Friday, May 25, 2012

Happy anniversary 25 May 2008 to 25 May 2012

Happy anniversary to 25 May 2012 when we were still happy then. When the smiles were genuine, the laughter was loud, the marriage was a bliss, everything seemed wonderful, seemed like I found the perfect one, when we were still happy then. No one is Perfect if u are a human on earth. Now we are happy too. Happily apart. Seriously if it was her, I would feel relieved to lay down the suspicions I had for the longest time. However I'm in no mood to carry my suspicions further. Cos I have better things to do. More things to focus on like work. I still hate you for telling my best friend tat someone is madly in love wz u and she was very upset during our wedding dinner. We are both adults and the least u can respect me, is tat. And behave like an adult when u talk to me. Childish ways have gone. It doesn't matter. Cos at the end of the day we all die and leave the earth, leave the good, bad and everything behind and return to dust. Happy anniversary to u, 4 yrs ago. I' not ashamed of who I am. Because I am wat I am and I am ah ber. Wat do t kill me only makes me stronger. Sometimes I wish I can be bad. I can do all bad things and hurtful things and the worst things in earth. But I am ah ber and this is me. Accept me or not. It's ok. At the end of the day, I am still me.

Saturday, May 19, 2012

Emotional baggage

It's been so long since I visited here. 2 yrs to be exact.

I realized I am still carrying my emotional baggage with me. It all started 2 yrs ago. When it started to spiral downhill again. The union tat I tot was the perfect one, the one I tot would be the last, did not last. Till date I still have the same question on my mind - was it me? I am still wondering wats wrong wz me.

It was ok to lose him. But I think I cannot get over losing friends. Like losing her. My best friend since I was 13. I lost her not because I death. But because of small trival issues.

In my 32 yrs of life, the ple tat had came into my life and made an impact there, were the ones I called friends, and they are the hardest people in my life to get rid of within me. Because I felt most relaxed, most myself, most carefree, most enjoyable, happiest moments wz these ple I called friends.

Wine is best when it get older. Ple compare friendship like tat. I'm sorry if along the way I made things bad or turned things sour or caused u to hate me. But pls believe me when I say tat I was true before. And I had been true. I'm sorry if I didn't let u know me enough to trust me.

In life we all have our ups and downs. Our regrets our pains our happiness. Tat makes life

I jus wan u to know its still an emotional baggage tat I'm holding on to. A baggage full of friendships tat couldn't weather the storms. Tat didn't have the permission to sail again.

I have been pricked by thorns. And there's a thorn inside of me which represents u. If u would give me a chance I'll show u how to pluck the rose without getting pricked by the thorn. If only u would.

Hello 2012

Hello 2012