(Adapted from Facebook)

Its a road I had taken. That painful journey. Every second of that memory kills thousands and millions of cells in me. My skin crawls while my heart aches.

I tell myself to let it go. But either my heart or my brain stubbornly refuses to do so. I used to think, wat in the hell was wrong with me. Now I finally realised there is nothing wrong. Love has no rite or wrong. If the other party does not love me, nothing wrong, cos they dun need to love me. And they have the rite to reject. However if there is no rejection or acceptance, then wat am I? Someone who blindly waits?

On 1 hand, let it go. On the other hand, cannot bear to let go. Wat if I lose this special one forever? Will I ever learn to love again? Will I ever know love again? Will I ever survive this?

It hurts till now. It never stopped hurting. It will never stop hurting the day we are all alive. Absence only makes the heart grows fonder???? Or daily interaction makes it hard to let it go?

I still hurt. But I look at it that the special one is happy. The special one's happiness and laughter and warmth and survival and everything else is more important than anything else. I can give up anything so that the special one can continue with everything.

"If it even hurt you to think of me, I would rather you forget me so that you do not have to hurt, even though it is killing me"

"I would give up my everything so that you can have everything"

"Your happiness is most important to me and it doesn't matter if I am hurting"

A blessing in disguise that we are in such a situation now? Or is it going to be eternal hurt?

No. There will always be someone else. Even if you are not the one to follow me till the end of the world and till the end of my time, you will always be part of me, part of my life, part of wat I used to be and will always be in me. I will keep this special memory inside me, the only place that no one can steal it from me. This part of you will always belong to me.

I look at your face
I sit in a daze
Not knowing where to go
Emotions run low

I dunno wat to do
I am scared too
I am in a maze
In an airless case

I turn my back. And walk away. But deep down how much I wanted to run back. And how much effort and strength and everything I use to stop myself from doing so. I know any word from you and I will lose all my perserverence. And I am holding on to myself from going mad. Nearing the verge of madness.

With you, or without you. the sun still shines, the world still turns and time still ticks and doesn't stop. But my mind can be frozen there for you and my heart can stop beating for you at that moment. If you just open up, I guess disaster will happen. The disaster will be exploding inside me. So have mercy on me. Just tell me, whether it is wat I wanted to hear.

Let's end 2009 with a small bang. :) I cannot sleep and now its almost 1.30am. There are too many things going on in my brain. I drank quite a bit this evening and AM supposed to be tired and drowsy and sleepy and AM supposed to be in bed by now.

I tried. But I close my eyes and my brain is still working. Its still churning and turning and processing things. After i log on to FB it got worse......

My eyelids are heavy. My eyes are tired. But my brain refuse to sleep..... everytime I try to close my eyes my brain reacts by playing images that are affecting me... Who understands ah?

I tried to talk about it. But at this time of the nite, even terror and junior is sleeping you know.... then i remember you my berby.blogspot.com.... :)

Well... I dun think I wan to say anything here cos I will dream about it later.... :)

Its been a while since I came here. Too busy with facebook. No one reads here anyway. Everyone else is also busy with facebook i guess!!!

I decided to rear spiders here again....

Hahahahhaha

Ah ber is sick

Been having high fever since friday nite. 39++ degrees. No appetite, whole body ache, cannot stand up cos i will be giddy.

Slept away my whole sat and half of sun.

Still feeling weird.

Great time to lose weight!!!

Miss junior and terror and bruno and kido. Dreamt that junior was lost at my grandma's house. I dreamt this twice.... so worried. And in my delirious state, woke up thinking it was real and got so confused.... Few times woke up and didnt know where I was......Had to take a couple of minutes to fingure out that I was at home and raging a fever.....

And that junior was safe at bradel....

its terrible to be sick. My throat is so sore that I lost my voice....

Bad bad weekend.....

Terror and Aliens 08 April 2009

I know you are waitin for my Macau post. Will surely upload the pics soon......

