My favourite Christmas SOng

I had my 1st christmas present on 21 dec and it was a pleasant surprise but I threw the christmas present back at him due to certain unforeseen reasons which I hoped, had been rectified *HINT*.......

Tomorrow I'm gonna see my christmas present AGAIN and I hope everything ELSE goes well. *HINT* And I dun care..... even if nothing goes on well, I AM KEEPING my christmas present!!!!!!!! (Looks at the greedy face in the mirror)..... Of cos I hope that the wood will suddenly not be wood lor..... (**HINT**)

There are 12 days of christmas ma, so can still have christmas presents.

And my favourite Christmas song....

12 days of Christmas
On the first day of Christmas,
my true love sent to me
A partridge in a pear tree.

On the second day of Christmas,
my true love sent to me
Two turtle doves,
And a partridge in a pear tree.

On the third day of Christmas,
my true love sent to me
Three French hens,
Two turtle doves,
And a partridge in a pear tree.

On the fourth day of Christmas,
my true love sent to me
Four calling birds,
Three French hens,
Two turtle doves,
And a partridge in a pear tree.

On the fifth day of Christmas,
my true love sent to me
Five golden rings,
Four calling birds,
Three French hens,
Two turtle doves,
And a partridge in a pear tree.

On the sixth day of Christmas,
my true love sent to me
Six geese a-laying,
Five golden rings,
Four calling birds,
Three French hens,
Two turtle doves,
And a partridge in a pear tree.

On the seventh day of Christmas,
my true love sent to me
Seven swans a-swimming,
Six geese a-laying,
Five golden rings,
Four calling birds,
Three French hens,
Two turtle doves,
And a partridge in a pear tree.

On the eighth day of Christmas,
my true love sent to me
Eight maids a-milking,
Seven swans a-swimming,
Six geese a-laying,
Five golden rings,
Four calling birds,
Three French hens,
Two turtle doves,
And a partridge in a pear tree.

On the ninth day of Christmas,
my true love sent to me
Nine ladies dancing,
Eight maids a-milking,
Seven swans a-swimming,
Six geese a-laying,
Five golden rings,
Four calling birds,
Three French hens,
Two turtle doves,
And a partridge in a pear tree.

On the tenth day of Christmas,
my true love sent to me
Ten lords a-leaping,
Nine ladies dancing,
Eight maids a-milking,
Seven swans a-swimming,
Six geese a-laying,
Five golden rings,
Four calling birds,
Three French hens,
Two turtle doves,
And a partridge in a pear tree.

On the eleventh day of Christmas,
my true love sent to me
Eleven pipers piping,
Ten lords a-leaping,
Nine ladies dancing,
Eight maids a-milking,
Seven swans a-swimming,
Six geese a-laying,
Five golden rings,
Four calling birds,
Three French hens,
Two turtle doves,
And a partridge in a pear tree.

On the twelfth day of Christmas,
my true love sent to me
Twelve drummers drumming,
Eleven pipers piping,
Ten lords a-leaping,
Nine ladies dancing,
Eight maids a-milking,
Seven swans a-swimming,
Six geese a-laying,
Five golden rings,
Four calling birds,
Three French hens,
Two turtle doves,
And a partridge in a pear tree!

Next year 2008 is gonna be a busy year for me. I foresee that I have to start being busy starting NOW cos there are lotsa things waiting to be done.

Shopping again

Today I went shopping with my aunt again. I didnt feel like teaching so I cancelled all my classes and went out shopping at bugis. My aunt went on a shopping spree and bought 2 pairs of Hush Puppies shoes @ OG. Wanted to go to 2 fortune tellers but both were busy and didnt have a slot. So we went to Paya Lebar for more shopping. After that, we went to Kovan for more shopping till we made it back home at 8plus.

And my cramps are back and its my time of the month again. That is why I have been feeling so tired and grumpy and irritated and moody and having my terrible backaches......

Think Junior has PMS syndrome too.... he's very tired and grumpy too..... hahahahaha.....

There are some things in life that should thrill people when it happens, but not to some people. And I understand perfectly why they weren't too thrilled. And I dun blame them. But I tot that as long as I am happy, it should matter a lot to them.

Its ok. It will pass very soon....

Christmas @ Bradel

Now for the christmas party @ Bradel....

I was aiming the turkey ever since I laid my eyes on it. I helped mum to prepare part of the food since morn and I had been eyeing the turkey since then.

Why? Cos the turkey is huge......






I like the last picture - as wat Lena said, we are a happy family. Kenji showed his fatherly skills while carrying Shakira and amazingly, she didnt cry. I guess Kenji would be very good with his daughters and he really have that fatherly figure lor....

