Kerin's Surprise

Tmr is the 30th November and I will be seeing sunway lagoon tmr!!! But my period came yesterday and I am having so far one of the worst cramps ever before..... Been feeling giddy and having terrible cramps and backache. Wa, its really tough being a gal.

This morn at midnite, I sms dearest Kerin mei a Happy Birthday message and I seriously hope I was the 1st one to reach her. Heehee....

Today morn, I woke up at 8plus, did other stuff and then went out to get the ingredients for kerin mei's surprise. Reached bradel at 10plus and started baking her birthday cake only at 11am.

Yesterday i already asked her many questions so I know her movement for today. I was prepared to go down to international building to surprise her once the cake was ready (cos they planning to sing KTV there). But, luckily for her (and me), they were still at her place. It seemed that I wasn't the only one surprising her hiak hiak hiak.....

So I told her to wait at her staircase and I zoomed down from bradel to tampines in 15min..... and from her face I dunno if she was surprised or stunned or WAT? Heehee. But I guess its a nice tot from me la......

But the gals were so nice, they cut the cake and shared. No one complained even when it looked like shit and tasted overly sweet and too eggy..... Why? You all scared I beat you up issit? :)

So I decided to be nice and sent the 5 of them down to international building for their well-deserved KTV session. I had bad cramps and backache and giddy spells, so I didnt join them la. Feeling bit sick from my monthly invasion.....

I had already planned this for quite a while, but i felt the cake was a bit let down. I tot more eggs would make it taste better so I added 2 more eggs and did 2 recipes instead of the usual 1. But the cake turned out very heavy. And the mickey mouse I wanted to make dun really look like mickey mouse lor. Hahahaha...... but the kids saw it and insisted it was mickey mouse. Ok lor..... bit failed mickey mouse, but IT IS mickey mouse ok..... hahahahaha.....

Seriously, its NOT this one. This one I painted when I was in secondary school ok.... Hahahhahaa......

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Erm, shouldn't have shown you the nice nice mickey mouse rite. Now you compare this one looks like shit rite. Hahahahahahaha......

I cannot sleep

It's 5.05am. I am still awake not because I am too excited to sleep, but i was sorting out my swimming students and the details so that I can handover back to the school..... I'm cutting down the number of classes I am coaching at the moment, drastically. I really hope Jenny doesn't kill me for doing this.

I am actually cutting off 70% of my students. Some of the students have already known how to swim and they have already "graduated" so I have lesser headaches. But I still have 70% unaccounted for, especially the ones in the morns and the afternoons. I have already stopped taking in new classes since october, but why are my students still so much????

And I need to adjust certain classes to later in the evenings like 7.30pm onwards so that I can make it in time from my full-time work to coach...... hectic lifestyle, but can earn more money is good..... And finally, I am cutting off all my classes (i hope totally cos I have 1 more hanging there till jan08) on sundays.... Hope sundays I can either sleep in later or go on morn walks with my family.

Headache almost gone, but still the difficult part of explaining myself to the students.... Well - BO BIAN..... sigh....

I better go catch a wink now cos i need to wake up in less than hours time...

Appreciate your lover

Adapted from Bar Advice's Bloggy..... he does give sound advice sometimes.....

Appreciate your lover

We tend to overlook the things that are right in front of our face. Think about it, do you write your lover a thank you card for every little gift you're presented with? Probably not but you would never forget to write or say so to your mother for the same gesture.

Take stock of the things (and people) in your life that you're grateful for. Don't forget the person lying next to you. Ask yourself if you've shown your gratitude to the individual who brings you the most pleasure in life. Your lover! Here's some things that you can do do keep things hot and fresh and also appreciative.

Make a date.
Sometimes it's easy to take each other for granted. After all, you've got commitments, other people are counting on you and more. Your schedule is tight and when you get home from work or the late hours, you're exhausted! It's not exactly hot love time and it's certainly not time for planning.

The good news is, your lover knows this because most likely, they're feeling it too. So, if you really want to make them feel special, schedule some time to show them a little appreciation. How that manifests is up to you but a full body massage, a hot soak in the tub (together!), dinner late night by candlelight are all easy options that don't require much effort, yet they speak volumes. What you're going for is something that says It's just you and me, babe! The gesture (whether naughty, nice or some saucy combo) will help remind them that, even when you're torn in a many directions, they're still first and foremost in your head and heart.

Technological advances.
Whether it's via cell phone, text message, email or IM, these days, we're all accessible at the touch of a button. Oftentimes the constant communication can be annoying. We come to expect requests and lists at any time of day and mid-day messages become just one more thing to add to our already over scheduled lives but we're all willing to be surprised! In addition to easy access, technology also offers us a chance to say the things we otherwise might not have the courage to say… In other words, a chance to talk dirty without fear of embarrassment!

Just when your partner thinks you're messaging to say, "Can you pick up the dry cleaning?" or that you'll be late coming home. Surprise them with something sexy and suggestive. Bonus points if it's a promise for when they get home!

Fantasies do come true.
If you've been paying attention, your lover probably has, at some point or another, expressed an interest in something romantic. Think back. If it wasn't directly stated, did they ooh and ahh over a commercial you've seen or a story they've read? Did you notice them quietly raise an eyebrow at something risque? Sometimes, it's easier to figure out what they'd like than you think. Be open to clues that they generate but keep it to yourself.

Is there anything that you haven't acted on yet? A desire to be served breakfast in bed, perhaps, or one to be pampered with a relaxing foot massage. Maybe it's something more scandalous like indulging in a sexual fantasy via role-play or something more naughty. Now is the time to act on it. No matter what you do to show appreciation to your one and only, it will be worth the effort!

Bar advice. There are many more ways as well. If both keep this cycle of constant appreciation the journey together will be a joyous one.

I GOT A NEW JOB....

I jus read my usual load of blogs and I found something that made me laughed till I nearly fell off my chair.....

The Dino Family........ starring Dino Senior Kenji, Dino Junior, Dino Berby Lala...... http://www.elfyourself.com/?id=9614523513

This is so damn funny.....

The Devadasons....... starring Jared Louis Devadason, Damon Ramirez Devadason, Ryan Mikhel Devadason, Muthu Jania Devadason..... http://www.elfyourself.com/?id=9614401017

Wa kao. I really nearly fell off my chair. All these created by my son's Godma aka Ms Fishball aka Ms Lena Tan....... she is too free la.....

I liked the way kenji was dancing.... So hilarious..... and junior seemed so happy doing his dance..... FINALLY my son is standing on 2s and not on 4s...... See mum, your grand-dog became human for christmas!!!!!!!!

And I played it for junior to watch and now he's whimpering in his sleep and he jus had a soft bark. I think tonite its his turn to have a nightmare...... if he really does have a nightmare YOU better run fast fast cos I will come after YOU with a chopper....... do these things to scare my son...... hahahahahahaha.......

I better go tuck my son into bed and sayang him abit cos today I went too far...... I didnt wake up on time to bring him down and fix him food and I went out till the evening. My poor baby didnt have food and didnt have his daily walk till quite late..... So sorry baby.... mummy was out getting a proper job so that I can feed you....

And today I am really LUCKY. I went down for 2nd interview and I GOT THE JOB!!!! Last week I think the Business Development Manager and the HR consultant were quite pleased with my interview that they arranged for me to meet up with their country manager and some other manager.....

And the country manager hired me on the spot...... and she even asked me wat pay would I be expecting and comfortable with...... I told her between 2.2k to 2.8k. She asked me again..... I said actually anything above 2k I'll be happy. She said wat is my expected pay in my heart....... I said 2.5k and she said ok.... we will offer you 2.5k and above..... cos they believe in paying us rite so that we can be committed.... and they really did offer me 2.5k and above.

Wow. Its like a dream came thru..... job scope is paper work, administrative, HR, customer service all into 1...... perfect job...... sounds perfect till I actually go into there la.....

Its situated at the east where I have a straight bus from home and near to my future home..... Its a call centre with SIA, except the call centre is not managed by SIA themselves and my payroll is not under SIA..... if not i can get free tickets again...... My payroll is under a MNC which has 73 offices worldwide......so if this job dun work out (not due to my incompetence i hope), they promised me other placements elsewhere. I might even get a chance to travel!!!!

Anyway, my new job doesn't require me to include call centre duties. I am overseeing the HR issues over there and under me are 300+ people to manage (only HR issues la) and I guess its quite a bit for me to handle. Good also. Like tat I wun have spare time to slack or have spare time to be complacent and I hope I can focus on it.