Been busy cos I promised Terror to bring her to the vet for her scan when I came back from Macau. When I came back from Macau tat nite, already can feel the aliens moving inside her. Had the scan last sunday and they shaved her tummy..... Cost me S$186 but we left with 2 x-tray slides showing 2 aliens inside her. Wanted to schedule her for C-section on 11 April but the price was HORRENDOUS - quoted me S$1200. Asked mummy rina to help with natural birth for terror. We read up on the internet and watched youtube videos of chihuahua giving birth. Looked so easy. But there were some difficult cases too. Terror looked like a cow with her tummy shaved and nipples sticking out.....

This morning, 08 April 2009, at 5plus am, her contractions must have started. She started peeing gel stuff out since 5plus and both me and rina were watching over her. I called in urgent leave around 7plus cos we both had the feeling its today she's gonna give birth. I called my boss and told her my gal giving birth already HOW HOW HOW HOW........ I think she panicked too.

7plus am - She started to have liquid coming out from her vulva. Yellowish liquid mixed with bit blood. A partial part of a water bag came out from her vulva. She was trying to push. We were trying to rub her tummy and comfort her to push out the babies. Could see some black thing inside (looked like a tail or a leg). Then as quick as it came out, it went back in again.

Junior was playing his part as expectant daddy and was pacing around anxiously.

8plus am - called the hospital to ask if this was normal. Nurse said it was. But vet said to bring her in for urgent assisted delivery as there might be distortions or something.

9plus am - went to the hospital. Felt safe cos ALL the vets were there for a meeting..... Terror was hooked up to IV drip and given injection to induce labour. She screamed a few times due to the needles (she is terribly scared of the pain). Me and Rina stayed back in the ward to accompany her.

Terror was frantic cos she was in a strange environment. Kept running to either me or rina. The vet came to examine her a couple of times - He's really a nice and cute guy. His name is Dr Brian Loon. Love him to bits.....

By this time, the alien on the left side has no motion. I cannot feel the alien moving in terror's tummy. I was frantic too.

10plus am - Terror splurted more liquid out so we were so scared the water bag broke. Called the vet in immediately. He stuck his fingers inside her and told us the bag was still intact. Sighed a great sigh of relief. Terror had 2nd jab to induce labour. If she didnt make it this time, C-section most probably on the cards.....

Suddenly, the water bag came out partially from her vulva again. Called the vet in again and on the spot, the doctor and the nurse tried to assist her in delivery. Water bag there but the alien was not in proper place - not in the birth canal yet!!!

Vet and nurse tried to help her. They put lub and stuck their fingers inside trying to hook the alien out. They asked me to help by holding her up and talking to her while they work on her lower body. Could feel her contractions and she did try to push.

By this time, I can feel NO motion from right alien as well. Scared the shit outta me.

Vet suggested we wait longer.

I cannot wait longer. I told him to prepare the c-section NOW.
11plus am - Terror was sent into the operating room where I can see from outside. They shaved her more and knocked her out. I cannot bring myself to see the rest. Rina and D and jakes took turns to check her out.

12plus pm - The surgeon brought out a sag from terror. The sag was broken and 2 aliens were brought out to the cruel world. 2 aliens all covered in slime and disgusting liquid and NOT BREATHING (cos they still had the umbillical cord attached).

The nurses were trying very hard to save them, make them breathe. They started by dropping them quite hard into the palms of another nurse, then very very very very furiously rubbing and rubbing and rubbing them all over. They took liquid out from the alien's nose and mouth. It took about 15minutes for them to do all these, but it took ages for me.

I tot I lost them.

Finally they meowed. Hahahahahaha. They made funny noise like kittens meowing la.

And they moved and they were ALIVE!!!!!

1plus pm - Terror finally came out from the operating theatre after her sterilization. I never want her and myself to go thru such torture ever again. Terror finally let her kids suckle her and they looked comfortable together....

I nearly cried when I saw the boys and terror.

2plus pm - Kenji came to visit his daughter and his grandsons. We were gloating over the fact that we were grand parents. But not too happy about the hole in the pocket. I had already made a S$1500 deposit for the hospitalization and surgery.

8pm - Rina the grand nanny, Lena the God grandma, Jakes the God grand uncle and Ber the grandma picked up our little girl terror with her 2 boys. Earlier on we rushed to pet movers to get supplements and good food for terror.