Junior saved my life today

I have heard of stories where the human's best friend saved their lives and of how the human's best friend have had premonitions of things that were going to happen.

Today I experienced it myself.

I always have the habit to do aromatherapy in my room. Today as usual I lit the aroma-burner, except today I used a candle with 2 extra wicks (cos the last one still had wax left so I put them all together).

Well. Bad Move.

The candle with 3 wicks started to burn themselves up. And the fire seemed to have a life of their own cos they were burning with the wax, not the wick....


The flames started from this candle inside - you can see it was burning FROM the wax..... the whole candle was on fire.....


Can see the flames trying to get out?

I was lying down when juniors started barking. I tot it was one of his usual barks when I realised it wasn't. If he was barking at passerbys, it would be continuous barking. If he communicated with other dogs it would be bark, stop, bark bark bark, stop.

Today he barked, stop, stop, bark, stop stop, barked..... as if he was sounding an alarm.

I looked up and saw the thing burning. I tried to blow away the flame but instead of putting it out, the flame caught onto the aroma-oil in the dish as well. GREAT. I have 2 fires to deal with now. I tried to use the flower spray on the fire but it rebuted with a nasty hiss and threatened to burn OUT of the aroma-burner.....


See the flame went up to the aroma oil as well....

So I went to get a huge pail of water.

I dumped the fire-starter - the candle into the pail. It put up a great fight which I tot I lost cos it gave out a huge fire-ball bigger than my head (I wasnt expecting that seriously, I was quite shocked) and then luckily it died.

Now's the tricky part. How to get rid of the aroma-burner that is filled with aroma oil in it?

Just as I was thinking of a way, the flame gave itself up, most probably due to the lack of support from the ferocious fire-starting candle. So I saved some of the very expensive oil (2 bottles of 5 litres oil with a burner cost me $1.2k ok - I was stupid to buy ma heehee).

So Junior saved my life today. He is my hero and he will always be my hero. Who says dogs are not good? Dogs are the best!!! And moreover, he is my son!!!! I LOVE YOU JUNIOR....

23 dec 07 Aunty Suleen's BD + christmas dinner

Then came sunday where I celebrated my aunt's birthday together with our family christmas dinner. Lotsa nice food.... and Junior came to join in the fun as well.... after the dinner..... we (Junior and me) went to the TFT chalet (Stay TUNED for more updates...... YaWns..... zZzZzZzzzzzz)

19 dec D&D @ Meritus Mandarin Hotel in Orchard

Been partying and eating and enjoying myself for the past week. Totally forgot I still had a blog.... I LOVE CHRISTMAS cos the spirit of peace, love and joy is in the air and I always feel happier when christmas comes......

I put on 3kgs and I have a growing tummy since 3rd dec. I wished it was a baby growing inside me but unfortunately it is jus fats growing around my tummy.

Well, we shall start my fun from last week where we had our company D&D @ Meritus Mandarin Hotel in Orchard. Theme was hollywood nite and I tot it would be fun to dress up as a hollywood character since they gave the go-ahead. So boring to wear gowns and stuff like tat and act prim and proper the whole damn nite rite..... so being the monkey ME, I decided to go as Lara Croft from The Tomb Raider. So cool to go D&D in short shorts and boots and bring guns.... when in your life can you ever carry guns walking around and "shoot" people?

But I think I really look like tomb raider. Cos in the car park an old man didnt wan to get into the same lift as me...... maybe he thinks he'll have a heart attack cos I'm hot???? oooooo......

And when the lift door opened, everyone at the reception dropped their jaws RITE TO THE FLOOR. I heard whispers of WHO IS SHE???????????

I so paiseh that I quickly went to the only colleague who would talk to me cos she's my batch mate. But after a drink, I warmed up and gladly posed with the people who wanted to take pictures with LALA croft..... hahahahahahaha......

Patrick's Birthday

Sorry the pictures for Patrick's birthday was long due.... heehee.... busy busy busy.....

Let's start with the food at Jumbo @ Serangoon Gardens - I only remembered bout the pictures when kenji showed me his Jumbo membership card..... of cos must give membership card la, we spent $1xxx on the 9course dinner leh.....

The Food -

The naughty stuff TFT did - dunno why lotsa kissing - maybe the weather very hot - they need lotsa "ICE" - translate into 爱 (ai).......

The more "normal" shots -

The Sabo part - digging the tadpole jelly out from the cake with the tongue.....



The birthday Boy and his presents.... heehee....

