish and a slide (or staircase la) heehee.... I bought food and sand for her to bathe and bedding too.....


Actually I wanted to call her apple. This is like 1 rare female that I would take, cos normally I would prefer boys.... but she really stole my heart away..... I affectionally called her "hampy" - the usual name I would give to all my hamsters from before....but somehow it didnt sound rite.... hampy fitted the boys better than her.....


So I brought her back to bradel, where I will be spending my next 10days at, and made everyone think of a nice name for her. Mummy wanted to name her peanut. I wanted to call her butter. Hahahahaha..... Peanut and Butter would be reserved for the other 2 when I get them this week.....


Finally Jakes called her "Mao Zi" as in "Mao Zhe Dong". Wat a weird name.... but it stuck to her hahahahaa...... now everyone calls her mao zi affectionately..... and there she goes....

I let Mao zi out on the couch to let junior and her interact. But Junior was sooooooo scared of her. He kept backing away when faced with her. I think he is scared of ratatouiie too, jus like Kerin. He even barked at her but I dun think she understands his language.....

Kenji's BD

Friday afternoon I was taking a nap when Ms Kerin called me saying she was fed up with her friend Pat cos Pat kept talking about me and comparing me and Kerin and wondering why me and kerin can be friends..... Cos I am tan, she is not, I am pretty, she is not, I am lovely and nice and she is not.... etc.....

And Kerin kept telling me that Pat admire me..... Hahahahahaha..... I have an admirer???? Then someone else sms me telling me I am LOVED. How nice...... but I rejected that someone cos I am in love with someone else. Hahahahahahaa...... its jus a big big joke that PLS PLS PLS I PRAY dun turn real ok?

Friday evening, went to Kedrick's birthday party. Mango was there and I regretted not bringing Junior. Had fun watching them play a card game that was new to me..... But I had to leave after 2hours cos I had early class on sat morn at 7am.

Went to Kenji's place to give him his birthday pressie after midnite..... wat is it? Dun tell you.... But I'm sure he was happy with the pressie..... rite darling?

Sat was bit boring cos ah ber was really tired. I had class, then I rushed back to bake kenji darling's cake after class and everyone said it was better than the cake I baked last year..... last year's cake was too..... erm, artistic.....

NO, Not this one. This one is bought by TFT, with really nice thick and very nice chocolate inside.... From Prima Deli, the best choco cake I tasted so far.... jus nice, not too jerlat, wonderful....

Nice rite? Compared to last year's cake, which one you prefer? This year's bikini and bottom or last year's kinky, artistic cake? I like both cos they are MY creation!!!!

Pls vote and let me know ok.... And I dun take orders for these ok.... only for special people only..... for eg, kerin may get a ratatouiie cake....etc you know who la.....

And today is fillial day. I went to send my parents to the airport at 6am for their flight to Bhutan. And Kerin is out with her mum and Wendy needs to go to her relative house with her family..... Really fillial day hor.....

I need to show my mummy rina my fillial piety too, I shall bring her to collect my new pet hamsters.....

HAhahahahahahaha......

Time is An Illusion

Time is An Illusion

When we're feeling lousy or sad, we tend to forget that life does not go on forever. That every moment is an opportunity for love, knowledge, compassion, creation, and joy, and once gone, can never be retrieved. We are too fixated with the past and all its "could have"s and "should have"s, squander our precious present by feeling sorry for ourselves, and imagine a future that may not come to pass!

We've all been brought up to believe that time is quantity - 60 seconds make up one minute, 60 minutes make up an hour, 24 hours make up a day. But the meaning of time varies from person to person and from context to context.

Time is an illusion, a phantom, a delusion if you will. This moment is gone before I am finished saying "this moment". This 'moment' will virtually never exist! Time is not a thing, it has no substance...you can't touch it, you can't feel it, it cannot imprison you.

We should know not the quantity of our life, or our time spent on this earth - but we should value the quality of our life. Time by itself has no meaning - we have to give it meaning via our thoughts and actions.

There is so much happiness out there waiting for you. And there are plenty of people who can benefit from the joy you will bring them. You may now feel very lonely, and sad, and it may seem quite possible that you will never experience joy, love, spontaneity and fun again. Which is, of course, a most absurd thought. Don't worry, it's just the grief talking? the withdrawal, the initial disbelief and dejection.

It is never too late. Very often, when we lose something valuable to us, we think it's too late to salvage things, to express our love, to show our appreciation. What we fail to realise is that we have ample opportunities to do this with other people we love, and the ones we will come to love!

I urge you not to waste another moment of your life - you'll never get it back.

A Slice of Life is written, produced and presented by Eugene Loh unless otherwise stated. If you wish to share the scripts with others, please credit it to 'Eugene Loh, A Slice of Life, 938LIVE, a station of MediaCorp Radio'.

Rants

Someone accuse me of being childish and doing stuff that only childish people do like unable to let go and get irritated and fly into a temper easily and holding on and pouting and sitting on the issue and not sorting things out like adults do.