I really hope I can focus and do my stuff properly and gain respect from the people there. Cos its a professional environment there, I need to really dress up. Luckily I do have grooming background and customer service background. So I guess for that I can adapt easily. As for the admin part, I really have to learn more.....

And I work 9am to 6pm Mon to Fri only. Hahahaha...... Soooooo damn happy. And there are opportunities to climb the HR ladder - learn new HR stuff and next time can easily find job as HR executives or similiar also pay quite good......

Of cos I know its not going to be easy la, who wan to pay a simple job with such a good salary? They mentioned that my challenges will be to handle difficult issues regarding payroll and get bombed by people when it comes to their money or salary la...... well, i guess people are really capable of turning nasty when it comes to their money la.... so be it lor. I jus try to focus and minimise mistakes so that the chances of me getting bombed will be lesser lor. I know God will watch over me and bless me..... so I will be strong and independent and confident......

I jus take my blessings as they come..... and face my challenges as they come and the bridge will definately be there when I need to cross the river..... I have to make this work..... I need to be useful and I need to prove myself once again.

Life has ups and downs. But today God is smiling on me. Cos my day has been a perfectly wonderful day. I even managed to get a spot at the carpark at 8.30pm at bradel...... and I have classes that I could arrange to fit my schedule....... WOW.... THANK YOU MY LORD.....

I am counting down to Sunway...... 2 days only...... YEAH...... 2days to eating, shopping, playing and then coming back to a job that is waiting for me...... so cool.... think tonite i'll be too thrilled to sleep.....

A very very very bad nightmare

It is 3.30am now and I jus woke up with a bad, a very very bad nightmare that left me crying in my sleep. My eyes are swollen even though there are no tears. Oh God, its even worse than that time when I dreamt that junior was dying. No one died in my nightmare, but it was bad enough to make me cry for 3 days in my dream.

PS: Jus when things got better, you came back into my dreams again. And this time I was so sad. You were so near yet so far... It must be the PMS bug. I feel fine, but inside of me is rotten now....

Sat & Sun FUN FUN FUN FUN FUN FUN!!!

Sat, went to work as usual and squeezed my classes together so that I can go home to feed junior and rest. From 7am till 1.30pm, I squeezed 5 classes together. I felt like superwoman. And I dragged my 3pm class to 3.30pm so that in between I could go home to feed junior his lunch and take a short rest.

Ended class at 6.30pm and met kenji for dinner. Actually he wanted to watch a movie but I forgot that simei doesnt have a theatre... Hahaha..... so we ended up eating our favourite sakae sushi (the damn bill came up to almost $100) - he ate beef ramen and ordered a special sashimi platter where there were octopus, prawns, salmon, red-tail tuna (MY FAV NOW cos it tasted like my Duo Bao Yu - ocean flounder) and some other I-dunno-wat-name fish.

We also ordered a katsu with cheese on it..... quite nice but the cheese is bit salty..... and we ate 11 plates of sushi, with 3 plates of premium sushi. No wonder after dinner I felt pregnant..... and we went grocery shopping and we also bought beer for kerin mei's birthday party the next day.... and it has been proven AGAIN and AGAIN that we cannot shop for groceries together, cos we will end up buying ALL THE NONSENSE like chocolates, sweets, snacks and cute cute stuff......

And on sun.... another whole day affair....

Went to pick my aunts (it was for THEM that I went to fix my damn aircon or else they will grumble rite into my EAR) at 7.30am and we went for breakfast at Upper Thomson Rd where we had prata at Shiby Muslim Food & Restaurant "The best Crispy prata in singapore".....

We all had Teh Halia, but the Teh Halia sucks.... the prata is so-so only..... but I'll never go back there again..... Along the way my aunt spotted a plant that is used to make natural purple colouring for kueh kueh.....

After our breakfast, we went to Upper Pierce Reservoir to take a walk and see the monkeys. Junior went along and as he wasn't allowed to run around, I carried him in my arms.... the monkeys wanted to eat him.... so we moved on to lower peirce reservoir. There he was allowed to run around, so he was quite happy.

We went to hougang market after picking my mum and walked around till i had more blisters on my foot (I am really blisters prone).... After marketing, we all went to pet movers to let junior have his weekly swim and interaction with the other doggies....

There was a competition at Pet Movers and since it was startin soon, I signed junior up. It was the RECALL competition where you stand at the other side of the field and you call your doggies and they should run to you. Last year Junior joined this competition also, and he didnt run to me. He ran one big round and away from me cos I think he wasn't very clear of wat he was supposed to do.

This year, I was sooooooo proud of Junior. His PoPo held him and ran with him. And he ran straight to me!!!!! He didnt run away or run haywire around the big field there!!!! I am so proud of my son..... btw, he was 4th in place...... and the 1st, 2nd, 3rd places were at least 10times bigger than him so they had longer legs and their 1 step = 4 steps for junior..... Although he was much much better than the other dogs who ran haywire, he was not the fastest 3 so he got only this.....

I wanted to bring them to have lunch at sim lim tower but i wasn't sure if it was opened, so they suggested going to Hong Lim to eat.... so we went..... and they had this!!!! I'm sure kenji will drool.... its pig trotters Jelly.....

Food was ok. After lunch, we all went home to feed junior and rest.

After a 45min nap, I went to meet rina at yishun cos it was the twin's birthday!!! Rina and her sister put up a dance show and it was amazing!!! The children all put up a performance too and I was the judge!!!! :)

Then I did my 1st balloon sculpture in my whole life. I made a dog!!!! And it looked like junior!!!

I was soooo happy that I decided to make more. I made another black dog cos damon jus blew up a black balloon for me.... YEAH and this time I can really make junior.....

And since I had the black junior already, I decided to give Kerin the white one for her birthday.... Kerin, you must appreciate ok cos this is my 1st balloon I ever made in my whole life and its also the 1st time I give people balloons ok.....

I also asked them (rina's cousins) if they knew how to make flowers, as it would be cool to give kerin flowers too.... But they dun really know.... so AH BER FIGURED IT OUT..... YEAH. The 1st flower I made, burst, so I had to remake it.....

Pics time for the Twins..... Happy Birthday Shakira & Shakir.....

After cutting the cake at 6.30pm, I rushed down to get flowers for another birthday gal (which happened to be Ms Kerin Mei)...... and then rushed all the way down from yishun to simei to celebrate Ms Kerin Mei's 86 birthday. This is the birthday gal..... with all her gifts from Wendy and me and Kenji and Junior....... See she wear too low cut wan to seduce some guys there, so me and wendy helped the guys prevent nosebleed so we jus stuff her presents to cover her CRACK (if there was one la).....

I am seriously fascinated by the cake. I got a surprise when I saw it cos actually I wanted to order it for her on her actual birthday..... But now since you have this cake already, the sushi one I will not order lor..... hiak hiak hiak....

Junior had a great time at kerin Mei's party cos he had a friend Elmo there..... and this elmo is one huge CHEE KO PEH..... he went around humping peoples legs and I notice he only chose the hairy legs..... and he started with Kenji (MUAHAHAHAHAHAH)..... Oh kenji is sooooo man...... hahahahaha..... I nearly wanted to cry when I saw Kenji's helpless expression.....hahahahah..... he was really helpless cos i think he was trying to save his son from being humped by elmo and elmo ended up humping the daddy..... hahahahahahaha.....

Then elmo went to kerin's friend and humped his leg like **times..... hahahahah......and next, he wanted to hump Kerin's leg too..... and x-tin's leg too..... hahahahah the gals forgot to shave i guess...... so cute la elmo....

I saved $500....

Over the weekend, life was quite hectic.

Fri, I went to JB to fix my aircon. I was prepared to pay anything between RM1k to Rm1.2k cos the damn aircon shop in singapore said that it will cost S$600++ to fix my stupid aircon cos the compressor, coil, pipes and everything else got to do with aircon is S.P.O.I.L.T.

I wasn't prepared to pay $600++ cos I am broke remember? Haha.... Actually I was saving to buy bambi la..... shhhhhh dun tell junior.....

My bro told me carrefour opposite, turn rite, got a stretch of workshops. He said DO NOT U-TURN. But he doesn't know where the shop his friend usually go to, is...... So I asked mummy who was kind enough to go in with me and endure the sun and rain with me.... and luckily she went with me.