Junior was introduced to his sons but he wasnt too interested as he wasn't sure wat they were and where they came from and who they were.....

11plus pm - Terror finally ate her supper and all is well!!!! We will continue to monitor them thru the nite......

Aren't you keen to see the puppies?

Here you go.....



I have yet to name them....... one of them is almost exactly the same as daddy Junior. The other one is just like mummy Terror. They look more like hamsters now.....

I feel old. I am grandma status already!!!! Total damages today: S$1596....... damage to my pocket, but boost to my heart cos I am filled with happines and pride.....

Thank you darling terror who gave me 2 wonderful grandsons. Thank you for going thru all that you went thru to add more joy in my life. Thank you for being such a great mummy and such a great daughter!

And also thank you to Junior for your super sperm and stubborn kids who look like you and terror!!

Thank you mummy rina who was with the kids (including me) thru-out the whole thing. Thank you Jakes for sending us there. Thank you D for loving the aliens. Thank you daddy kenji for dropping by to visit your gal even though you had a tight schedule. Thank you Godma Lena who came to visit and went with us to pick terror and the boys back!

Thank you God for answering my prayers!!

Bye Sg, Hi Macau

Ah Ber is now at the Budget Terminal waiting to get on my flight to Macau. Will be meeting my friend Hui Keng there!!!! So exciting!!!

Just had breakfast with my family and hubby at HANis. Then came into the transit area and realised that got more food inside!!!!!! But too full to eat anymore!!!!

Ah Ber will happily be shopping at Macau, Hong Kong and Zhuhai......

Meanwhile I will be missing those around me like Mummy Rina, my 3 godsons, my babies Junior and Terror and my darling kenji!!!!

Dun miss me too much!!!!

Wuv you all, see ya when I am back..... Happy April's Fool in advance!!!!

Will blog if the casino has an internet hahahahahahaah....

Lots of love, Ah Ber

Rants

Ber is on half day today so decided to take Terror to the vet as I had kenji's car. Its still too early to tell if she is pregnant but I made her go for the heartworm test and she was screaming so loudly that I could hear her from the front of the clinic!!! My heart ached..... They had to poke her twice cos she wouldn't stop moving and they couldn't draw blood from her!!!!!

Poor Baby. Today cost me a BOMB again.... Almost $150 for whole session!!!!!

Kenji's out entertaining again. Ber is bored so I went down to my parents place to visit them with the kids and also buy some stuff. Decided to re-floor my study room for the kids' benefit.....just like my own room....

So I just did it and just finished it.....Ber just re-floored my study room ALONE. Cant imagine how heavy is the flooring.

I am totally shacked and covered in sweat and feel like dropping off to sleeeeeeeeep. But just realised I haven't had dinner. So later I'll just cook some soup and go to sleeeeeeep.

Before that..... share some pictures with you...



How come I got a Wabbit?

Wahahahahaaha.

When....

When the rain fall,
When the darkness is nothing but all,
When the light fade,
When the ocean turns the colour jade,

When the morning dawn,
When the sun awake with a sleepy yawn,
When the warmth slips into cold,
When I have no one to hold,

When the emptiness run over,
When missing you starts to hover,
When glory is all I wished for you,
When praises are all I sing for you,

I wonder about you.....

Ah ber's plan

Ok. Ah Ber is planning for my birthday already. I would like to take the aeroplane..... so here are the options below:

1) BKK
Tiger - $30, 6.30am flight on 9 may, $100, 2010pm flight on 11 may back.
Jetstar - $69. 7.15am flight on 9 may, $79, 2115pm flight on 11 may back.
Jetstar - $79, 1930pm flight on 8may, $79, 2115pm flight on 11 may back.
Airasia - $59, 2040pm and 2205pm flight on 8 may, $104, 1815 flight on 11 may back.
Airasia - $86, 1055am flight on 9 may, $104, 1815 flight on 11 may back.

2) KK
Need to find out more.....

3) KL/Genting
Drive up?