But mum, I am a little gal wat. How do you expect me to behave when I am your baby gal? You think I am so BO CHAP like you ah? I feel like strangling you. I think I'll jus do that when you are asleep late tonite..... And I know you are reading this...... dun kill me 1st....

I dunno why I am so easily irritated these days. Weather is hot, I get pissed off easily. I dun have enough sleep and my son bullies me, so of cos I am easily irritated. Maybe early menopause + PMS + depression. My PMS should have been gone by now, but I dunno why I am so irritable and restless and BORED......

I need M&M......

Today I am quite happy cos I bought surprises for Wendy and Kerin and Kerin tot that it was going to be YOU-KNOW-WAT = rataouiie look-alike..... I not so bad one ok..... today really really tired, which is good cos only when I am really really tired, the dreams (or should I say nightmares) dun bug me..... and at least I can rest in peace....

Dreamland is a hate and love situation for me.... I love it and look forward to the happy things I can see there, but I hate it cos too happy a dream will leave me waking up for more and sad dreams make me depressed when I wake up......

PS: everything is going mad inside me...

MAMBO

Wed nite.... Mambo nite. I met up with Kerin for dinner (or supper????) at 9.30pm at eunos where she worked, jioed Kenji lim down for kopi.

Then I drove us down to Zouk for mambo nite. The songs not very happening and I feel OLD there cos lotsa young boy boys. I am still finding the spot where I went to years back. I guess after renovation, everything jus seemed different hahahahaha.....

We decided to leave at 1pm cos I had no more voice after playing 5,10,15 with Kerin and Christine. We wanted to go 1 nite stand but there was NO CROWD there. So we went upstairs to Gotham Penthouse but ALSO NO CROWD..... dunno where all the humans went to....

Finally we went Attica and TADA..... all the angmos and everyone were there...... had bit of hip hop and R&B and then finally home sweet home at 3plus......

I am using 2 shades darker than my usual foundation but I dunno why still so ghostly looking, but at least much better than my usual colour la..... going to buy clinique one soon......

Kerin said I looked very pretty yesterday. Really meh? She said she never seen me dress up so nicely before...... Pls lor, when I wear my killer boots and short short skirt why you never say anything....... yesterday dressing was so-so only lor I feel.... maybe something different la.... I LIKE TO BE UNIQUE - I AM A TAURUS mah......

And my 8cm wedges nearly killed me yesterday lor. Try wearing them to dance and walk around and DRIVE...... my legs almost broke and my feet hurt like mad........

Thurs was very tiring for me...... I went Ikea, Giant and Tekka with Mummy to do lotsa shopping.... I was sooooooo tired that mummy had to push me in her trolley....

After that, i had my classes and mummy was very nice to bring the children to meet me after work at Jurong East..... so I decided that we should go Daiso at IMM. Huge place..... and the children had a treat from mummy - kiddy rides..... I am soooooo happy.... Thanks mum.... See 4 happy children....

I also bought junior a bolster for him to hug when he sleeps but alas he ended up humping it...... good lor, 2-in-1 thing for him to hug and hump...... dun need waste money buy 2 different toys for him to do different things... So this is wat my son did.....

BITCHOLOGY

BITCHOLOGY

When I stand up for myself and my beliefs,
they call me a bitch.
When I stand up for those I love,
they call me a bitch.
When I speak my mind, think my own thoughts or do things my own way,
they call me a bitch.

Being a bitch means I won't compromise what's in my heart.
It means I live my life MY way.
It means I won't allow anyone to step on me.
When I refuse to tolerate injustice and speak against it,
I am defined as a bitch.

The same thing happens when I take time for myself
instead of being everyone's maid, or when I act a little selfish.
It means I have the courage and strength to allow myself
to be who I truly am and won't become anyone else's idea
of what they think I "should" be. I am outspoken,
opinionated and determined. I want what I want and there
is nothing wrong with that!

So try to stomp on me, try to douse my inner flame, try to
squash every ounce of beauty I hold within me. You won't
succeed. And if that makes me a bitch, so be it. I embrace
the title and am proud to bear it.

B - Babe
I - In
T - Total
C - Control of
H - Herself

B = Beautiful
I = Intelligent
T = Talented
C = Charming
H = Hell of a Woman

B = Beautiful
I = Individual
T = That
C = Can
H = Handle anything

"If you can't do something right, get a woman to do it."

PS: I am not an idiot and I dun intend to be one. I am a stubborn Queen Lala monkey bull the 1st the last and the one and only. Too bad for you, my bull horns are out now, together with the monkey tail + the devils' fork so I am pure EVIL. I may be nice, but I can kill you NICELY too.

Sat, Sun, Mon

Saturday

I went Ikea with mummy and the 3 children. Bought lotsa stuff cos they like having sale...... things were like cheaper than usual and people were buying things in trolley-loads.....

As I was earlier by half and hour, I helped myself shopping 1st... and Disaster..... I was putting things into my trolley as I walked along the aisles...... luckily mummy called me out for hotdog or else I will overspend and go bankrupt..... hahhahaa.....

After our hotdogs, we went shopping and this time I cut down on lotsa things......but still managed to get these..... at only $10.50..... total damage only $10.50. I was amazed. Cos I bought toys for junior, I bought a spotlight, I bought towels, I bought vases and flowerpots.....