Cos we discovered a very kampong shop opposite carrefour..... Nasir Workshop (137-A, Lorong 7, Desa Perwira, Johor Bahru, Johor / Tel: 019-741 5457 or 019-793 3234). There are 2 ways to get to it. Its jus at the traffic junction. 1st way - turn rite, then u-turn, then keep left and turn into the kampong road and find your way to the shop. 2nd way - u-turn (if you can), if not, can turn rite, then u-turn and turn left at the filter lane, then back up into the shop.....

The lady boss is a very nice lady. She has 3 gals and they are all very friendly, especially the baby..... Rina and me were playing with the gals while the people were fixing tortilla. Rina gave them each a toy and they were really happy.....

Pros and Cons....

Pros: Cheap, Friendly service, expert advice (he jus took a look and told me compressor is working, coil is ok, only the pipe burst and promised to check the rest for me), when they have the parts they work fast and double check to make sure everything is in order before they pass car back to you, 24hours (YEAH).....

Cons: Take a bit long, parts have to be sourced from their source (they dun really keep stock and they dun call to check - they jus hop on their motor and zoom off with the part), if you need to find a drink, you need to walk a bit inside the kampong, NEVER go on a friday (cos they sembahyang and take up a bit of time), they dun really speak english (so go with someone who speaks quite abit of malay).

I think I am quite happy with the service and the things they did. For RM185, they fixed tortilla's aircon. They changed 2 burst pipes and put in compressor oil and gas and tortilla was good to go.....See... they saved $500 for me cos this repair only cost me below $100.....

And now the aircon is so damn cold, i need to turn it off sometimes when I am driving. The next time I go back there for servicing or something, I will buy more toys for the kids.... :)

That's How You Know (By Amy Adams)

I haven't watched this show "Enchanted" yet cos I heard reviews it was quite boring. But today I heard reviews that it was good and very romantic. And I am a die hard romantic..... and rina's been asking me to go to the movies to watch this show cos Demonoid is DOWN..... so I will seriously consider.....

Hannie put part of the lyrics from the theme song of "Enchanted" on her bloggy and I went to google the rest.... song is very cheerful one..... quite like it..... and I am attracted by the lyrics....

So enjoy reading and singing along with my blog song....

That's How You Know (By Amy Adams)

Giselle:
How does she know you love her?
How does she know she's yours?

Man:
How does she know that you love her?

Giselle:
How do you show her you love her?

Both:
How does she know that you really, really, truely love her?
How does she know that you love her?
How do you show her you love her?
How does she know that you really, really, truely love her?

Giselle:
It's not enough to take the one you love for granted
You must remind her, or she'll be inclined to say...
"How do I know he loves me?"
(How does she know that you love her?
How do you show her you love her?)
"How do I know he's mine?"
(How does she know that you really, really, truely love her?)

Well does he leave a little note to tell you you are on his mind?
Send you yellow flowers when the sky is grey? Heyy!
He'll find a new way to show you, a little bit everyday
That's how you know, that's how you know!
He's your love...

Man:
You've got to show her you need her
Don't treat her like a mind reader
Each day do something to need her
To believe you love her

Giselle:
Everybody wants to live happily ever after
Everybody wants to know their true love is true...
How do you know he loves you?
(How does she know that you love her?
How do you show her you need her?)
How do you know he's yours?
(How does she know that you really, really, truely-)

Well does he take you out dancin' just so he can hold you close?
Dedicate a song with words in
Just for you? Ohhh!

All:
He'll find his own way to tell you
With the little things he'll do
That's how you know
That's how you know!

Giselle:
He's your love
He's your love...

That's how you know
(la la la la la la la la)
He loves you
(la la la la la la la la)
That's how you know
(la la la la la la la la)
It's true
(la la la la la)

Because he'll wear your favorite color
Just so he can match your eyes
Rent a private picnic
By the fires glow-oohh!

All:
His heart will be yours forever
Something everyday will show
That's how you know
(That's how you know)
That's how you know
(That's how you know)
That's how you know
(That's how you know)
That's how you know
(That's how you know)
That's how you know
(That's how you know)
That's how you know
(That's how you know)
That's how you know!

Giselle:
He's your love...

Man:
That's how she knows that you love her
That's how you show her you love her

Giselle:
That's how you know...
That's how you know...
He's your love..

How old is kerin mei

This Sun is Kerin mei's birthday celebration.... eh how old are you ah? Junior thinks you are ** years old in his bloggy..... www.dinojuniorboy.blogspot.com

Very Painful Ah

WARNING..... This post may cause some discomfort to people reading this..... unless you have a foot fetish, then pls continue......

I was out for the past 2 days attending to interviews. Yesterday I wore my black work shoes that I always wear for my property. They gave me no problem.

Today I tot of a change so i wore my heels..... actually today's distance was shorter (except the fact that I was walking 15mins to get to serangoon MRT & the walk from NEL to NSL at dhoby ghaut MRT), cos both places to interview, were at international plaza.....

And I ended up with this.....3 ugly and painful blisters on EACH foot and 1 at the bottom of EACH foot..... and the one on my 2nd last toe on the rite foot already burst..... so imagine the pain when I went into the water jus now for lesson......

Ok la, worth the pain, cos one of today's interviewer called me for a 2nd interview. I suddenly feel that I am still worth a bit in the job market. Too long being your own boss..... I need stability and I need to be normal...... cos I have plans ahead of me..... :)

So Ah Ber Monkey, Pls dun climb trees anymore..... You need to ride the horse properly.....

PS: I enjoy being on top? Nah..... I prefer the bottom.... ;)

Rojak

Ah ber has been leading a healthy lifestyle this past week. I have been eating rojak for almost the whole week. Rojak consists of Tau Pok (which i always dun eat), You Tiao (which is yummy), Cucumber, Pineapple, Mang Guang, Beansprouts, Peanuts and the rojak sauce.

There is this old man on his RXS that has a huge white box at the back of his RXS and he arrives by announcing his arrival with his special rojak horn. When you hear the horn, you know that he is here.

His rojak costs only $1 and it is delicious, especially when he mixes the rojak with his special stock.... very very nice. If you like chilli, the rojak tastes better. Very nice. I dun mind eating rojak for the whole mth......

He makes his way from serangoon ave 4 to serangoon nth..... and he dun have a specific time. He normally try to coincide with the school hours so that the children can buy his rojak.... but now holidays so he comes like 3pm.....

I love his rojak..... but he dun operate on weekends I think.... or else i will buy and share with everyone....

Ghita....

Heard Jia Fa on YES93.3FM introducing this song.... sung by a romania gal who is only 3 years old at the time of recording.... very interesting... Can replace the cute girl in 吉祥三宝....

Listen and her english is not bad for a 3 year old!!! The later part of the song is sung in romania language I think.... enjoy.... This song named "Ghita"

Empower Yourself

Empower Yourself

Everyone goes through murky patches of their lives when they start feeling, for apparently no good reason at all, empty and directionless. This can happen when we're living on auto-pilot, getting lost in the rhythm of the ever turning wheels, and having no clear idea what we want or what we're doing. This lack of vision and control can be very disempowering.

So here are some ways you can reclaim control of your life and empower yourself to move into the future with confidence.

First, ask yourself "What do I want?" It's a simple question but the answer can be unexpectedly complex. Most of us don't even think about this question. But it's the most important thing you need to establish. Do you want more money? Give more love? Spend more time with your children? More health? Really meditate on this and listen to what comes back.

Next, ask yourself "What is stopping me from getting what I want?" Is it doubt? As in "I don't think I can go without a regular income." Or is it limiting beliefs? Such as "I'm too old for that." What about attachment? The unwillingness to let go of certain things in order for other things to come into your life. Upon close examination, you'll find that these things really can't hold you back. It's just fear.

Then look at where you are today. Are you getting from it all that you want? Or are you unhappy with the way things are? Even if you think you're miserable, you're getting something from it, otherwise you would have tried to get out of the situation. Many of us languish in self-pity because we're feeding our insecurities. Somewhere deep inside, we actually do like where we are because it means we don't have to take any action towards change. Change frightens us and so we make up the excuse that we're in a hopeless situation and continue doing nothing.

But the human spirit grows thin when it remains in an unchallenging place for too long. The emptiness you feel is precisely because you've not allowed for change to transform your life. You're doing the same thing which gives you no satisfaction day in day out and your heart is crying out for help. So the key really is to decide what you have to do to start changing your life in positive ways. And really take action.