4) Batam

5) Bintan

6) Bali

7) HK disneyland



Hahahahahahhaa

Camping adventure

Ah Ber is sun burnt again. I spent the last wed and thurs CAMPING. Can you believe it? Wed was Jared's birthday so we all followed his wishes to go to the places he wanted to go.

Wed -
9am to 11.30am - We went to Jurong Swimming complex to enjoy the lazy river and wave pool and dip in the jacuzzi. The look on the kids' faces showed they really enjoyed the lazy river and wave pool.

11.30 to 3pm - We travelled to Kulai via the 2nd link. Went to the Nanyang fishing pond. the scenery sucks cos there were rubbish everywhere. The pond is a man-made pond but it was quite good. The fishes there were big but we cannot bring them back - its a catch and release pond. The fishes were longer than my arm!! But we didnt have much luck with the fishes due to 2 reasons. 1) We had to use either bread of some banana pudding as bait, which doesn't really stay on the hooks for long. 2) The hooks we had to use, had to be barbless. They took out the little pointed part of the hook so that we dun hurt the fishes if we get them. But this way, the fishes dun really stay on the hook as well.

The mozzies there were HORRIBLE. They gave us the impression that they haven't been feeding in THOUSANDS of years cos they were so ferocious and HUNGRY. They could sting for a few times in a row. We were really casaulties of this episode. Even the mozzies coil cannot prevent them from us.

After an hour, we gave up.

3pm to 6pm - We travelled to giant, carrefour wanting to get our sleeping bags and our tent. Managed to get the tent and i got a sleeping bag and shoes too. Hahaha.

6pm to 8pm - We played at Danga Bay.

8pm to 10pm - We went to fishing shops in woodlands and yishun to get our fishing stuff and set up our tent at Sembawang beach.

10pm to Thurs 6pm - We spent our time at Sembawang beach where I got the biggest crab and D got the biggest FISH. Hahahahah...... Slept at 5am on thurs morn but at 7am, I was awaken by D who was screaming for me to get pilers and scissors and a towel cos he said some catfish had a Hook in its mouth. I jumped up thinking WOW, we finally get a big fish. To my dismayal..... it was a Stewpig "stupid" cat who was greedy enough to eat a fish on the hook (not our hook, some people's hook) and got snagged on the line with the hook hooking her mouth just like a fish.

You know ah, the cat's mouth is not like a fish mouth and it really hurts if the hook hooked it. So i decided to cut the line cos the stewpig cat refused to let me go near her to remove the hook. So the cat left with a piercing in her mouth la. Stewpig cat.

Wat a camping adventure. My furkids didnt go as we needed to spend a night and I didnt have time to concentrate on them and on fishing. I also didnt want them to be killed by the sand fleas there or the wild cats or dogs there.

Mummy also brought charcoal and we cooked maggie mee, toasted bread, scrambled eggs, coffee and lotsa others over the stove. We also cooked and ate our crabs and prawns and fishes....

But I felt like a young gal at heart again. Felt wild and jungle-like. Like in survivor!!! Hahahaha. But it was really cool!!! And the boys were great as my fishing assistants! Especially Jared. He was really PRO.... He listened to instructions and he was able to catch fishes too!!! Great Job Jared!!!

MARCH 2009

Yes, today is the 1st working day for March 2009.

I woke up with a smile on my face this morning. Because I had a nice dream. It felt so real. Like lying just beside me. All in white. Smiling at me. Short cropped hair. Looked just like the past. I am happy. Happiness flowed from the smile at me. Glowing face. Relaxed.

I forced myself to wake up. Because I had to do laundry before I went to work and also because I didnt want to fall deeper into the dream. :) But I thank God for my dream. He always makes things happen when you least expect it. :) I love God!

Today is the 1st working day in march, the day I take on my new role. It was a challenging day today. Cos 1stly, last friday we moved our work space. And today, officially, I am seated NEXT TO MY BOSS. Great rite? But I luv it you know. Cos seated near the bosses means you get to hear gossip, you get to know certain things happening earlier than others, you get to polish their boots, you get to SHOW them how hardworking, you get to have best deals for work...... hahahahahahaa.