Sunday
Sunday afternoon was spent with us going over to rina’s mum’s place in yishun where we side-tracked to a fish shop to get a net that is going to be permanent resident in tortilla cos I can stop anywhere I wan and try my luck at getting fish anywhere….. YEAH…

Jared got another dragon fish to accompany his dragon fish (bit lonely la) and I got 2 new pets. I have 2 fighting fish. 1 blue one named Bluey and 1 red one named Berry…. Jared’s dragon fish are called Golden and Silver…..

After fishing at Nee Soon Rd, we went back to bradel, I got ready for my dinner with Kenji at Yishun ( Ya I know waste petrol going up and down…. But it was still early, way too early to go for the dinner at 5pm rite).

This auction cum 7th month dinner is something you have never seen before one….. its full of LIQUOR. Only 5 items are not alcoholic, the rest are Gordon Bleus, Martell, VSOP, XO, Chivas, Red Wine….. but no vodka or else I surely bid…

Monday

Mummy went grocery shopping and I was left to look after all the children in the house - Jared, Damon, Ryan, Jakes, Ed and Junior. So when mummy came home, I brought Jared, Damon and Ryan to greet her and junior decided to come along too..... he ended up on the groceries and ON THE PAMPERS hahahahhaa.....

I kept bugging mummy to help me trim my hair - jus trim away the layered part.... and finally she did....

Dun I look better now? My hair dun look like a mop anymore.... Mummy's really good with her hands and the scissors..... YEAH, BTW, I'm gonna hold a pyjamas party at bradel soon.... who want to join? Make up and doing each other's hair and watch movies and talk cock and drink....

I joined my aunts for dinner at home and then we went to Lor Lew Lian to watch getai cos it was the last nite.....and I brought my son with me...... can see him sleeping peacefully inside his bag? Dun worry, there are many holes for the air to go in at the side, the front and the back - he wun suffocate.....

HOME SWEET HOME..... zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

TAURUS WOMAN

T a u r u s April 20 - May 20
TAURUS WOMAN

A slim moderately tall woman. Taurus woman is funny and a jolly person. Square facial bone structure, high cheek bone. Her round big eyes sparkle with wit and curiosity. You will not see many round faces Taurus women, and mainly she will have a strong jaw line. She is a constantly change person. If she up sets, she will not show it and will keep it to herself for a long time, and will remember them so well. If she gets really mad at you, you will suddenly become a totally and completely stranger to her.

She is a patient person, but always need new excitement. She hates long talk meeting, long and endless conversation. She can be in love with you today, and one day she could act as if she has never loved you before. She has patient with what she wants to do and will never give up until she gets there. She will be very persistent in what she is doing till she has reasons for stopping her project, then she will quit.

Money for Taurus woman is not the most important factor in life. She thinks of money as an instrument for assuring of a good living. She has more satisfaction in achieving her goals more than satisfaction in fine cloths and luxuries. If you like a woman who always thinks of love and romance, then you are dating the wrong girl. You can not tell her to stay at home, she likes to work and preferred not work at home.

She loves animals and likes to surround by animals. Love is in her head, but Freedom is in her soul. She has her own idea about love and afraid to show her true feeling for fear of rejection. She is not the type to talk about love, but she sure has a strange way to show it. She is not good in showing when she is in love, but if she loves you she will be honest to you than any other women.

She will be honest to her love one, but at the same time seems distant. You will have a good relationship with her, if you allow her freedom. Do not force her to be with you in a poker game which she hates, but let she goes out swinging with her friends if she wants to. She will be different than other girls, and she thinks different is one of her unique quality. She is a public figure but belongs to no one.She will not stay with you, if she thinks you are not sincere. She likes you to have personality, but better not to compete with her. Loves her, but not too much for she afraid it will limiting her freedom.

She always stand out of the crowd for something she dares to do. You could see her dress like a poor farmer dinning in the fancy restaurant, or dress like a nun in an a cocktail dress party. If you are a politician who are looking for a wife, she will make a good one because she is cleverly smart and she could get along socially with any type of crowds.

She is not a jealous type because she has to know you thoroughly before accepting you in her life. She has more curiosity in life than wondering if right now you are flirting with someone else. If you keep a distant from her, or go away for a few days, she will miss you more. Even when she is dating you, she also able to fond of someone else, if you do not have something she is looking for. She will never disappoint you or hide behind your back to make you loose face, but she is the type who just going to tell you to your face that " We're better off breaking up".

She always remember her first love. Taurus woman holds the best record for divorce for she does not care about how people think of her, but every things should be done for "Happiness".

She has lots of friends and sure of herself, so you will hardly see she delays any of her thoughts before her action. If she think of something, she will go ahead and does it. She has many men wanting her for her constant changes is the challenge. She can be cute and funny, but suddenly cool and tough. She has her own style of dressing up, so you could see her dress like an old mate today, and tomorrow she may dress like she comes from Mars. She will have that interesting hair, dress and a look unique from anyone else.