Even small actions, like walking up the steps at the office instead of taking the lift gives you an empowering feeling of moving forward all the time.

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SUNWAY gave me a headache

I am very excited cos I am going overseas with Kenji soon, together with TFT, we having a large scale TFT outing..... but my excitement was killed a little cos I was damn pissed off with SUNWAY.

Sunway jus succeeded in giving me another headache.

I made the booking last week at Sunway Hotel & Spa KL. Rooms @ RM430 and we needed 7rooms cos we have 14 of us going. So I made the booking as it is school holidays and I was so worried there would be no accomodation for 14 of us.

And yesterday, Pat & jimmy managed to source something much, much, much cheaper so I wan to cancel my booking cos I am also very broke, I rather go for cheaper accomodation.

So I called them, wanting to cancel the booking. They checked and said its not under their system and I have to cancel via the internet. So, after browsing their webby for a long time and couldn't find the way to cancel the booking, I called them again. The staff was quite flustered cos I requested for specific instructions to get to the place on the internet to cancel my booking.

They put me on hold. After like 5mins of waiting, they told me they still cant get the internet booking people and they will try to get instructions asap while I still hold. I told them, how bout if I send in an email to cancel the booking. I COULD SWEAR THEY HEAVED A SIGH OF RELIEF.

They gave me an email address which I promptly sent an email to cancel. BUT THE DAMN MAIL BOUNCED BACK TO ME.....

"This is the Symantec Mail Security program at host sysms1.sunway.com.my.I'm sorry to have to inform you that your message could notbe delivered to one or more recipients. It's attached below.For further assistance, please send mail to If you do so, please include this problem report. You candelete your own text from the attached returned message.The Symantec Mail Security program<bookrooms@sunway.com.my>: host 10.100.3.2[10.100.3.2] said: 550 bookrooms@sunway.com.my... No such user (in reply to RCPT TO command)"

So I called them again. I told them the email bounced and requested for specific instructions to cancel online. This time they made me hold for another 5mins, then they said they will cancel it online for me and give me a cancellation reference. COOL..... so I waited.....

Then the line got cut off...... WONDERFUL rite......

So I called again...... and made them give me the cancellation reference...... I dun believe I have to call so many times and speak to 4-5different people before I got wat I wanted - jus to cancel the damn booking......

Finally its cancelled.....

Its troublesome but its so damn worth it...... cos the new place we are going to stay is more than half the price of RM430....... I would say 1/3 of the price only..... YEAH..... SUNWAY HERE I COME.....

I went to sunway last year with kenji, pat & michelle. This time we are the tour leaders.... hahahaha. I made a pact with jerry and alvin to have 1 big bowl of only PIGS' BLOOD... Yeah...

PISSED OFF

Yesterday Ah ber was a little pissed off. I was playing mahjong happily. I asked junior's daddy (which happens to be kenji lim) to bring him downstairs to pee and shit, and his daddy didnt do it.

A few minutes later, Junior peed on Pat's curtains......

And I was screaming at kenji to go clean up the mess and he was taking his own sweet time. In the end I was really pissed off, I whacked junior and I felt my heart crying when I whacked him cos it wasn't fully his fault.

It was all my fault cos I expected that someone else would resume the position of care giver of junior when I was busy. Suddenly this tot came into my mind. Was it because Junior is jus a dog? Will the same things happen if I have a REAL SON? Suddenly I am not so sure anymore. Not so sure of myself if I am able to handle everything on my own.

Then it dawned on me that I shouldnt expect too much. Cos I should have done my duty as junior's mummy and not expect anyone else to do so, especially when responsibility and committment are involved. Cos no one can take over my responsibilites and committment to Junior cos I am his mummy.

So I had to tell junior that I cannot have bambi for him anymore Because I dun have support for both of them. Kenji is rite. I cannot handle another dog. Not because I am not capable, but its tough for a single mum to commit to 2 dogs. And since I am the only one committed and responsible for junior, I have to stay committed and responsible to him. I cannot expect others to take up my responsiblity.

And since I cannot focus on junior when I am out enjoying myself, I shall not bring junior to places where I am enjoying myself so that I can enjoy myself fully and be committed to myself. Sorry junior. You better go live with your nanny cos even the children there are committed to playing with you, bringing you downstairs and are responsible for you. You will only suffer if you stay with mummy.

So I had to write the previous post on expectations to remind myself that I shouldn't expect too much or hope to much. Because Guys jus DUN GET IT. And I shouldnt expect that anyone be responsible for junior, even if its his Godma, or nanny or even HIS DADDY. So its all my fault. And I am now VERY PISSED, with myself.

Expectations & Hopes

Taking people for granted, expecting other people to take responsibility for your stuff, expecting people to understand your move without you opening your mouth, expecting compliance for your every command, expecting others to get blamed for your own incompetence, expecting people to appreciate you, expecting people to put up with your nonsense, expecting people to tolerate it when you judge people but fail to check yourself, expecting people to keep promises, expecting people to change.......

I guess everyone faces these in life. We expect too much. And when we dun get wat we expect, our bubble burst and we become bitter.

We cant depend on others, we need to depend on ourselves. Cos only we are responsible to ourselves and only we can answer to ourselves. So wake up and dun hope or expect that things will be wat you wished they were.

You can either stick with it, or leave it. Cos stubborness can never change. You can either close 1 eye or kick up a big fuss (but things will still be the same). Only tots that come from the heart can change everything. Only tots from the heart will make you understand. Only tots from the heart can give you hope and expectations. Dun impose your burden or responsibilities to others cos they dun need to answer to you, they dun need to be responsible for you. And dun ever get angry when you impose your responsbilities to them and things dun ever happen or dun turn out the way you wanted to, cos they dun need to answer to you, they are not responsible and only tots from the heart can make things work, other than that, DUN EVER THINK OF IT.

Certain things last only a certain period. Some people last longer than the others because they are really comfortable with wat they have - they do not expect and they do not hope much. Some people last longer because they are stubborn, they refuse to give up and acknowledge that there is a problem that need to be fixed. They take things for granted.

PS: Ignorance is bliss? Or ignorance is stupidity? When things go wrong, who need to rectify? The stubborn ones always think there is no problem, at least with themselves. Is there a problem? Is there really a problem??????

Dreams

I tot my sore throat jus went away and now its back again. The cough's been there though.... I was talking to someone on MSN and the topic went to death...... I know its taboo to talk about death.

She said that she felt like she was going to die soon and she was preparing for her stuff and issues after death. She wanted pink for her funeral. I was comparing her death to mine. I told her I might be going before her. I wonder if this can be considered a will? Haha....

If I should die before Junior, I would like Junior to be given to someone who loves dogs like Lena or Hersheys..... Never give Junior to Rina cos she will cry everyday cos she said junior looks like me..... Never give Junior to Kenji cos he dunno how to take care of junior. Never give Junior to my family cos they dun love him as much as I do.

I know I have a long life ahead of me. Cos I am not a very good person and the good die young, so I still have many years to go to SUFFER HERE ON EARTH. So I guess I should live to the day when I suffer from old people's problems like arthritis, aching back.....etc

I used to have a dream..... where this someone that I used to love so much, was dying. I was crying as I ran to the hospital and looked for all the doctors and nurses - in fact I grabbed anyone that wore a white coat and begged them to save this someone. In the end this someone died and I went to the funeral. I have never ever dared to touch dead bodies, but I touched this someone's face, I held this someone very tightly...... I guess love could really change things....

PS: I believe I am ready to commit. Commit to myself. Time to grow up and stop being stupid. Dreams are always dreams. Only reality counts. But in my dreams with you, I wish I would never wake up. But its ok. Reality is still the thing I need and want. If I am still harbouring any dreams, pls slap me or kick my butt (mum I know you will do jus tat) to wake me up. Love you mum, Love you Kenji, Love you Junior, Love myself Ber.... :)

Clarifications

Everyone is a different individual. No one can actually KNOW wat you are thinking and no one knows exactly WAT I AM thinking.... The only way to let others know wat you are thinking, is to freaking open your bloody mouth and tell people.

Why people cannot be honest and jus share their views or come straight to the point? Why they cannot be frank? I am a person of integrity. Watever I say behind people's backs, I tell them to their face IN FRONT of them. Because I believe that nothing can hide the truth. Even the closest people around me do not understand this point of mine, no matter how much they know me, understand me or trust me. I dun bloody keep secrets..... except secrets close to my heart.

