Birthday Rants + Work

Been very busy these past 2weeks. And I am confirmed going out of Singapore for my birthday!!! YEAH.... So this year I will celebrate my birthday at one of my favourite places with some of favourite people!!!! YEAH!!!!

I am soooooo looking forward to my birthday!!!

And past 2 weeks I have been working really hard cos I am going to be officially back to my HQ and officially going to have a new job scope and new title.

The day before yesterday I was very happy cos I received my new namecard and I was really delighted and shocked cos I didnt know my boss ordered for me! Then I closed my 1st deal!! Although not very smooth but I was really happy!!! Then I was named tops for having the lowest MC rate (cos my MC was on unpaid so not taken as MC - heehee).....

Then yesterday I closed the 2nd deal (thanks to my other colleague who left the company). My colleague already sent the resumes out but she left already so I just followed up with the company and managed to close the deal. Yeah.... and my new gal starting on friday. So I am very happy!!!

Then yesterday I finally finished booking for my birthday trip!!! Finally I am going overseas!!!! Although I cannot join my aunties at holland or my mum at shanghai, but I am going overseas with my H.U.B.B.Y and my son's Godma!!! YEAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I will miss my son but my son will be well taken care of by his nanny!!!! YEAH!!!!!

Rants

1stly..........Happy belated birthday to Winnie!!

Happy Birthday to you!
Happy Birthday to you!
Happy Birthday to Winnie..
Happy Birthday to you!

Sorry I remembered your birthday on the 12th, but I was really busy so..... I hope its not too late.

2ndly, I am really busy at work, trying to do my 1st placement. I really have no time for other things especially gossip in the office - there are some people who are already so experienced that they have time to bother about other stuff in the office other than work.

I seriously envy them cos I dun seem to have enough time, I stay back almost everyday, trying to finish my work and yet I still cannot finish my work almost everyday.

And sometimes i wonder who really can understand and appreciate me. Cos I feel I am taken for granted for soooooooo many times. I am expected to be understanding yet I am not understood. I am expected to appreciate but am not appreciated. And people have the rite to get angry when I am stating the facts, while i cannot get angry because......... of wat?

There's no one to share with me the feelings, the burdens, the challenges, the joys....etc etc etc.

So bloody hell I have to take in all the shit and everything and maybe challenge myself to see when and how big the explosion will be. Or I could jus call it quits before the end of next month. Maybe its just like tat and people will always be like that, jus like man will always behave like man.

Where is the "we will work together", "we are in this together" - where's the partnership? Where's the assurance that I am not alone?

This is not the ideal life that I wanted and I am freaking unhappy. Why do I have to put up with nonsense. I also dunno.

I had a jab on my BUM

This morn I went to see the doctor. No, its not keng-ing MC. And its not because of mahjong yesterday. Heehee. My foot didn't feel like my own this morn. When I got up from bed, I couldn't stand at all.

I tot maybe it was cold and my foot needed some massage to warm it. So I dragged myself to bathe and used the warm shower to warm it abit. It improved a bit, so i brought junior downstairs for his morn walk.

Then I felt my foot throbbing like the tendon was going to burst. I quickly lifted my foot up to alevate it. The throbbing stopped.

Whenever I put my foot down and when the bood started flowing down to it, my whole heel would throb with pain. And its not that kind of numb throbbing. Every throb is like someone stabbing my back of the foot with knives. Its worse than the after-numb, pins poking effect when your leg is lack of blood flow to it. It felt like knives poking me into the back of the foot.

So since I was stuck in the stupid morn traffic jam on the CTE, I detoured to my family doctor. And yes, I was driving cos I didn't think I would survive to the MRT station. My foot felt better with me sitting down and pushing the accelerator rather than standing and putting my whole body weight on my poor foot (coming to be both feet already).

Talking about my family doctor. He's actually a very nice doctor. But ever since I was using the green company medical card from my company and I only pay $5 co-payment, I could sense the difference.

Today I jus had to ask him why the difference cos he opened the door for the 5 people in front of me and when it was my turn, I had to open the door and hop my way in. And there was this gal in the queue 2 heads behind me and she was on company's card too and she had to open the door herself too. The one directly behind me is private consultation and the doctor opened the door for her!!!

The way he attended to me was not different, but the information he gave me was so much lesser than the previous times when I was on private consultation. So I JUST HAD TO ASK HIM out of curiousity.

He told me he can only prescribe the medicines on the insurer's list and the other more expensive medicine he cannot claim. And he will only be able to claim lesser than certain amounts and there were some admin and other fees to be deducted from his claim AND THE CLAIMS only come back to him in 4-5mths!!!! That is why the treatment is sooooooo different lor.

I told him, if there are any medicines that can make me better, I dun mind buying it under private consultation. I guess he must have known that my condition was quite serious cos its not the 1st time he's treating me for this condition. So he gave me a jab when I asked if there's anything else he could do to help me.