1 Degree 15

Last sun ah ber went to an exclusive club too. This time, its all thanks to ME that my aunts and my mum were able to enjoy at this exclusive club in Sentosa, named One Degree 15. This club is exclusive cos only members were able to go and it is newly opened. Fine dining restaurants line the place and most of the dining places face the sea.....

We went there to have tea...... actually i brought into sentosa (FREE) cos we went to view the units at Sentosa Cove - The berth and the landed properties at Sentosa Cove when we chanced upon this exclusive club and my aunt wanted to take a look. So we went in after I talked to the security, he let us in to explore the place. And we saw.....

PEACOCK SHIT

The French Stall

Yesterday I went on a double date with another couple. Its all thanks to them that I got to eat delicious and exclusive food and I found my favourite dessert!!! Kenji and I normally fret over where to have our dinner.

So when he called his friend, its really all thanks to them cos we caught them in time and I managed to share the happiness of a pre-christmas dinner (although we were gate-crashing some romantic moments :))

We went to The French Stall near to kitchener rd.

The food was nice!!!!

We started off with our starters which were the soups and Chicken Liver (cos its one of their specialities too).....

The lovely couple had their braised duck leg (the clever gal sourced from the internet that this was their BEST dish - it came with goose liver (french speciality) ok)..... They also had the famous french onion soup and they had home-made tiramisu as dessert..... yummy!!!!

Kenji had his executive beef set that came with a special dark chocolate dessert and french onion soup.....

I had the soup of the day and lamb chops with eggplants and mashed potato. I also found my favourite french dessert - French Boulee - traditional creme caramel. People who know me, knows that I dun fancy caramel, but this dessert really captured my heart and my stomach. And I fell in love with it when I ate it at that Fine Dining French Restaurant - Le Tongkin @ Mohd Sultan rd. And I also love the spring roll there ****HINT**** hhahahahahahaha....

We shared a bottle of red wine there as well. The total bill came up to $180 for 4 of us, quite reasonable cos the last time I was at Le Tongkin, it came up to $160 for both of us and there wasn't any red wine ok......

There was a promotion of a free shoulder and back massage from the massage parlour opposite the road if you spend $40 per person and so we went lor. The masseurs' skills are really damn good I TELL YOU..... must go and try - My Tulip - call 62956178 - I am already a member there and will be going there soon again..... it is really very very good - the masseurs are really skillful and experienced...... I swear by that......

Ms Rain is crying

Even the skies are having PMS. Serious mood swings. I was jus driving to Ikea (old one) from my place and back within 45mins. And from my place to Ikea, I experienced light drizzling, like the sky's upset bout something and she cried a bit....


As I approached Ikea, she must have gotten really upset and her tears really poured down and I cannot even see the car in front of me properly. Raining elephants and dinosaurs.....


Then I turned back and went home, cos how can you swim when there are elephants and dinosaurs in the waters with you?


Then out from Bukit Merah, she totally stopped crying. Not even a whimper was heard.


Then she started to get ANGRY. Cos the raindrops that fell were hard and piercing. Every drop on my car roof could be heard. I pity the ones on motorcycles cos I experienced it before and I know the pain of every raindrop that smash on you. Like little daggers stabbing you all over. The size of the raindrops on my windscreen were size of 50cents and from the front you can see the daggers smashing down on you.....


After that, she lightened up cos maybe someone consoled her. Cos her tears were size of 10-20cents and they were light and many......


Till now she's still crying and the sky still doesnt look good. Her boyfriend the thunder and lightning giver is also furious cos I hear him roaring continuously.... Maybe they had a quarrel.... hahaha.....

I love and hate the rain. I love the rain cos I jus love to see it pour from the sky. I hate it cos it makes it inconvenient to get out of the house and do stuff you really wan to do - and the feeling of getting wet.... is not a very pleasant one....

I'm happy today cos I'm going on a date later..... and maybe mahjong too..... YEAH....

Pre-PMS symptoms

Think I'm experiencing pre-PMS symptoms already. I know it when I feel that chocolates are the only thing that can calm me down and make me less jittery. I know it when my mind wanders and my mood swings. I know it is here.

Well, you visited quite earlier you know? Its only mid of the month, although its jus another 14 days that you would be over...... since you are here, I cant shrug you off can I? I shall use chocolates and snacks and lotsa food and drinks to suppress you. You can stay (cos I have no choice) but you stay away from me - stop pulling me down.... grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr......

Think its difficult to face your disappointments especially when you really wan things to go as you wished they would. I planned to get bambi, but I guess no bambi for junior for christmas, cos my mum doesnt wan another grand-dog in the house. I dun understand why, cos anyway she will be in my room.....