She likes to learn about your dreams and your thought. She has fun teasing you and making jokes. If she did something wrong, she won't hide it from you, but do not ask when she is not in the mood to talk about it. She hates to owe people money and take promise seriously. If you promise to pay her back, you'd better paid up.

If you want to make it with Taurus woman, then do not be jealous or possessive, do not be narrow minded, do not criticize about nonsense or small and insignificant matters. Try to likes her friends and let she has her privacy, then she can be very sweet to you.

See Ma, No Legs

If you happen to take a look at my tagboard and wonder why me and kerin are acting so weird and leaving weird messages to each other, Pls read Kerin's Blog especially the tagboard cos we jus found out that we both LOVE TO WRITE LETTERS in the past.

And to rekindle the passion of writing letters, we have decided to start writing letters again, but this time, to her and she, to me...... but SAVE THE EARTH cos paper is expensive and last time there was no email or internet during my era..... we used paper last time but now we must SAVE THE EARTH..... so we are writing short letters via tagboard, via blog, via friendster, via MSN, via email, via youtube, via all sorts of channels we can access thru the internet.

I remember the love letters I received from guys and letters I exchanged with my friends and the diaries I wrote and the autograph books my friends signed and the precious gifts that held great memories for me......these are all still with me. And they are up in my cupboard sitting in a box labelled "THE UNFORGETTABLES"......

Wait till I take a walk down memory lane, then I will maybe take some pics to show you and some of you friends might be able to identify stuff that you have given me...... if there is no pics of the stuff you gave me, relax...... its jus too much for me to go thru but rest assured its there.....

Meanwhile, its 3.30am and I have to wake up at 7am tmr morn..... so I seriously need sleep. Why am I still up so late? Cos I was re-decorating the room and arranging stuff and INVENTING stuff that is PET-FRIENDLY..... cos junior enjoys peeing on POLES and LEGS......

So I did this.....

I took out the legs of the 2nd fan in the room..... Junior has to tell me.... SEE MA, NO LEGS... I CANT PEE.... HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA......

Friday Adventure

Very busy weekend.


Friday

I dun have any classes in the afternoon so I wanted to do something. I suggested taking a train ride to JB and back. In the end, I drove there cos I felt it would be more convenient to have tortilla ard in case we wanted to go elsewhere. Rite move....


I went to pick Kerin up and then mummy, me, kerin and the 3 children went in to JB ard noon.... 1st stop - KFC @ Holiday Plaza. I WUV their KFC there. Maybe holiday mood that's why it always tastes better.....

This is my fav photo...

We shopped ard holiday plaza for a while. We went ard almost the whole building and me and mummy were happy to get our mangoes with chilli and black sauce..... although the mangoes we liked were different (mine was riper than hers), but we enjoyed it very much.....


I also "bought" blue eye shadow and mascara and mascara curler...... mummy also "bought" lipstick, lip gloss and nail polish..... Kerin BOUGHT almost RM50 worth of stuff from watsons.....

See my eyeshadow and my mascara made my eyes more seducive rite...

Then we went off to Pasar Raya next to Carrefour. That is Rina's fav place - heehee..... I also went shopping there for cheap stuff.... The children had a great time running ard in the big big store and Jared came up with an innovative idea to take pics..... he posed while I ran outside to capture it....



Jared became a mannequin....

After our Pasar Raya stop, we proceeded to Jusco cos its Kerin's 1st time there..... hahahaha.... she likes to give me her 1st times and I enjoy taking people's 1st times hahahahaha..... Kerin and me got Wendy a ring that you can see further down in this entry (evening programs) and the best thing there that we indulged on was......

DUNKIN' DONUTS!!!

After getting our favourite stuff, we proceeded back to visit Pa in hospital and on the way back..... someone went to LALA land....

After dropping off the children and mummy, we went to pick Wendy up for dinner and some possible drinks.... in the end, we ended up at QUALITY HOTEL porriage buffet cos Wendy didnt go there before also..... hahhaahhaa.... another 1st time that given to me.... YEAH *proud*....

As there were many people at the lobby and Ah ber didnt wan to wait and stand there for the next half an hour (cos we very early), so I left my name with the waitress (copycat from the 1st customer who did it). So I was 2nd in the queue.

We went to the lounge and had some drinks to pass the time and talk cock. We gave wendy her surprise and she was delighted!!! Kerin cant help but wan to take photo of her ring that she bought too at Jusco.....

Our drinks - Mine was Blue Romance, Wendy had red wine, Kerin had apricot brandy with 7-up. They tasted great!!!

After our drinks, I went straight to the counter to get my place, but the damn waitress (different one) ignored me COMPLETELY, jus like I am transparent. Wat the F***. I waited..... for like 2mins..... then I marched in and talked to the gal whom I placed my name with..... immediately that f***ed up waitress gave me a table..... B****.... See me wear shorts and T-shirt look me no up issit? Or look I so young maybe give you teenage trouble issit??? Damn...

But I enjoyed myself cos I happily helped myself to the FISH.. my fav......

After our buffet SUPPER, we headed home.....