My heart cannot take all the burdens of talking bad about people behind their backs and hiding or lying..... its too tiring. I hate back stabbers and I hate 2-headed snakes. And I am not one. Watever I say about someone else behind their backs, I will TELL THEM TO THEIR FACE. This is me. This is the frankness about me. I jus needed to clarify this point. I dun need more misunderstandings. All this nonsense is too taxing on my brain and heart.

And people who say things, better mean wat they say. Ok, I fall into this category where I am soft hearted and sometimes I say things that I dun mean it. I dun mean I can say I will kill you and then really go and kill you. And I am not the type to let go of anything that means something to me so easy, even though I am treated like dirt. It takes me a while and some courage to ever walk out from shit.

But lesson learnt and once bitten twice shy. I can allow you to trample over me. But there are limits inside me and when the limit is there, then bye bye. If I can find thousands and millions of excuses to love you, then I can also find thousands and millions of reasons to HATE you. Dun think too highly of yourself. Dun take for granted that I am the forever-soft-hearted gal who will always forgive and forget and welcome you back with open arms.

I have learnt that everyone is a different individual and I cannot force things on anyone else. But give me time, give me chance to prove myself!!!!! I dun judge you when I am with you. I dun harbour suspicions and I dun think of anything evil or bad when I am around you because you are someone that I love, trust and enjoy being with. Who ever doubt their friends and the people they love??????? So pls give me the benefit of the doubt cos I am freaking innocent of the death sentences you have already assigned to me in your brain..... pls really understand and know me and trust me and really know that I am not the person you think I am.....

Any clarifications, ask rina cos she knows me the best. She knows I am not that kind to plot against own people. I am someone with integrity. I jus need time to prove myself and need time for you to really see it cos I am a slow mover.

So stop showing me nonchalancy and act like you dun freaking care. I know you still do care. And I know deep down you know you are one of those that I love and I really care about. Dun ever doubt this.

F***ing stuck

Have you been stuck in a situation where things jus dun go your way, no matter how much you wan to push, no matter how badly you wanted it, no matter how much you fight for it, no matter wat you do, it jus doesn't seem to work for you?

I am stuck in this f***ing position now. Its not that I'm a firm believer of feng shui, but when all things seem to be stuck so deeply in mud and they dun move at all and I am at my wits' end as to WAT TO DO...... I needed someone to guide me. Its not that I dun believe in myself, but along the way for the past few years, I have lost some of the confidence in me..... so I needed someone to guide me.....

Therefore I went to consult the master again. He said the same things to me. My career is not good now for 2007 and he adviced me to "守" (wait) cos my career is very very weak, faced with lots of obstacles and I shouldn't be very aggressive or fight for stuff or else I will get into trouble. Even if I wan to change job, it should be after CNY where my career luck is smoother and calmer.

Kenji said if I were to get a job, jus go and do lor...... Hmmmm..... now my strategy is to wait. If there is a suitable job, I will grab, if not, no point going after lousy jobs cos anyway, my career is not going to be very good either......

And I am quite disappointed by things now..... things that I plan cannot work out. Got to wait. And for a monkey, I hate waiting.... i am always soooooooo restless...... but bo bian rite.... SIANZ....

I am looking forward to 25nov...... cos can sabo people..... HAHAHAHAHAHAHA......

PS: I am sooooo disappointed but I guess the only thing I can do now is to wait...... patiently..... cos I do not wan to go against Heaven's Will......

How Do You Measure Happiness?

How Do You Measure Happiness?
Happiness is something that most people are concerned about and want. Athenian philosopher Aristotle once said that "Happiness is the end for which human beings are designed."

But, it seems that many people are confused about happiness. Sure, we know that it's important, but it's surprising how many people are not happy and how many are looking for happiness in the wrong places.

Some of us think the more we have the happier we'll be. Think about the times in your life when you bought something because you thought it would make you happy. How long did the joy last? On hindsight, was it really worth the effort and money? There is so much pressure in our culture to buy and to have. But there is a rude awakening to actually attaining the things that you think will make you happy. It is often so disappointing. How many times have you wanted something, only to find once you had it, it didn't give you the joy and happiness that you expected?

Someone else cannot make you happy. One of the myths of our society is that finding the perfect mate will bring perfect happiness. However, people who depend on others for their personal happiness are often bitterly disappointed. True happiness comes from knowing yourself, your values, and what you like to do, not from someone else knowing these things about you.

We also have to understand that happiness is not guaranteed. It is not a right. If we can fully understand this truth, then we'll cherish happiness more when it comes, and grieve less when it goes.

Questions about human happiness are not new; they have been asked throughout time. But no one else can really tell you how to find happiness. Also, what makes you happy changes with time. In reality happiness is a personal thing with as many varieties as there are individuals. The bottom line is that we are all experts on our own personal happiness, no one else holds the key or the answers to it. I would like to end this programme by sharing a statement by Robert Louis Stevenson:

"Make the best of your circumstances, No one has everything and everyone has something of sorrow intermingled with the gladness of life. The trick is to make the laughter outweigh the tears. Don't take yourself too seriously. You can't please everybody; don't let your neighbours set your standards, do the things you enjoy doing, but stay out of debt. Don't borrow trouble. Imaginary things are harder to bear than the actual ones. Since hate poisons the soul, do not cherish enmities, grudges. Don't hold post-mortems. Don't spend your life brooding over sorrow and mistakes. Don't be one who never gets over things. Do what you can for those less fortunate than yourself. Keep busy at something. A very busy person never has time to be unhappy."

A Slice of Life is written, produced and presented by Eugene Loh unless otherwise stated. If you wish to share the scripts with others, please credit it to 'Eugene Loh, A Slice of Life, 938LIVE, a station of MediaCorp Radio'.

Essence of life

I think the essence of life is to get busy and not be idle. Cos when you are idle you tend to invite nonsense tots into your brain and start a strike inside you.

The past few days I have been keeping myself busy. Planning for TFTs trip, my dad's birthday, my uncle's big day and my nephew's birthday..... all the way until next year feb 2008 I think I will be very busy. And 2008 is gonna be a good year so i should be rather busy again....

I am also trying to find a full time job that pays me CPF and benefits. Actually I counted.... the classes I need to cancel amounts to quite a bit..... almost the same salary I am looking for..... this suddenly stupid tot interfered with my string of positive tots again..... Arrrrgh......

1stly I think my classes are quite empty in the day. There are slots in between classes and that is when I become lazy. That is when my internal system goes haywire. Cos if I go shopping I will spend more money, if I stay at home I will sleep and I will feel so irritated for work (i guess this is the MAIN problem). That is why I wan to have a job where it keeps me up and going for the whole day and I will stay very fresh and not think of other things.....

I hate doing nothing. And that is when I start to feel complacent. And I dread the feeling of travelling to class. Some sooooo far like tuas, clementi and I have to rush with the trafiic...... very dangerous to my life too.....

I realised on days when my classes are fully packed, I may feel very tired, but at least my motor is moving so its not too bad..... I dun feel so yucky...... WAT TO DO WITH THIS MONKEY LA!!!

I jus took a closer look at junior while cleaning him up after our morning walk. I realised that I never get tired of bringing him down for walks, never get tired o making him his food, never get tired of him (sometimes only when he jumps on me when I am sleeping)..... And I asked myself.... is this committment? Is this unconditional love for my son?

Yes he is my son. Except he has a tail and he walks on fours and he barks instead of talking and he is a dog. He will always be my son, Dino Junior. He's the one who licks my tears, he the one whom I hug when I'm feeling down, he's the one who manja me, he's the one who is mine.... I love you baby.....

And the essence of life is to have someone to share your life with you.....Junior is part of my life since 2 years ago... and I'm still loving him.....

Kenji darling met me for lunch today. He came to pick me and we went to somewhere near mustafa to have lunch. Its a chinese curry rice stall. He ordered the dishes he normally orders and I understand why he like to go there. Cos the beef is really nice. Soft and QQ and I love the taste. The pork chop is not very fascinating though..... but I liked the cabbage alot too....

I love you darling and thanks for bringing me out to lunch today....

Rushed down to Compass point after class today to get foundation that is my colour. I have become so tan that the normal ones I have are soooooo white on my skin now. I practically look like a ghost everytime I go out.