I look at my son and I feel he's such a poor thing. He even resorted to playing with the cats downstairs today. He went up to them and did his silly dance, hoping they would play tag and catching with him.......

I seriously believe he's thinking that he's turned into an outcast already...... I confiscated all my clothes from him cos he humped some of them and I had to soak them for a few days. And now he's furiously attacking his best friend the monkey cos he's so horny I swear his balls stick out from his ears....

He tried to talk to me. But I am so tired and I am so busy doing my stuff. At least if he has a wife or a gf he could make small talk in dog-language with her. And a wife or gf would keep him busy and not lonely.......

SO CAN ANYONE PLS SPONSOR BAMBI?

I already have $508 worth of sponsors.....pls help to make the amount to $1600....by christmas eve..... so that i can have a gift for junior......

Its depressing for a mum to see her own son so depressed bout his life.....

TGIF

TGIF.

Finally I have some time to breathe.

Been paranoid for the past few days. And today was worse cos my left eyelid kept jumping big-time. Feared the worst. But luckily my sick mum rina consoled me and I felt better and I decided that it was due to my tiredness that my left eyelid jumped.....

Today I was left alone in the office for almost 3 hours.

I didnt panic cos there was nothing for me to panic about. Felt quite pro and cool about it. Haha.

As I was driving home today, the word "committment" jumped into my brain and I was thinking about it while I drove (with my eye on the road of cos).

I have heard of gals complaining that their guy is not committed to them cos they have no plans to marry them yet, or haven't proposed, or not wishing to settle down. I realise that its not only the guys who are not committed. I know of this friend where she doesn't wan to be tied down, even though her guy is wanting to settle down. She is afraid of commitment.

I wonder why are people afraid of committment.

I have the answer.

People are afraid of commitment cos they are scared of losing their freedom and their own identity once they have committed, scared of losing themselves. scared to promise and then break the promise. Similarily, promises to them have been broken before and it might be painful to take that step to commit again.

I wonder wat is committment.

And I still do wonder if anyone can actually keep their commitment.

Cos I am afraid...

想太多

你笑着说

他是朋友

但你眼中太温柔

我的不安

那么沉重

只有你不懂

他霸占了你的心中

属于我的角落

所以你说

我们不是你和我

是我想太多

你总这样说但你却没有真的心疼我

是我想太多

我也这样说这是唯一能安慰我的理由

他霸占了你的心中

属于我的角落

所以你说

我们不是你和我

是我想太多

你总这样说但你却没有真的心疼我

是我想太多

我也这样说这是唯一能安慰我的理由

我想我没有错怪了什么

虽然你不说或许错在我

太晚我才懂爱了你太多

是我想太多

你总这样说但你却没有真的心疼我

是我想太多

我也这样说这是唯一能安慰我的理由

My tummy is growing bigger day by day

I see my tummy growing bigger & bigger day by day........ and YES, I am fat but I am not pregnant. Haha. Disappointed to hear that? Haha..... I cannot imagine little ah bers and little kenjis jumping and hoping around - think I will go mad.

For 2 weeks of sitting down after lunch and then sleeping after dinner, its not doing me any good. They jus add the layers of fat I already have on my tummy. I look like the male coaches with their pot belly.....

And today I went to fetch my mum back from work. Tot it would be jus a while so I went in my pyjamas. Brought junior with me for a little time away from the little cooped space he had in my room. When we reached there, my dad suggested that we walk around while waiting for my mum. He carried junior out so i had to go after him - cant really trust him with junior cos junior will bully him.....

And my mum was late so I ended up walking around WOODBRIDGE in my pyjamas and a small catty-mouse look-a-like black d.o.g in my arms. Oh gosh suddenly I felt i was a resident there. The nurses and workers who walked past me stared funny at me, I guess i MUST HAVE LOOKED LIKE A MAD WOMAN....... hahahahaha..... thank god they didnt send for helpers to tie me down and strap me to the bed in a strait jacket.......

Regrets

I know I should be in bed already cos I felt quite tired earlier on.

But I'm walking down memory lane (again). I guess everyone of us have our fair share of regrets, our fair share of laughter and our fair share of tears.

I used to have my regrets. But I realised that while I was sooooo focused on looking at that regret, I missed out on the precious things surrounding it.

1stly, time passes. You may come to a standstill in your life when you jus hold on to it and you jus fix ur focus on it and you forgot that time still runs..... so the longer you hold on, the more regret you will feel and the more time you will waste.