Its a rainy day

I woke up this morn to a rainy day. I guess rainy days are the worst cos emotions, tots, feelings, everything inside you goes on a roller coaster ride that runs out of control.


I have been dreaming about some people who used to be close to me, who used to be part of my life and whom I used to love....... and I hate that kind of feeling when you can only see them in your dreams, when you wake up wanting more, when you wake up feeling deprived and missing something......

Some people whom you hang out with almost everyday, now reduced to strangers, now how's that going to feel to you? Sore rite? I dunno if its only me, only me where I am here wondering and thinking and keeping them some place inside my mind and heart or is it the same thing with them? Or they are not the same. They continue to live life without any tinge of me anywhere.... or is their situation there same as me here pondering and wondering?

Fate plays people in a weird way. It is divided into 2 parts - 缘 and 份.

缘 is where you meet these people who become your friends, your close friends, your best friends, your bf/gf, your lover, your partner.....

But without 份, you will never last as friends, as close friends, as best friends, as bf/gf in a relationship, as a lover, as a partner, as a hubby/wife....

That is why people say 有缘无份 or 缘分已尽 when a marriage or friendship breaks up.

It is used to say that in a marriage, their fate is sealed with a child. Not many couples have children, does it mean that their fate is not sealed? I dun wan to think so much, but tots are invading me.... HELP, I NEED MY M&Ms again...... I seriously think I am gaining weight due to the chocolates, but who cares...... as long as I am happy rite?

So I must treasure the people around me so as not have anymore regrets of letting the 份 go..... We shall have 缘分 till the end of our lives...... side by side..... I know there are many faithful readers to my blog... give me some comments will ya? Jus leave me a tag pls..... let me know you love me or hate me pls..... hahahahahhahaa..... I know the songs a bit depressing, but it reflects my mood rite now..... sorry to make you depressed as well..... hahahahhaa..... I better get back to my M&Ms before I commit suicide.....

Its the time of the month you must understand... hahaha, kenji's going to tell me that if I am pregnant i'll get pre and post natal blues again......... Its my dreams la. I havent been dreaming for quite a while already, but its raining so I slept in for a while and TADA..... they came lor..... Ok, now I'm gonna write down my dreams somewhere and try to sleep again to continue my dream and tell them to PISS OFF....

远方的祝福

你曾说过
要永远陪着我
直到哪天
我们都已长大
你曾经是我
最大的寄托
也是我温暖的港口
你净说你要远去
到一个遥远的地方
没想到竟是走得那么突然

远方的你
会不会觉得孤单
失去了一些
烦恼的声音
远方的你
有没有一丝想念
少了我们
陪伴在你身旁
在你身旁

你的笑容
时时浮现脑中
可爱模样
常伴随着我们
你的自信风采
让我难以忘怀
你给的呵护
难以宵舍

远方的你
会不会觉得孤单
失去了一些
烦恼的声音
远方的你
有没有一丝想念
少了我们
陪伴在你身旁
在你身旁

我只想问
你现在好吗
我只相信
你一定在某处等待
远方的你
会不会觉得孤单
失去了一些
烦恼的声音
远方的你
是否能收得到
我们给你的
遥远真挚祝福

Getai again + RANTS

Today i 跑 (run) 2 getais. Mad rite. Nope, not me, my aunts even madder than me. I wanted to watch Lin Li and Xu Qiong Fang being MCs at Blk 572 AMK and jus nice, Liu Ling Ling is at Blk 527 AMK, which is jus a street distance away. So I happily parked my car at Blk 572 and watched for a while.

Felt bit dizzy, the same old feeling of anemia when I am bleeding and I dun have enough blood in me. I saw a bit of stars but being the experienced me, I quickly left the crowd to find a place to sit down and let the blood regulate inside me. This is wat you get when you have a blood disorder.

Feeling better, I decided to walk to tortilla to take a rest, then my aunts (not knowing my situation), decided to visit the other getai......

So we walked over together......

I was feeling fine...... till the monkey tail in me came out again..... hiak hiak hiak.... I was not the shortest person there, but yet I couldnt see the stage cos liu ling ling has sooooooooooo many supporters, they even climb on the bidding stage to watch her show...... an old man (he looks 90) from indonesia even came to give liu ling ling an angbao and sang a duet with her and she gave him a kiss...... wow.....

So the monkey me, did wat a true blooded monkey would do - MONKEY SEE, MONKEY DO. I climbed onto a lorry and sat there watching the show for 15mins before my aunts decided that we should leave..... btw, they also bought her VCD..... and I have yet to watch my Ong Lei VCD as well..... hahahahha..... once a year, must support a bit la.....

Brought Junior down for his da bian walk...... and he refused to get back into the room...... my parents were laughing at him cos he was using his bum to stop himself from being tugged back into the room by me..... my dad had to lure him back into the room with "chocolates" and it worked!!!!

Now my son is worried cos he knows I am really damn pissed with him for behaving like tat..... he's trying to get my attention while i am typin this entry here....... nvm..... let him worry for a while..... i'll kiss him later....

Had a chat with kenji jus now..... poor baby he's also sick and his voice is very sexy..... hahahahahaha...... Darling next time you are having flu and would like WASABI, pls push it into your nose instead of eating it..... most likely it will cure your runny nose instantly..... :) Luv ya..