I wanted to get MAC, but their outlets are mostly in town like Tangs, vivo, shaw..... thanks to Lena and Kerin and rina who helped me to find out where..... and mummy even called them to find out where..... thanks mum.... cos she is an avid supporter of MAC products.

In the end I went to Compass Point cos there is Metro there and normally Metro should have cosmetic counters there. In my heart I already zoomed in on Clinique. Cos currently all my products are from Clinique. But the salegal there was too busy entertaining another gal who was jus trying on her lipstick, so she chose to forsake my deal of maybe $5o and above for foundation than $30-$50 for a lipstick. Maybe I looked very auntie with my t-shirt and shorts. Maybe they dun have my skin coloured foundation..... Watever..... I'm quite disappointed with Clinique's customer service. At least she could look at me in the eye and tell me to wait or something rite. She totally ignored me....

So I walked on. And I promised myself that whichever counter staff comes and approach me I will seriously buy their product if they have my colour.

Kanebo's counter gal was on the phone and I swear that she looked at me from the corner of her eye but she pretended she didnt see me..... so I moved on..... inuovi's counter was quite busy so I didnt go over...... I ended up at the cheaper cosmetic section......

Then Revlon's staff approached me. The auntie was quite nice. She picked out the colour I was eyeing since I stopped at the counter.... but she was pushing for another colour. I dun trust her cos everytime I buy 1 skin colour lighter, I always end up with a face like a ghost. So this time I bought jus the similiar colour to my skin...... guess wat..... Its called TOAST. hahahahahaha.......

The other one she recommended that was 1 skin colour lighter, was called EARLY TAN. I dun think I have early tan, I already have many mths tan...... so I got the TOAST colour..... hahahaha..... and I still have my clinique loose powder, in fact it was quite a new one I bought recently only.

So I walked on and I saw nail polish..... dunno why my nail fetish is back again..... and I found a colour quite similiar to the one I wanted..... so I got it!!!!

Then I went to the bags section and I am still sooooooo in love with guess bags...... and I also went to the shoes section.......

Ok, I think I havent been really shopping for quite a while, cos I dun have much to buy, but I realised that if I get an office job and I will surely spend bombs on shopping, medicure, pedicure, hair styling..... so kenji, do you really think an office job is a good idea? How much are you sponsoring me for my upkeep and next time I most probably wan to buy branded stuff already..... so do you think you can afford me? Hahahahaha...... I love you darling and today you asked me a question - and the answer is, no one bidded for you yet..... so you are still mine....

Can anyone tell me wat fruit is this?

Its crunchy when you bite into it. It tasted like apple mixed with pear mixed with honey dew, mixed with dunno wat else la. I ate this when I was young and since I saw it at Sheng Shiong the other day while shopping with mummy, I bought it.....

It has a snake-skinned skin and the skin is very very thin. When you get into it, you gotta peel off the outter skin like peeling off your dry skin or peeling or a facial mask. The you must separate the fruit and eat it. The seed is round and brown...... Anyone has any clue wat type of fruit is this?

Committment

I read one of the blogs that I have been reading daily. And she had found THE ONE..... She described how they met and finally after a few turbulent relationships, they finally got together. They met each other in school days and they only recently got together for 7mths and he proposed.

She mentioned in her blog....

"you don't need 2-3 years to know if the person is the one for you. if he/she is not the one, even if you are together for years doesn't make a difference cause he/she still will not be the one you want. If a person will change for you, he/she will do so within the first few months. If he/she is not willing, they will still be the same after 10 years."

"So how do we know if our bf/gf is the one for us? First, we have to commit ourselves to the relationship. Do not expect your partner to commit first. We have to first commit. He/she will feel the difference when you are committed and if they are the one, they will commit too. If not, then the 2 of you will part on a good note, and your true love will come eventually."

So I realised its all about committment. Do I have wat it takes for commitment or am I jus so scared of committing again?

My mum did something weird to Junior today

Today my mum did something weird with Junior..... wan to know wat it is? Check out his blog...... Dino Junior

I'm at a crossroad again...

I guess I am jus another ordinary human being who tries to be special, who tries to be the bestest person on earth, who tries to be THE ONLY ONE, who tries to be jus myself...... and I am jus not contented with myself.

Once again I have come to a crossroad where I am getting picky and getting iritated, getting fed-up with my job, my life and myself.

Actually being a swimming coach is quite ok. The money is good in good times, but bad in bad times. Especially when it is raining and monsoon season and holiday season and students take the whole 2 months off to go holiday and enjoy....... while I cannot do the same. I dun have annual leave, I dun have bonus, I dun have CPF, I dun have weekends off, I dun have weekday evenings off to sit down and have a proper dinner with the people I love, I miss out on most of the evening shows that my friends are watching, and most importantly, I dun have MCs, maternity leaave and I dun have money if I dun turn up for the lesson.

Almost half of my time is spent travelling north, south, east, west of singapore for the lessons while another half is spent in the cold water, under the hot sun. 1/3 of my monthly income goes to my car, another 1/3 is spent on my license fees, swimming stuff and the last 1/3 is normally spent on food, drinks and medication cos I get flu, fever, coughs and aches more often now.

I dun have colleagues to cover my duties when I am not available and I am practically working alone. The feeling is good cos no one bosses you around, but I get very lonely cos I dun have any colleagues to gossip with, or have tea-time with. In the day I am very very free, and I have lots of waiting time inbetween my lessons cos I am unable to slot in other lessons and I cannot really enjoy myself if I go out grocery shopping or window shopping or running errands cos I am always looking at my watch and timing myself to go to class on time.

I also have to crack my brains to arrange my schedule and slot in my students and plan ahead and psycho my students to change timing to fit my schedule. Very complicated. Very taxing on my brain. Suddenly I feel so lousy, like I have no aim in life. Last time why I am so sure of my life but now I keep hesitating..... die la..... how la like tat....

So if I say my timing is flexible, it is actually not very flexible. The only flexible thing is that I have some free time in the day and I can do my stuff or arrange my things but I spend most of my time slacking or looking at my watch or waiting for lessson time.

And that is how I came to my crossroad now.

I have a few alternatives. I could find a full time job and have a stable flow of income, CPF, MCs, Annual Leave, Maternity Leave and enjoy my weekends and be a normal white collared worker but at the same time, give up my freedom (actually I dun really have much freedom as well), my good money in good times and some of the students who really look up to me.

I could also start a small business selling umbrellas since its the raining season now and since I cannot swim due to the rain, I should also start to earn money due to the rain too rite?

Jus had a talk with Junior. He hinted that anything is fine for him as long as I have the money to feed him and his wife and their future babies and myself.

Also had a talk with Kenji. His concerns are the same lor. But at least he didnt force me to make a decision whether to stay or go. He jus gave me some advice.

So now should I need to sell Tortilla? NO, cos he's my wings and no one can clip my wings except myself. I would never sell junior unless he starts eating like AH DAI. Maybe I should sell kenji away..... anyone wan to bid for Kenji Lim????

And my Sony Ericsson P990i got itself a bidder that closed the auction within today..... cool rite? I love yahoo auctions.... tmr see whether can meet up with him and close the deal....

FOR SALE: Sony Ericsson P990i SmartPhone

FOR SALE: Sony Ericsson P990i SmartPhone (NO GIMMICKS)

Colour: Premium Silver, comes with brand new authentic earphones + travel charger + desktop charger + BOX. Exterior 9/10 (due to wear & tear), Interior 10/10 (Original, authentic software). Used only 6mths, careful owner, warranty jus expired, SELLING only $199 (more than 50% of original price), NO GIMMICKS. Interested pls sms 9008-1128. Thanks!!!

Food + FUN

On Deepavali, my aunts invited me to have lunch with them at this indonesian restaurant @ Lucky Plaza (3rd floor, jus opposite SPEED shop at the corner).

4 of us ordered 1 Grilled Pomfret Set, 1 Grilled Prawn Set, 1 Grilled Chicken Set, 1 Tauhu Goreng (Or was it Gado Gado I am really not too sure), 1 Keropok (a mixture of the bitter type and the prawny type....hmmmm delicious)..... 3 Avocado drinks (MUST TRY, their POPULAR DRINK) & 1 Pink Coconut drink @ only about $38 for all of us....

After our lunch, we proceeded for shopping at Lucky Plaza, then to Sentosa for some sightseeing and lastly, we ended up at Vivocity for MORE SHOPPING....