Seriously, my boss is quite nice. My boss's boss is seated just opposite my boss, which is diagonally opposite me. She can go PMS sometimes, and I am quite staying away from her.

Today, I accomplished finishing 20 contracts in half an hour. Cool rite? My boss was quite happy about things that went about today!

And I am starting to get busy again which is good. Because if I get too free, I get complacent!!!

Today is my mum's birthday!! Happy Birthday to you! Happy Birthday to you! Happy Birthday to MOMMY!!!!! Happy Birthday to you! Lurve you lots!!!!

Yesterday Kenji brought my parents and aunts out for dinner at Beng Hiang. The food was good!!! My family were very happy!!! And I am happy too!!!! Cos i have a good hubby!!!! :)

FROGGER

Think I gonna lurve facebook soooooo much!

Just saw an invitation to ARCADE GAMES by Ryan. My ryan baby I love you soooooo much for inviting me.....

Cos I saw my all time favourite.... FROGGER.

I remember playing this when I was really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really YOUNG. Ok I put x23 of "really" cos I played this around 23 years ago to be exact ok.

Frogger was my cousins' favourite game and at that time, only the rich had computers. And the computers were big and squarish and the images were ugly cos you can see the matrix making out the shapes on the screen.

I was fascinated by the game. They had other games la, but more for the "bigger" children la. I remember them playing "Mission Impossible", "Donkey Kong" (yes, another of my favourite), "Dungeons and Dragons" (All time favourite for them cos its a "guy" game) and not to mention, FROGGER.

Maybe at my age, I was fascinated to see the frog jump across the road and onto the logs and then go home. Maybe my cousins' surgical fingers (they are both doctors now) made the whole controlling of frogger look so easy.

I remember my frog can only go straight and straight and straight. I was so dumb that I cannot move the frog sideways. I had to wait till all traffic was clear before i move my frog straight straight and straight. Hahahahahah..... same for the logs I had to wait till the best chance to jump it on the log..... cannot and dunno how to move left or rite.......

Now facebook has ALL the favourites. I am going to be sooooooo hooked on facebook now.......

Gone with my wings??? I dun think so...

I know I gonna get depressed with my wings gone. Plus I am down with flu and a toothache. Whenever my health is not in top form, my emotions always go haywire and goes on a roller coaster ride. But this time I am quite calm.

Haha. Maybe the antibiotics that I am on have sedatives in them. Maybe I have learnt to take things easy? (Not very convinced).

Funny thing is, I have been learning to accept the way things are now.....

With immediate effect my commission is affected. I dun even need to wait till march. It was a blessing in disguise to let tortilla go. I am sad I had to make such a decision but it was a rite one. Cos if he didnt go, I will have to go (meaning hug him and die together). Hahaha.

Losing my wings is not a big thing. Cos I wasnt born with wings. So i'll need to get adjusted to things now. The simple things in life can also bring happiness. Not neccesary to have luxurious things to be happy..

For example, you can be happy taking a bus ride around and seeing the beautiful creations by God. You can be happy by lazing around at the beach and spending time with the people you love. You can be extremely happy when you get to take a ride in people's car and go to JB!!!

Hahahahaha...... Ok i am proud that i am taking things well.....

I am not gone with my wings. Ah ber is still here and doin well ok.....

In loving memory of Tortilla

It was over jus over the weekend.

My tortilla is gone jus like tat. I didnt even have the chance to say goodbye. Kenji took him away on saturday and Tortilla never came back and is never going to come back.

Farewell Tortilla, my pair of able wings...

The last I saw him was on Thursday. He accompanied me on his final mission, the mission he was initially bought for. He sent me to the swimming complex and waited for me patiently while I finished my class. Both him and I didnt know this was the last time he was going on a mission with me.

Kenji told me that Tortilla refused to start at the workshop. It hurt me to hear that cos I know tortilla must be angry with me. Tortilla doesnt really give me much trouble. I could handle him and I could bear with him whether he could start up or not. There are some parts not good about him. But it wasnt wat he wanted either. He tried his best for me for the past 2 years.

He watched Junior grow. Junior slept inside him. He was there when Terror was bought home. He put up with her pee and barking and scratching. But he will never get to see their kids, or my kids.