3hours internet-less

Phew.... I can post here means my internet connection is back..... I was internet-less for 3hours. I wanted to do stuff online when I realised my router doesnt have any lights on them, meaning, it blew????

I contacted the relevant people, and went down to collect my new router on a 1 to 1 FOC exchange basis..... YEAH....... they even gave me one with a higher version..... yeah.... must be the winking I did to them..... hiak hiak hiak.....

And I also cfm that red dates are my enermy, not goats milk..... Cos this morn I did a little test.... I drank goats milk and TADA..... no rashes.... so I guess it must be the red dates then....

Yesterday my aunts called to find out how was I and whether the evil rashes faded or not..... yup I told them, all gone.... so they decided...... TO ASK ME TO FETCH THEM TO WATCH GETAI..... see my aunts.... no heart one..... say wan to visit me then ask me go fetch them since I am ok le......sigh..... so I went lor..... brought them to pasir panjang to watch getai.... not very fantastic this round...... cos the bidding and the getai too close, resulted in me hearing "Jit bah buei zhap buei..... Jit xia..... neng xia...... sar xia......" instead of listening to the songs......

Well, after getai I went with them to outram park food centre to have supper...... nothing fantastic too...

And now I am craving for CHOCOLATES.... I already down 2 packs of M&Ms already, with 1 Crunch...... and a few here and there..... I become chocolate monster since yesterday evening..... I got lotsa tots wan to post here, but due to time constraints, I need to rush to class again..... but luckily I fixed my router problem.... YEAH..... I cannot do without internet..... And I miss you darling Kenji.....

RASHES

GREAT. They alll came together...

Yesterday I went to AMK Getai with my aunts after dinner. I started to feel bit itchy but i guessed that I didnt bathe yet after a long day so I attributed the itch to that.....

After the getai I went home to bath and sleep. The whole nite I couldn't sleep well cos I was feeling itchy here and there.....

This morn, I woke up to go for class, when I received a huge morn greeting from my body. Big patches of rashes greeted me with a rude awakening..... I was shocked. But I decided to go for class cos its only 1 class....

For the whole day, the rashes invaded me...... I had rashes all over my body..... I had to take my usual flu tablet to help stop the itch and cool them down.... it worked so well that I slept away my whole afternoon......

I am still wondering wat could have caused the itch. Could it be the goat's milk? Could it be the red dates? Could it be a chemical reaction by these 2? I think its red dates cos I had rashes once when I ate them..... as for goat's milk, maybe the bottle I drank from was contaminated so my body is trying to tell me something is wrong, but cant be, cos me kerin and wendy drank from the same bottle and they are FINE...... GREAT....

Plus, today my menses came but hahahahaha, i wasn't even aware of it... cos no cramps, no pain...... great.....

So today Ah ber is a groggy ah ber cos I am on flu tablets and I can feel the one that I took 20mins ago working..... feeling bit giddy and groggy now..... will go lie down and knock myself out soon....

Outing to Qian Hu, Goat Farm, Farm Mart.....etc

Today is sunday and I felt so happy...... dunno for wat reason also. I was bit tired cos I slept around 3plus last nite and was up at 6.45am for work and was still sleepy when I picked wendy and kerin up to go for buffet american breakfast at THE BEACH HUT..... but I was happy!!!!

We met kenji at 9.30am there and we enjoyed our breakfast for 1.5hours.... the buffet spread is quite good, but might be even better if there was cereal as well..... dun need a wide variety, jus cornflakes and coco krunch will do...... heehee..... $9.90 eat-all-you-can buffet american style breakfast is a great way to start your day...... YEAH..... Junior had fun having his scrambled eggs and ham too.....

After our hearty breakfast we made our way to Pasir Ris where we went to the shop that Junior was bought from. I wanted to show them Junior's birth-mother. She looked exactly like junior except her coat was not as nice as junior. She was also bigger than junior, given the fact that she is a female..... Junior definately takes after his mummy..... but alas today she was not let out cos of the drizzle.....but we saw a bulldog that kenji was really fascinated about..... that bulldog was comunicating with kenji to buy him..... $3.8K leh..... must SERIOUSLY consider.....buy him $3.8k then hes going to make me bankrupt by eating away all my money doesnt sound good rite.....

Junior went for a swim at Pet mart and after his bath, kenji left for home and we 3 gals (nicked the rambutan sisters), went to the west side of singapore (YES, from east to west.... we are not mad).....

Kerin talked about the fish spa that she read from somewhere about having fish nibbling on your feet to take away the dead cells..... so we went to QIAN HU.....


ON OUR WAY THERE......















Poor Monkey had to endure Wendy's insanity.....luckily junior was sitting in the back seat with Kerin or else I think he might be hanging from somewhere like tat too......


When we reached QIan Hu, we walked ard to check out the place..... and decided to do the fish spa after interviewing 2 aunties and 1 uncle (who was busy entertaining us on how it felt in the pool).