2ndly, we miss out on the people who genuinely cared. These people are family, friends and they are people who love us. When we fix our focus on this regret, when we hold on, we neglect them. We forget about them cos our tots are with our regret.

3rdly, the lesson learnt. We become obsessed with the regret that we forgot that this regret is teaching us a lesson in life. We are taught to appreciate things when they are with us, not only when they are gone from our lives. We are taught that nothing can last forever in this world and even the best things may be taken away from us in time to come. We are taught that things do break and the most fragile, breakable thing in the world, is actually our heart. We are taught to learn from this regret so that we live our lives properly and do not have anymore regrets.

I will never regret the things that happened in the past again. Because I believe that letting go of my regrets will ensure that better things will come into my life again. Although I hold on to the hope that miracles will happen, I know its up to God to arrange. And I believe in miracles.

I know eventually God will answer my prayers in the best way He can. Even if it might not be the ways that I wished it would be, or maybe I will not have it at all, I still trust in Him because I know that maybe without wat I wanted, my life would be happier, would be better, would be more fulfilled..... I know God would work out a miracle for me. I am waiting.....

I always use to ask myself "why" things happen. And I am glad that I have come to the stage when I can question "why am I feeling like this?" and "wat can I do to make things better?" And evaluate the pros and cons in allowing myself to wallow in pity and being sadistically slaved to my feelings.

I realise that I am the master of my body and I try - I may not succeed totally in evicting the negative energies and negative tots and negative emotions out of me, because people still do affect me externally, but at least i try my best to stay positive and steady as a rock..... A great improvement from the past where I am easily affected by the emotions, easily affected by anyone in fact......

Darkness wrote:
"It took me a few years before I could say your name again because every mention of your name took my breath away cos it hurt too much. Every tot of you racked my body with pain because I missed your touch, I missed your lips, I missed your hugs, I missed everything about you.

You took my soul. And my spirit is bleeding because your smile, your laughter, your kind words, your beauty - they were no longer for me. My world became dark because you were my sun and you no longer shine for me. My nites became cold because you took your warmth away."

PS: This one song. It tells u everything that I wan to say. Wat about you?

Keeping Your Relationship Fresh and Strong

Keeping Your Relationship Fresh and Strong
Many relationships deteriorate with time, just as muscles atrophy over a long period of under-usage. The principle is the same - just as muscles are built and maintained by consistent exercise, relationships need to be massaged regularly to keep them fresh and strong. The tips I'm about to share with you will not be news to you (in fact, you'll probably remember frequently using them during the courtship or "honeymoon" phase), but it's surprising just how many couples fail to employ them to keep their relationships healthy.

First of all, maintain eye contact with each other. When you look deeply into someone else's eyes, you're communicating a powerful commitment, a presence of mind that says "I am here for you, I am listening to you, I am interested in you." Eye contact with each other is usually one of the first things to go and it's virtually imperceptible; most couples don't even realize that they can go for days even without actually looking into each other's eyes.

Next, always let your spouse know that he or she is important to you. You may like to verbalise it or you might express it in other ways, it's up to you, but make sure that you consistently send signals to your spouse that you appreciate having him or her in your life.

Don't take anything for granted. Appreciate every little thing your spouse does for you, whether it's picking the baby up from your in-laws every day, cooking your favourite dish, driving you to work, doing the laundry, or cuddling in bed. All the things they do for you, that they really don't have to, are little reminders of just how much you mean to them. Don't be deaf to these reminders.

Next, keep up the physical contact with each other; and I don't mean just sex. Small gestures like hugs, gentle hand squeezes, your arm around her waist during walks, or head massages send powerful, reinforcing messages to your spouse that help keep the passion alive. These are things we usually don't do with family members or friends, and they convey an exclusive intimacy.

And don't bring the stresses of your workplace home. Certainly your spouse should lend you a sympathetic ear when you really need to let out your frustrations, but consistently complaining to your spouse about your work sends a message that you're using him or her as a dumping ground for your work-related problems. That you don't respect the relationship enough to give it the tenderness it deserves. So leave your work at the office; at the end of the day, you should be enjoying some relaxing time with your spouse.

Three Principles for Fulfilling Relationships

Three Principles for Fulfilling Relationships
There are three principles that we should understand well before committing to any romantic relationship. If you're already in a relationship, studying these principles intimately and practicing them will help ensure a lasting, satisfying relationship.

Unrealistic expectations are usually what drive a couple apart, so the first principle to understand is that your partner does not owe you your happiness. This may sound strange because why else would we want to enter relationships if not to find happiness?