Tortilla was there for me when I needed to move from east to west of singapore. He even carried me all the way across the causeway. Even though he was weary and tired, I worked him to the bone and he finally couldn't move anymore in JB. That was the 1st time I left him overseas in a foreign land. But he was brave and able. He waited patiently for me to return the next day to help him. He was there to share my happines together with my family by ferrying us everywhere we wanted to go. He was there when I was angry and hurt and I cried.

But then I let him go. I dun know if the antibiotics were making my brain make bad decisions or my toothache barred me from thinking rite, but I let him go. And I miss him.

Farewell Tortilla. Just wan you to know that you are missed, you will be missed and I do love you. Its just circumstances that made me unable to keep you. Hope you get a good owner who will love you jus as I loved you, or love you even more.

I know I didnt fulfil my part fully. I didnt bathe you as often as the other cars. I dun really keep you clean and shiny and proud to be mine. But I love you no matter if you have 1 inch of dirt over you or whether you are shiny or not. I love you cos you have been a part of me for the past 2 years and you have served me well. Maybe its now time to get someone who can treat you the way you deserve to be treated. Love you lots. Bye Tortilla.

Dilemma at the dentist

Today I visited my dentist for a rumoured horrible procedure on my molar.

Well. I was contemplating to pull it out or save it. Pulling it out means I save a whole lot cos it might cost only $80. But I have no more molar on my left side. Saving it means I need to spend a total of 2months of my time and around $2k+ of my money, which includes a root canal treatment, crowning and a bridge.

Dentist said my tooth can be saved. So I proceeded with the root canal treatment. Just 2 roots to dig out and clean and disinfect and fill. Total damage today $545.70. Hmmmm.......

Next month I gonna spend more on my crowning and bridging. Well. hope its for the better....

I am going to Macau

I am soooooo looking forward to March.


Partly because I will take on my new role, have a new partner (the 1 and only guy in both the temp and permanent teams is MINE now), have a better work life balance, celebrate Jared's birthday most probably in JB DANGA BAY and and and and and AND I AM GOING TO MACAU!!!!!


I am going to stay at the Venetian for 3 nights!!!!! Ok. i know in my previous post I am talking about saving and stuff like tat. But I DUN CARE. Cos the venetian is some place that is 5**** and I will surely feel like a rich gal. Hahahahaha.







And I am going to HK after like 19 years!!!! And not to mention to Zhuhai to ShOp TiLl I dRoP..... YEAH!!!!!

March is a good month.
April not too bad too cos got long weekend.
May got 2 long weekends!!!!!!
June and July is a good time to plan to go cool places
August got long weekend again
September is good cos got nice birthdays I can celebrate
October is kinda boring but its towards the end of the year so it will be great too
November has long weekend too
December, dun mention, its the best month in the whole year!!!!!

Change of role

Remember that I resigned and was rejected (most embarrassing resignation la)?

My company is undergoing an internal restructuring. I have been offered a new role and I have sort of "accepted" it as my bosses have "assigned" me to this new role as they feel that my strengths lie in Service.

I will no longer do recruitment. Meaning, no more calling and talking to strangers, no more people flying your kite, no more late nites waiting for candidates, no more excitement when my candidate gets selected for a position, no more interviews with weird people, no more interview marathon, no more profiling resumes (dun speak too soon), no more PROJECTS (YEAH)

I will be focusing on service delivery. Yup, i'll be a service delivery consultant.

I will be fighting paperwork everyday. Perks are, I get to go home on time, I get to reach home before the sky runs out of light, I get to play more facebook and update my blog more often when I am back, I can slack at home, I can meet up with friends and have my social life back, I can do more housework (yeah, rite...), I can be a couch potato, I can spend more time with Junior and Terror, I can spend more time with Kenji, I can sleep early, I can rest more, I can have more free time.

The downs are..... I have no commission anymore. I have to scrimp and save on my poor meagre basic pay. I might have to sell tortilla away as I cannot afford to have him, I have to think twice when buying expensive things, I have to eat bread and butter and maggie mee, I have to plan my money in smart and wise way.