As usual, we 3 are the noisiest bunch of people there when we put in out feet into the spa pool (cos the water is cold - we tot it was warm due to the smoke in the centre) and also the noisiest bunch when the fish came to nibble our feet (cos ticklish) and the noisiest bunch when we sat there for the half an hour chatting (cos nothing else to do ma).....


The fees are $10 for half an hour. Quite reasonable...... Slippers and towel is provided for you..... Qian Hu is at Lim Chu Kang Road...... before the cemeteries and airbase.....

See my beautiful, smooth but still very tanned FEET.... hahahahah..... why cannot invent whitening fish ah???? The feeling was really great - it was ticklish in the beginning but after 5mins you tend to enjoy the nibbling off your feet.....and the fishes give out vibrations as they nibble away, if you had a chair with a back you would have fallen asleep already..... like having foot reflexology (minus the pain)....

After that, we went to Farm mart, then to Goat Farm, then to Cow Farm, then to Frog Farm, then to Bird Farm. But alas Cow and Bird farm not opened cos 1 went crazy (mad cow) and 1 was not feeling too well (Bird Flu).......

The goats were really insane too..... but clever..... they smell the grass that we bought and if they are fresh they will eat it, if not, they will move away..... And apparently, they like to eat interestingly new stuff also..... for eg, MY HAIR, MY SHORTS, MY BAG.....

Yup, they tried to pull my shorts into their mouths to chew but luckily I am strong enough to pull myself away (I got too near them la..... cos I very enthu ma). Then as I tried to take photos with them, they pulled my hair into their mouth and I lost a bit of hair trying to rescue myself from the mouth that threatened to make me BOTAK..... and they decided that my bag looked interesting too cos they tried to bite and eat it..... luckily I pulled it back, but I heart pain cos its my new bag that I received from Teacher Jesslyn for MY TEACHER"S DAY PRESSIE......

After our adventure, in the end, this is the one who was most tired...... even though he was in the car most of the time.....

CHURCH + A NITE OUT

Saturday was a good day for me.

I went to meet Kerin and Chelsia at Spore Expo at 4.45pm and we went to CITY HARVEST CHURCH at Hall 7. For the 1st time in my life I realised that Kerin has actually been a christian for 7 YEARS. My God..... And I didnt even know I have such a great sister beside me..... God really works wonders when you least expect it....

The routine is still the same there, the praise and worship, then announcements, then sermons, then closing.....

I dun really merged with the songs...... cos i didnt really know them well but well, I still sang along cos I love God.

The preacher was Pastor Kong. I love him cos the way he speaks can move the hills and mountains and even the earth. The sermon was about the sets of 2 things that we can choose and GRACE.

I liked the part on GRACE. It was the 2nd half of the sermon and I was prepared to be starting to get restless and irritated for sitting down so long and be in a "classroom" again.... But I was amazed that all the restlessness went away when the 1st point hit me.... I see Pastor Kong as an instrument of God that God used to send His message to the people in the audience..... and at least 1 person in the audience dropped their JAW...... and it was me....

Because we believe in our God, we have the impression that God will love us no matter wat happens, no matter how bad we sin, we are still lovable and we still have God's grace upon us..... But I learnt....

1) Grace does not absolve us from the ten commandments (Exodus 20 of the bible) that are great sins of mankind that lead us to lawlessness, lead us to destruction, lead us to go to hell....

2) Grace is not the license to sin.

3) Grace does not absolve us from confessions.

4) Grace does not absolve us from sanctification.

5) Grace does not excuse us from works.

Every single point made me bow my head lower. Cos God was definately sending me a message, He was absolutely talking to me.....because I fail all 5 points....

1) His ten commandments: These are temptations and I know I have at least broke a few of them. I am not fluent with the bible, I dun read it at all, and I dun even know where each verse is, but I only know that I am true to myself and I know that I have sinned cos I am not perfect.

2) I always think that as long as i am a child of God, I will be forgiven even when I sin, and God's grace will always be with me. I even behave like a devil when I tempt church goers not to go to church but go to have fun with me (YOU KNOW WHO), saying that God will understand, God will forgive you..... see the circumstances....

I always say God will see the circumstances and the situation that you were in to make urself sin and forgive you for the circumstances around you....

But now I realise that you are the one looking at the circumstance. If we really love God, we would not look at circumstance but LOOK AT HIM..... and ignore the circumstance around us.... its not the circumstances that make u sin, its urself who CHOSE to look at the circumstance.....

3) Confessions. How many of us are actually brave enough to admit our mistakes and ask for forgiveness.... actually I am not brave enough. Everytime things happen, i get affected badly and I dun think clearly. I need days, weeks, mths, years to sort things straight. I need courage to say sorry and admit my mistakes. Even if I do admit my mistakes, I am admitting them unwillingly sometimes......jus for the sake of admitting.....

4) We need to constantly purify ourselves. In the sense of mind, in the sense of mentality, in the sense of spirituality, in the sense of our heart, in ourselves. Things come in and cloud our vision and we lose our way. That is why we become lost sheep. BTW, sheep is the dumbest animal on earth cos their brains are small..... they can NEVER find their way back from the fields that is why they need shephards and sheep dogs to guide them back to their enclosure every dusk....