Sure, we should derive joy from our relationships but our partner should not bear the duty of giving us joy. Joy should be the spontaneous consequence of two people sharing feelings of love for each other, not the result of one party constantly striving to fulfill the other's needs. When we expect our partner to make us happy, we set up opportunities for failure, and each time our partner fails to meet our demands, we lose respect and affection for him or her. Besides, love doesn't mean consistently giving in to our demands. And love doesn't mean always making us happy. What gives our joy may not always be in our best interests. And love can sometimes mean hardship and pain.

The second principle for fulfilling relationships is to love your partner for who they are. Don't love a fantasy version of them you hope will emerge in the future. Many people enter a relationship thinking that in time, their partners will change, but this often doesn't happen. Your partner entered the relationship believing that this is what you fell in love with. He or she doesn't see any reason to change.

Loving your partner for who they are also means accepting their flaws, or what you deem to be flaws. Each person has attractive qualities as well as some habits or characteristics we may not find so beguiling. But we should love our partners in spite of the qualities we don't appreciate as much as the others. There is no perfect lover, like there is no perfect gadget. You're always going to have to trade off certain features for other ones you find more suited to you. And when you run into conflict over those undesirable features, your love for the whole product should be more than enough to make you overlook the flaws and still embrace your partner. So ask yourself "If my partner upsets me, will I be able to look past the words and actions and still love the person?"

The third and final principle is to love and respect yourself as much as you love and respect your partner. This is because if you feel inadequate compared to your partner, you might become obsessed with fulfilling his or her needs and neglect your own. Over time, your partner will learn to take you for granted and you will no doubt begin to feel like you got the short end of the stick.

Maintaining fulfilling relationships is no easy job, but understanding and practising these three principles should help you a great deal.

My new job

Ah Ber slept at 8pm yesterday. Think I'm falling sick soon that's why I'm so tired.

I started work last week. Work's been fine cos I think I have not really gotten into the actual area of work yet and I still have my mentor helping me. Last mon to wed I've been at my HQ @ international plaza for training and it's been quite dry cos I dun have much to do. Last thu & fri I went to my on-site office @ Technopark Chai Chee for on-the-job training. Felt much better, at least I could have a feel of wat's going on there.

A few impromptu cases popped up and my mentor seemed to be attending to them with ease. I jus stared with my jaw dropping cos I dunno how and wat to do. I jus listened. I guess this job requires much patience and much pro-activeness and much initiative and much dedication to perform it well.

This week mon, I went back to HQ in the afternoon half cos training not completed yet. And today I went back for another full day training. Tmr I'll be at chai chee the full day and I have to rush out my payroll cos time is running out cos i still have training on thurs. My cut off date is 16th and 19th is my D&D. I havent decided wat to wear. The theme is HOLLYWOOD.

I tot i would jus wear my black gown. But being the naughty me, i tot being the CAT-WOMAN would be cool. Then I tot being LARA CROFT would be sexy and kinky..... hmmmm. Kenji suggested the invisible woman so that I dun have to go.... hahahahahah.... wat a great suggestion except the movie's bout the invisible MAN instead of the WOMAN.....

Today they mentioned that we can also do BOLLYWOOD. That excited me a little..... cos I LOVE BOLLYWOOD...... Maybe I can jus wear my punjabi suit and say I am aswari rai.... Hhahaahahahaha..... and anyone who PROVOKE me, i shall jus burn them.... (plot from the movie "PROVOKED")

Give me some ideas about wat I can wear pls?

And its 11.30pm already. My eyelids are dropping already..... I need to go bath, slap on my lotions and maybe do my mask and then say hello to LALA-land.....zzzzzzzzzzzzz

The Flame in you & me....

Yesterday 081207 TFT had an event at Jumbo @ Serangoon Gardens. I'm waiting for more pics to be up on the TFT webby before I can share with you on the FOOD and the fun things we did.

Been exposed to different types of emotions since the morning. Saw the blogs of some of my friends, read their happiness flowing thru their blog entries on happy occasions with their beloved ones and empathise with the sorrowful entries seeking for consolation for their empty hearts, grieving souls and broken spirits.

In the past, I used to attach myself very closely to the emotions of those around me. I feel together with them. And their every emotion is reflected on me and my emotions revolve around them. I get involved deeply and get hurt deeply too.

Its not that I do not care now. But there are many things I cannot do. I cannot live their life for them, or with them, unless I am really a part of them, unless I love them and they love me too. I can only offer a listening ear, maybe a shoulder to lean on, maybe some loving advice and suggestions, maybe a hug or 2, maybe some tissues.....