And I saw this stall at Vivocity that sells the wooden hand-made stuff like the wooden doll house that I made for mummy. This stall attracted me cos it had more animals and living creatures than anything..... and I wanted to get this PARTICULAR dinosaur model for kenji dear...... and I couldn't find it..... me and the salegirl were rummaging thru her big box of puzzles..... and for 10mins I was there at the stall and she kept asking me how to spell and start with wat letter.... I said "T" to her like 3times.....

Finally we gave up and jus as I was walking away..... I SAW THE MINIATURE ONE....

COOL RITE..... heehee...

Moving on

Moving on
I guess it's the same all over the world when it comes to people breaking up or divorce. They can't seem to be able to move on. Women especially have a really hard time.

There are days of tears and pain that the heart feels and a sense of loss. Lots of times the person that feels the worse may actually be the one that made the situation difficult. They may not even be aware that there was a problem till it was too late. Many guys make a fatal mistake by taking their partners for granted. they believe that even if they did something wrong they would be forgiven and all will be fine. Guys have been too pampered by their mothers to know what a wife or girlfriend really is.

Loosing sight that your partner as an individual will damage the relationship. Being upfront, honest and open minded that your partner is faithful to you and the relationship will stir both people in the right way. Letting him or her live their life while still being together is better than to smutter them with affection while restraining them all together. This makes the other person turn to deceptive methods of doing the things that they want to do and if found out will be explosive to the relationship.

Moving on after the relationship is over can be hard. Most people, especially women, find it difficult to trust another man again. It all depends on what they went through before and the cause of the split. Guys fear that the next girl will turn out to be the same, if not worse, than the first one. The sense of trust really will have been faded and there's no security blanket for a broken heart. Some go on for years alone after a break up and later find that it may be too late by the time their ready to hit the dating scene again.

The right choice for people would have to be a open dialogue between themselves so that all mistrust and misunderstandings are ironed out. The relationship should have certain goals and both will need to fulfill them. Expectations will need to be met as well. Communication must be constant and intentions need to be truthful. Following this will makes things better if you're moving on to a new person so you don't fall flat on your face again and your heart won't hurt as well.

Bar advice. Ask yourself, better still ask your partner, why you're in the relationship. The answers may surprise you.

Adapted from Bar Advice

High High into the sky

Its 3.45am and I jus came back from Redbar..... was supposed to be babysitting my godsons cos everyone went for wedding dinner. Ard midnite, Pa and aunty irene came home, so I went to giv rina a surprise at redbar cos they are there.......

We had lots of vodka cranberry,..... and I am quite high..... but amongst everyone, I am most sober...... so I drove back......

I manage to drive bak and even cook maggie mee for myself, so I am considered quite sober.

PS: I lov youi darling. And I missed you very much. I missed YOU too..... How many people will ever be missed by me? Its an honour you know..... to be missed by someone..... to be loved by someone...... I', feeling loved rite now, cos I'm going for breakfast with my darling in a few hours time..... and mummy jus gave me a hug......

I LOVE MYSELF.....

yeah, tmr is public holiday and I dun need to work..... YEAH YEAH YEAH YEAH.......

I hope, I pray, I hope God listened and I hope God can have mercy on me. I need a miracle. I know that God made miracles for me before. i have noted them down in my diary. I praised God for the miracles that happened..... I believe in Him..... and I sincerely ask that god give me another miracle..... I know he will, jus that maybe its not time yet and the way he wan to surprise me, will be sopmething I didnt expect......

Please God, Please show yoruself to me. Please grant me another miracle... I need you My Lord..... I have never forsaken you, Pls dun forsake me..... cos i love you..... I trust in you, I belive in you....

Pampered Son

10mins ago, I dunno why I had to buy a dog. 10mins ago I dunno why I had to buy a CHIHUAHUA. A chihuahua is so small that everything doesn't fit into his mouth and everything else cant fit on him cos he is soooooooo small. 10mins ago, I was tired of buying clothes for him cos everything jus doesnt fit. 10mins ago, I was fed-up with his diet for I need to source for small bites for him everytime I buy food for him.

I jus changed new dry food for him. And I tot he liked it cos he was fighting over it with brandy last week when she stayed over. Now he hasn't touched his bowl for 2 FREAKING DAYS..... And being me, I was worried sick when he did tat.

Although I told him I'm not doing anything and I wun give him can food and told him to be good and eat his dry food, but I am his mummy and he is my son and I very very heart pain when he displayed his stubborness with me, cos he is MORE STUBBORN than me..... He's a little spidey-dog with bull horns and eight furry legs.....

And so, this mummy gave in.....

I pounded his dry food and soaked them in warm milk, I started to unpack the microwave I bought especially for him, thinking it might come in handy soon......

And the minute I put down the pounded dry food in warm milk, he finished everything within 1 min..... And he's happily licking his paws and grooming himself on my bed now..... PAMPERED BOY..... SPOILT......

Hersheys Pls dun kill me when you read this...... cos I tried your method and he was really freaking stubborn and he's already soooooooo skinny...... I am so scared he'll jus starve to death....

And now he's asleep on my bed. Ok, 10mins ago I was grumbling WHY..... but now, I see his satisfied face with a smile..... and I am satisfied. And I am happy cos he is happy. And he jus made me happy by licking me and climbing all over me, playing with me and kissing me and wagging his tail and snuggling beside me to tell me that he loves me and I AM A GOOD MUMMY.....

Now I know why I bought a dog, I know why I bought a chihuahua and I know why I bought him. Cos he is mine, and its my responsibility to make sure he's happy and well and satisfied. And he is my son and I LOVE HIM..... Dino Junior, also known as Jania Devadason in bradel and Ah tu boy, smelly boy, chou chou boy and naughty boy by his mummy..... I LOVE YOU BABY...

See actually he is very clever...... See wat he did to the hippo....

COMPUTER GAMES

I slept the whole day but my throat still hurts, my voice is still sexy, my nose is still blocked and I am still grumpy. But something cheered me up cos I found my favourite MS-DOS game online and downloaded it.

Last time I didnt have a computer when I was young. The computer cost a BOMB and it was only in the MS-DOS mode only. I hated MS-DOS cos you have to type in the words to get a command to the computer. There are no icons or windows based system where you can click using a mouse and access the computer. Most of the commands to the computer including games, applications. I remember seeing my cousins Jason and Douglas typing in the commands like cd://windows, cd:/windows/games.....etc in this big black box where it covers the whole screen with a black background and the words are in wide with the "cursor" blinking on a row neatly....

The 1st few games I ever saw on a computer were Double Dragon, Mission Impossible, Dungeons & Dragons and Alleycat. I cannot remember much about Mission Impossible cos I refused to. The name of the game already tells you why..... cos its quite difficult to play and at my age of 5 or 6, the game was really like impossible to me..... hahahaha.... graphics not very nice too, so no point remembering it....

Double dragon is quite cool cos you could use 2 or 3 players and they fight together against the enermies and I really liked it as well. This game can be found at arcades and I normally play it when I get my hands on 1.....

Dungeons & Dragons (D&D) were not very easy to play too, and its jus like another similiar game to DIABLO now. I dun mind playing diablo, cos its like warcraft, all RPG (role-playing Games). The graphics for D&D is quite good for back then, but now when I see it again, erm.... I still prefer diablo and warcraft now.... heehee.

Alleycat is very much in my mind. Cos I always liked cats and this game is about a cat who tries to sneak into the different windows to perform different tasks like catching fish in a fishtank, catching a bird after knocking it off and freeing it from its cage, catch the mice in the HUGE cheese, get the test-tube and avoiding the spiders guarding it, stealing dog food from a few sleeping dogs and at the same time avoiding the broom who will chase you away and the dog who will fight with you. If you manage to complete the task, then you can jump into the window and try to win a girl-kitty's heart..... and the graphics are soooooo nice..... its still nice to me and I feel very happy when I get the fireworks...... cos this game is really bright and its based in mostly purple and pink and blue and black..... very nice and bright colours.....

I am soooooooo happy that I downloaded my alleycat game today..... YEAH.... I feel like a little gal again....

FOOD!!!

Sun I went for dinner with my dad and my 3 aunts. Junior didnt go cos he was too tired so I brought him home to sleep.....

We went to Spring Court (永春园) at Chinatown. I also dunno why my usually stingy aunty wan to treat us to dinner, maybe cos there was a promotion for peking ducks at 78cents only, so I went lor...... got food I am surely there one..... The whole 5course dinner with beancurd in crab sauce, brocolli & mushrooms, Soup, Garlic and Ginger Prawns, Fish with sweet and sour sauce AND Peking Duck, cost only $98++++.....