Actually, its not a bad thing rite? Cos anyway I still have to save rite. Hahahahaha.

And Commission is not the most important thing to me. The most important thing is I am happy with my job. And so far I am happy. :) And yes, paperwork can be lethal too, but I think it is still manageable I hope......

We'll see how things work out..... anyway Ah ber wun starve to death cos I am a jack in many trades. I wun go to the stage where I have to stand at Geylang. Hahahahahhaa..... the most I will be a fishergal..... hahahahahah..... or I shall be a bummer and have free food and lodging at bradel..... Hahahahaha. mummy will be the most happy person on earth I think......

Well, to look on the bright side, I no longer have to rush around like an ant or spider. I no longer have to stare at my phone for SMS from clients or candidates. I no longer have the stress on filling job orders....... I just have to beat time to do keying of the system and paperwork and talking to clients and candidates that are familiar to my company and helping to do service recovery all that. YEAH!!!!! Which is my forte!!!

Well, anywhere I go, 2009 is a good good good year for me!!!

So I am going to PROSPER and BLOOM and HUAT AH..... hahahahahahaah

Happy Valentines Day!!! 2009!!!

Today is Saturday and its Valentine's Day!

Happy Valentines to all my friends whether you are single or coupled or married or divorced. Actually everyday can be valentines if you choose to live it that way.

In fact this afternoon when I went out with Rina she mentioned that she dun feel the mood for valentines..... Hmmmm. I never seem to feel the special mood for valentines..... Last 2 years Yup, I do feel a twinge here and there in my heart.... the excitement of going out together where your boyfriend and you can spend special times together just on this day..... where you should feel pampered and loved and well taken care of.....

Today I still didnt feel the mood up till 2.45pm when Rina and me were discussing about Valentines day.

But I decided that since I dun feel the mood, I should create it for myself. Well you see, I am quite a stubborn and independent gal who takes things into my own hands to make people feel better.

hahha...

So I decided to cook a valentines dinner for kenji. Nothing special cos I do cook for him occassionally... but today I made him his favourites..... bacon, beef steak, ham, eggs, Mash potato, greens for the day, baked beans and I also baked him my 1st cake ever since moving into my house. hahahaha.....

And I actually felt the mood when I was preparing dinner!!!! Hahahahha.

That explains why the food tastes really nice!!

Dun talk too much.... let the pictures speak for themselves...... :)

Looks good rite! Ah ber can cook one ok!!!!!

Dino Terror

Some news to announce.....

Dino Terror just received her 1st ang bao for Niu Year......

She started menstrating on saturday.... Wat a big ang bao for her..... and Junior :).

Just imagine my challenges in bringing her out to bai nian!!!!

She officially turned 9mths today 26 January 2009......

Only 9mths leh.....must look up the web to see if this is normal or has junior been naughty lately...

Happy Niu Year 2009!!!!

Happy New Year to everyone here!!! Happy NIU Year!!!

I sooooo love Chinese New Year cos everyone will be smiling and be full of happiness and smiles and laughter and I feel LOVE everywhere, especially this year when I go bai nian with my hubby and my kids.....

Ox year is a good year for monkeys..... so must make use of this year to work hard and strive ahead!

If I didnt resign, maybe I will be planning a trip with my family to Macau or maybe go with Angie to BKK. :) If I resign, then maybe cannot cos cannot take leave yet rite? Hahaha....

Anyway, anywhere I go, as long as I am surrounded by people who love me and tots of the people I love, happiness will follow.

Take this festive season to be together with your loved ones and friends and let happiness follow you. Dun stress yourself, dun quarrel, dun fight for anything..... just relax and be yourself, be happy.... just take things easy....... give and take..... YEAH.... HUAT AH......

I do not mind working hard now because the results will be at the end of the road.
Even if there are no results, I will not regret cos I have not failed - I have tried my best.
Along the way I have learnt alot and these will follow me all the way till the end......
And I know that the people who love me, will never give up on me. :)
And to all of these people who love me - A Big Thank You to all of YOU......
Especially my family, my hubby, my best friend Rina - Love you lots!!!