Maybe thru years of scarring, will you then learn the hurt and detach yourself from stuff that could hurt you. I know clearly the pain of living when the one you loved so much is not with you, not the one you are able to spend your remaining days with, not the one who chose you, not the one to be by your side when you needed them the most, not the one ultimately.....

Saying, doing and escaping from the reality are totally different things. You can say something, you can do something to prove wat you jus said, but you can never lie to yourself that you escaped reality.

Some people know of their fate before they jump into something, but they still jump into it because there is always a hope that things would be wat you hoped. Everyone of us carry a torch of hope inside us and it can never be extinguished unless its the person who lit the flame. And the person who lit the flame is normally not the person whom you hoped for, the person IS YOU.

You chose to lit the flame, you chose to allow this flame to burn inside you, you chose to hold this torch for that someone and ignore the other flames buring around you, because YOU CHOSE IT. But you forgot that the fire, the flame, the passion, the LOVE, the emotions, everything - can only burn bigger and turn into a huge furnace, when 2 flames are put together.

You can choose to burn alone, and burn yourself out by holding on. You can choose to foolishly burn yourself out for someone who doesn't appreciate you, and may never put their flame together with yours for a miracle cure for your longing HOPE. And you can also choose to burn for someone else.

Of cos the fire will definately leave a burnt mark - which flame doesn't leave a burnt mark? Which flame doesn't hurt when you touch it? Which flame doesn't scar you?

Extinguishing this one flame, will hiss with pain when the water is poured over it to put it out. The stubborn ones will re-ignite like the magic candles, and may only be put out when the catalyst creating the flame is truly extinguished - in this case, the magic wick or the hot and burning coals or charcoal or wood conducting the fire.....

Extinguishing the flame hurts as no one wan to be missing the warmth of the fire and no one wan to feel cold. But there are still many fires to be lit. There are still the flames of the ones who appreciate you, the flames of your good friends by your side..... never give the cold shoulder or neglect the flame of the ones burning FOR you. Cos as I mentioned, the flames burning alone, will extinguish when 2 flames are not burning together and they die out when you neglect them.

I hope one day, You will be able to look back at this flame that you extinguished and rely on the good memories this flame brought you and how you tended to the fire that it burned with such great passion and love from your side, and smile, because you know you did your best but the one you burned for, did not appreciate you enough to add their flame to yours.

PS: Suddenly I feel so full of "INK" Haha...... My flame is still burning....... Wat about you - the ones I love and the ones who love me? Will you add your flame to mine so that we can keep burning with passion, burning with friendship, burning with everything that you have got till the end of our days? Even though I do not speak and you dun hear from me often, but I do hope that you know, You are on my mind and in my heart every moment of my days and my days are happy because you are happy..... Who are you burning for? Am I one of them?

Ancient Photos....

I found these pics while I was doing my spring-cleaning last week and they are really precious to me and mummy cos these are the one and only ones I have. I immediately converted them into softcopy and here's a peek for you..... my godsons Jared & Damon when they are GOD-KNOWS-HOW-OLD.....

They did some modelling and the pics turned out quite nice. They looked really cute and handsome rite?

SURPRISE SUCCESSFUL!!!!!

My surprise for my darling Kenji was a success. Actually I planned lots of other things that couldnt come thru due to unforseen reasons..... but it was also good tat they couldn't come thru..... cos I think if it came thru, more people would be stunned.

My Simple yet really lots-of-effort surprise stunned everyone (I hoped.... heehee)


1stly I stunned myself.

2ndly I stunned his mum.


3rdly I stunned him.

4thly I stunned TFT members.

I cut my 1st CD, my 1st album on CD. I do have albums on cassette la (which I am thinking WHEN can I get them back from Ms Lena cos there's something on those cassettes that are really important to me....)

I sang "Forever Love" accompanied by my playing of the piano..... Not easy to sing and play at the same time ok. For 2 days I cancelled my classes and sat at the piano and did over 300+ recordings ok...... And my piano was not tuned..... so I had to bang on the keys very hard for the sound to come out and for 3 days my thumbs were in plasters cos they hurt so much after 10 years of not playing the piano.

The version you are hearing now is the one that Jimmy and Forest helped me to cut and connect so that it will stun the listener even more..... Hope it really did stun you.... hiak hiak hiak hiak...




Hahahhaa.....

Then I made the card. I feel quite proud of myself having designed, planned, bought the materials myself, putting them together and "plotting" and carrying out the surprise ALL BY MYSELF. I am still useful in some ways ain't I?