5) Do not procrastinate about work. Cos work can tell others what kind of person are you. If you do a good work, no amount of fire can burn it down, but if you do a sloppy job, it will crash cos foundation is not there..... be it your job, be it your relationship, be it your friendship, be it anything you do...... do a good work out of it..... cos it will show in time.....

See.... I am guilty of ALL 5 points......

I decided to CHANGE THE WORLD by Acts of Random Kindness (ARK) by building an ark, not outside to show people, but inside to store the kindness, the goodness, the best things I want for myself and others and SHINE..... (bullshit ok)

I going to reflect on my life and think of things that I have not done my best and endeavour to do them better the next opportunity I get....

Anyway, after church, the words of the sermon were still rooted deep within me....

But I still needed to eat.... so me and Kerin and Chelsia went to TIAN FU for dinner..... YEAH..... and after dinner we picked Wendy up and went for a movie cos we ran out of ideas as to where to go. We went to Century Square at 11plus......

With no show in mind that we wanted to watch, we jus happen to see EVAN ALMIGHTY with jus 1 min left to showtime. We grabbed 3 tickets and went in, jus nice to sit down and escape all the commercials.....and the show started.....

This show was partly about obedience to God and that evil things will be revealed so no point doing them.....

Again I learnt something from the movie...... I learnt that God does not give you the EXACT things you always wanted, because He wanted to give you something better. And ALWAYS for me, the things He gave me, were always better in many ways than my original request. And when God does give you stuff, He always let you have a choice. He doesnt wrap your request in wrapping paper and give it to you. He will have you choose your own opportunities to make your request better than your original request. I finally know how God works..... so cool..... Improvements, innovations, upgrades, opportunities..... wonderful......

Having calling it a day, I went back to bradel to watch "shocking asia" with the gang (terence, john, adam were there) and even aunty irene was watching it together.... it was really shocking cos it showed the op where the guy's privates were transformed into a gal's privates and lotsa other stuff which I think is quite obsence to reveal here.....

I am going to CHURCH

YEAH. I am finally doing something I enjoy..... I AM GOING TO CHURCH.... I AM GOING BACK TO CITY HARVEST CHURCH.....

Only for today la.... cos my classes cancel in the afternoon. I am meeting Ms Kerin at EXPO..... hahahaha. Mr Kenji you wan go with me? The last time we went was like.........????????

Praise GOD..... I am coming back to Your Presence.....

Fisherman nite

Yesterday was Fri nite, so I went to pick Ms Kerin from her cellgroup at Clarke Quay and we went to Fisherman cos she was dying to go there be a fishmonger....

Jesslyn and Cadrina came along too.... they were supposed to meet us at the carpark there..... When we reached, we walked around cos the 2 ladies didnt go there before... We actually wanted to go to our usual haunt but amazingly, must be due to our lack of patronage, it CLOSED. No more samuel,even guojie (tricia's bro) also not working there anymore).....

Felt bit sad cos no barrel of heineken, no fisherman basket, no fishing excitement that comes together with the food and drinks....

Ended up, me and Ms Kerin wanted to try somewhere new.... so Ms Kerin brought me to Summer Breeze.... she went there before la, but she wan to intro new place to me....

They had a great environment there... and I am sure junior will be welcomed there too cos they have 3 resident tabby cats there....

Heineken is served in bucket, so we took the Hoe Garden Barrel ($45)....+ desserts (range fm $4-$8) for each of us + Jumbo platter ($31 - but the spread not bad)...

Hoe Garden (smaller than our usual place, but taste ok)

Cadrina's Black and White (Brownie with Vanilla Ice cream)

Jess & Kerin ordered the same Ice Slim (Different ice cream flavours + fresh fruits + waffle) - MOUTH WATERING....

My Peach Cheesecake (2/5 only) - it jus came out from the fridge and not very yummy.... I rather go buy the Cheesecake from Giant supermart than this..

Our Jumbo Platter..... lotsa different things rite.... YUMMY...

Just compare the size of my fist and the plate - it was HUGE + GIGANTIC

Then you see the pictures, congratulations, we have a new ZI LIAN KUANG.... See whose face appear most times..... and she trying to act CUTE lor...

Seriously I think Kerin and Cadrina together really amusing lor.... they can make really good friends and they can entertain me and Jess for the whole nite..... I went back around 2.45am laughing when I tot about them.....

And I jus saw someone's blog where I am affectionately called "HER BEST FRIEND". Great, now I have to make her go thru appraisals and interviews to find out why she deserve to be MY BEST FRIEND. I dun have many besties - I choose carefully one ok..... of cos the tot of UPGRADING you to be one of my besties crossed my mind la.... but due to certain disruptions that happened in our lives recently, I dropped the idea cos I am scared la..... scared of Shit lor....

Kawaii??? Cute rite? Kenji had this on his MSN and I took from him.... we were arguing about the 3 things the panda is holding - seriously does it look like 1) joss sticks or 2) match sticks??? Pls leave me a message on my tag board thanks....

PS: Nothing to say.... hahahahahaha...