After dinner at Yong Chun Yuan, we went opposite to Yue Hua for some shopping. I've never been into Yue hua before and the things there are not very cheap ok...... the silk things there are at least a few hundred dollars..... So many things I dare not touch ah.....

Yue Hua has 5 storeys. 1st level is clothes and silk stuff and some medical neccesaties. 2nd level is tea, household items and food stuff, 3rd level is stationery, toys, antiques, decors for the house, artifacts and vases and and calligraphy and lotsa chinese things tat I also dunno how to explain (very ex hor)..... 4th level is supermarket but more on foreign stuff like japanese and korea food..... 5th storey they were having an exhibition on chinese herbs and tonics.... the most expensive one I saw was the cordyceps ginseng...... 1 tael is $2444..... Wa Lao, I can buy 2 juniors with that and still got money left to feed them for quite a while.....

Then I saw this and I was horrified...... cos I was reminded of BAMBI.....

Its a deer penis..... eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeewwwwwwwwwwww.... gross..... the poor poor deer..... got its penis cut off..... not cheap ok.... $318 for this thing..... poor poor deer..... luckily my bambi is a gal no penis...... (bambi is the name of my new daughter)

After buying 1 tin of tea..... jus for this someone...... cos she said she seldom see tea coming in tins anymore...... and when I saw tea, I am reminded of her....... so I bought this tin of tea for her...... and after we have digested our yong chun yuan dinner, we went to Gong He Guan for desserts......

Kwai Lin Gao...... Last time it was traditionally made from Tortise shells that is how the dessert name arrived from....... but now it is traditionally made from 24 types of different herbs that are blended together to soothe your throat and has many beauty effects like pretty, smooth and pure face.....etc.....

I tot it soothed my sore throat but actually the pain was gone from the cold cos it was kept in the fridge..... when my throat thawed, the pain came back again..... $5.50 per bowl, you can choose from the original or the menthol one..... I chose the menthol one of cos.....

And after that I went to cash in some money and when I went thru my notes........ I SAW THIS....

This $50 note starts with 9 and ends with 9. My aunt said it was good luck. And she also passed me a red packet that has this in it....

This $5 note's number is much nicer than the $50 one. And since she gave me this $5 note, I must keep it for good luck..... and so I decided to give the $50 note to my dad..... heehee.... So to share with all my readers, pls look out for notes starting with 9 and ending with 9. It will bring you good luck..... and to my besties and good friends out there, If ah ber really very lucky and manage to get more of such lucky money, I will give you a red packet with it in it..... pls dun spend it away.....

Blotched surprise

Guess we are equal. Cos I suck at surprises too. Last week Kenji was grumbling on the phone to me that he was full but he dun mind people ta-baoing dinner for him (I seriously think he was more lazy than hungry). So Ah ber wanted to surprise him lor.

I drove all the way to eunos and wanted to surprise him by ta-baoing western food for him. But along the way, I realised..... I forgot to bring his house keys..... and I was quite worried that he would fall asleep so I HAD TO CALL HIM lor. That broke the surprise and he kept laughing on the phone lor.....

I called him and told him about my broken surprise cos I need him to stay awake for dinner..... I also surprised him with a pair of new sandals la...... seemed like most of his sandals were bought by me..... seriously if he ran off with another gal, I cannot complain, cos I "BOUGHT HIM SHOES TO RUN AWAY" (its a chinese saying never buy shoes for your partner cos they will run away with other people). Luckily I always remember to collect $1 from him so that he is the one who bought the shoes himself.... hahahahaha..... rules are meant to be broken ok....

In the end I had to buy Yong Tau Foo cos western was closed. And the Yong Tau Foo gave me gas in the tummy after eating it.... maybe too many veggies in the nite is not good for me. We watched half a DVD together, one of the 1st movies I went to with my friends - 逃学威龙.... then we fell asleep. I couldn't sleep, I also dunno why, but he slept very peacefully lor.

Luckily his dad was still awake when I left, cos he locked up for me as I didnt have my keys with me.....

So now I decided that I also dun wan to surprise as well cos my surprises also sucks....

$20.00

$20.00

Sometimes we just need to be reminded!

A well-known speaker started off his seminar by holding up a $20.00 bill. In the room of 200, he asked, "Who would like this $20 bill?"

Hands started going up.

He said, "I am going to give this $20 to one of you but first, let me do this." He proceeded to crumple up the $20 dollar bill. He then asked, "Who still wants it?"

Still the hands were up in the air.

Well, he replied, "What if I do this?" And he dropped it on the ground and started to grind it into the floor with his shoe. He picked it up, now crumpled and dirty. "Now, who still wants it?"

Still the hands went into the air.

My friends, we have all learned a very valuable lesson. No matter what I did to the money, you still wanted it because it did not decrease in value. It was still worth $20.

Many times in our lives, we are dropped, crumpled, and ground into the dirt by the decisions we make and the circumstances that come our way. We feel as though we are worthless. But no matter what has happened or what will happen, you will never lose your value.

Dirty or clean, crumpled or finely creased, you are still priceless to those who DO LOVE you.

The worth of our lives comes not in what we do or who we know, but by WHO WE ARE and WHOSE WE ARE. You are special. Don't EVER forget it.

If you do not pass this on, you may never know the lives it touches, the hurting hearts it speaks to, or the hope that it can bring.

Count your blessings, not your problems.

And remember: amateurs built the ark .. professionals built the Titanic.

Emo rant

Haven't been home in 2 weeks. And today I came home with Junior. I haven't been sleeping well cos of late nites and early work in the morn and lotsa activities in the day. Totally have no time to think about lotsa stuff.

Its 11pm on a rainy sunday nite as I sit here at the computer, trying to organise my tots and feelings. Been feeling sick. Had a flu, sore throat, ulcer in my mouth and a migraine.

I am a typical gal, fickle-minded. And being a monkey, its even worse cos I change minds like nobody's business. Tryin to plan my future, but it seems so far away. Maybe cos I am so tired and sick I'm feeling bit down. I face peer pressure too with the people around me....... and I know I cannot rush into things like I wanted.

Maybe its the rain that is messing up my emotions. Its really a thunderstorm out there. I do hope the people that I love are warm and snug at home. Thank God my bro doesn't have to work today or else he'll be drenched. My heart goes out to the mac donalds people who have work to work in the rain delivering food to people who are warm and snug at home......and any poor soul out there who doesn't have shelter....

i dunno why, but the rainy weather always makes my heart get into a fluster...... I miss the people I love, although the one I love the most is beside me, knocked out on the carpet cos the new bedsheets doesn't have my smell yet and he's not adjusted here yet, even after 5hours after coming back home......

And it feels good to be nice and warm at home in my own room, doing useless stuff like surfing the net...... I wish time could turn......

PS: I would brave the rain to reach you...... No amount of heavy downpour could stop me from getting to you...... if only you would ask, if only you would...... do you know tat? People deep in my heart..... Some, so near yet so far, Some, so far yet so near....... You were never far away, cos you were always near my heart.....

I heard this song when I was doing facial at haach (YES, I do facials ok..... wat's so surprising?) and I made the beauty consultant lend me the disc and I copied it..... This song meant lots to me cos I chose it, it has significant meaning to it...... but turned out, everything was jus the same that we heard so many sad stories about...... things didnt turn out different......

I wan this time to be different. I hate to plan, because I am soooooo afraid things doesn't turn out good and wonderful and forever..... then i'll hurt all over again..... But life is always a big gamble. And the stakes are - myself.....

Destiny - (By Jim Brickman & I.dunno.who)

Halloween

2 days ago it was halloween.....

Mummy found her wig and put it on..... and she put it on damon as well and they took pics with my phone while I was sleeping.... and Damon looked like a gal.....heehee

Even Junior joined in the fun and he had a special costume made for him by his nanny..... he was ........ THE SPIDER....

Mummy made a flannel vest for him and velcro-ed the spider which I bought from Toys R Us onto him.... and he really looked like a big spider crawling on the pool table..... hahahahahah.....

And I exchanged $20 for this.......


I think in 10 yrs down the road, I'm gonna put this online and see how much it will be worth then.... it's wrinkle free cos I clipped it in a thick book for 2mths now....... so its very very straight and nice....