1stly, I printed out all (at least most of the nice ones) the pictures we took during our 2 years of courtship and some gifts that we exchanged with each other.






Then I tried to arrange them in the best way that I could.....






Once I decided that it was feasible in doing it, I planned my card and the type of materials tat I would use. I brought out all my blink blink glue and marker pens and magic pens and everything I could lay my hands on........ and TADA.....

Followed by the little T-rex that I bought and made but no time to decorate.....

After everything (card - checked, CD - checked, Dino - checked) was in order, I went to plant my surprise. I waited till 2am when everyone SHOULD be sleeping then I sneaked into his house (cos I have his keys la), then took his car keys and went to plant the CD into his CD player and the big big card into his boot (Cos I know we going sunway and he will surely put his luggage into the boot - see I can read minds cos he really did that).

Then I sneaked back and put back the keys and TADA, I went back to sleep.

Slightly before 7am, he smsed me saying he kena stunned....

Hahahahahha..... I LOVE SURPRISES when i'm springing them......

And I had my surprise later in the evening too....

PS: Its a real pity that I am not a guy rite? You know why God made me a gal or not? Cos if I am a guy I will SURELY be a PLAYBOY one... break gals' hearts. But I will be soooooooo romantic that all the gals will fall in love with me. How nice to be romantic and pamper a princess hor? If I am a gal, I can be pampered ma...... Hahahahah and the guys will be at my mercy rite? Hahahahahah...... No leh.

So far I am being bullied by guys leh and the 1st one is DINO JUNIOR my son and he is the biggest bully in my life at the moment. He thinks that He is the MAN in my ROOM.... even though he is the size of a overgrown RAT....

SUNWAY 301107 - 021207

SUNWAY TRIP 301107 - 021207 (FRI TO SUN)

301107 LOG

Met up Forest 1st and Alex came to pick me, forest, weixiang and jerry. Met up with the rest of the group at Mac Donalds @West Coast at 6.30pm. We all had dinner - I had fillet O Fish set meal......

Set off for SUNWAY!!!!

Reached Ayer Keroh at 10pm. Ate Coney dog + fries + 1 large rootbeer float and gave myself a souvenior in the form of a rootbeer mug......

Continued our journey and reached SUNWAY before midnite.

Went for supper at Ming Tien Hawker for our favourite and delicious PIGGY SOUP.......

(see for the 1st day how I became a piggy ok.......)






011207 LOG

Woke up with a nightmare again. This time I dreamt I woke up weighing 5kg heavier..... scared the shit out of me.....

Woke up at 7.30, fell asleep again till 9.15am, woke up, prepared for breakfast and SUNWAY.

Went to meet the others at 10am at the roti prata shop downstairs - had 1 prata egg and 1 kosong + Teh O.

Went to SUNWAY for our fun all the way from 11am to 6pm.....

In between, had ice cream, had spring rolls, had fries, had drinks......

Went for dinner at 9pm at some chinese (i meant CHINA) restaurant. Dishes are simple and occassionally, its good to have simple dishes to clear your internal system, but not really to my liking but I am the chin chye one..... so I got no problem..... except, I think not very full...

So at 10pm, me, forest and meifong went to Ming Tien Hawker to have our PIGGY SOUP again..... and our Chee Cheong Fun.... YEAH.......

(see how I eat again on 2nd day..... Fat liao)






021207 Log

Last day.

Woke up at 7.30am... dunno why cannot sleep.....

Went for breakfast + check out at 10.30am...... Had 1 prata egg + mutton curry (with huge mutton parts) + fish curry (with sting ray) + chicken curry (with 1 chicken part) + bits of Mee Goreng + Teh O.

I missed Mustafa Mutton curry suddenly..... hahahahaha..... cos the mutton curry cannot make it.....

Travelled to Ayer Keroh for t-break at 1pm....... had rootbeer float + 2 scoops ice cream wz waffle...... brought another sourvenior back (if you know wat I mean LA)......

Went to JB for haircut, colour + treatment and manicure and pedicure.......

At 9pm, we went for dinner...... at this thai restaurant near to New York Hotel....

After dinner, we proceeded back to sg..... but we had 2 unfortunate drink drank drunk incidents..... post mortem of drinking = PUKING.

1st, Ivan puked cos he TAAAAAAAA beer...... I also TAAAAAAA wat...... but luckily I burpppppped alot..... hahahahhaha.....

2nd, little alvin puked in the car...... hahahahhaha he's the birthday boy ma..... must drink one la.....

Get to know yourself better

Get to know yourself better

Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education:
Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.