He jabbed me on my BUM. The liquid in the stringe measured 3.5cm on the indicator and the needle was soooooo long and it stung abit when he pushed all the liquid inside me but It didnt hurt as much as me standing on my foot.

I seriously suspected that wat he gave me was a mild sedative and muscle relaxant and pain-killer all into 1 jab. Because now I feel like I am very relaxed and mildly sedated and the pain is gone and I AM SLEEPY and my whole body's muscles are somehow starting a strike cos they feel heavy.

It's starting to feel like a chore to finish my typing of this post. I wonder how long will it be before this effect wear off cos I still need to drive tortilla home. Damn doctor didnt tell me about the effects!!

Ah ber is obviously unhappy

Ah ber is obviously unhappy. How can I be happy when my work station at chai chee is going to be dismantled without informing me? The people here are bitches.

1 month ago, one fine morning, the 2 ladies sharing the same room as me, jus packed up everything and moved over to the other room, without informing me, without notifying me, without a courtesy note. I have been all alone in the room since then.

After that, a few groups of contractors came into my room taking measurements, choosing colours and took down notes.

Then this morn, the contractors came in with the biggest bitch here and told her they will start to dismantle the tables on tues afternoon, jus about the same time when I am back to HQ.

This bitch is so rude. So wat if I am not your staff, so wat if I am not under your fucking payroll. I am more than happy, in fact I am delighted that you are not my boss. Cos you are screwed up from top to bottom. Apparently this bitch does not know wat it means by being KIND, and COURTEOUS or RESPONSIBLE or GRATEFUL. After all that my HQ has helped her, she is turning her head and biting the hand that fed her and bridged her to where she is now.

I dun request or expect that she takes responsibility as someone from the higher-level management to make me feel less alienated, I dun request that she likes me, I dun request that they ask my permission to move or dismantle my things. I dun request she be grateful to me for helping her settle some of the toughest staff issues. But I expect her to have a bit of courtesy to AT LEAST inform me that they are dismantling my table.

SO where do I sit when I come in on thurs? Where can I put my stuff when they renovate the place? Her own girls are sitting comfortably elsewhere, does it mean I have to stay close to the dust and noise from the renovation? Or mingle like one of their staff out there without a proper table to call on my own?

Fucking Bitch.

I tell you, you are really fucked up. Your hubby didnt give you sometimes and your brain becomes screwed up because your bottom is screwed up. I will definately remember you, for your impoliteness, for the stupid things you done and the lack of responsibility as a higher-level management worker. And the way you handle things, I can always and anytime handle it better than you 200%. Always bully stuff, always treat your staff like your servants and slaves and they must listen to you and you dun listen to them. Bias Bitch. Dun be too happy, we see who has the last laugh. Cos obviously I am not the only one here who thinks you are a bitch. Even your own staff thinks you are a bitch. We see who falls in the end..... fucking bitch.

Sorry to be so crude here but all the pent-up frustrations from this place, added on by me feeling so alien here, added on to the coldness of the place (the aircon and the people here), is making me angry. Where did all the humanity go?

People may tell me that for her level, its not easy to do things. I understand company policies and stuff like tat. But at least, show some humanity when you do things, show benevolence when you do things. HR is about helping people, not forcing people to go into a corner. Always give people alternatives and really try to help them, not the other way round. Giving in a bit sometimes will not cause the company to go bust ok. Instead, people will be grateful to you and respect you. If you do good to people, they will remember your kindness, but if you drive them to a corner, they will also remember you. So which way you like people to remember you in? You choose lor.

Flowers, Skies & me

Tot that this morn was a sunny morning, but due to some issues, the "human skies" around me started to turn greyish, and I expect a storm to be brewing. I am seemingly caught in the middle again.

It rained abit already from the skies directly above me and the poor flower next to me got drenched. I was hiding under an umbrella so I didnt get wet. And now the poor flower's face is a little black due to the rain.

The sky above me is still greyish and the flower's face is black. And I am caught in between. HOW? I have no control over the weather you know, all i can try my best to do, is to be sunny and bright and hope that the sky above me will not be greyish or black because of me.

I am also a flower and I hope to grow into a tree someday. I realised that I have thorns on my stem too and I do poke people as well. There are some flowers around me that have thorns on their stem as well and they have poked me, and I also retaliate (actually not retaliate la, jus naturally) and I poked them back too.

A flower needs the soil, the sun, water and lots of love to grow.....

Defu Lane Crabs + Piggy leg

Then on sunday, we went to choose our wedding photos. Took us almost 2 hours. But we were quite street-smart so we knew how to choose and wat to expect. Didnt manage to get "conned" to upgrade the package, except that there are a few pictures of junior that she took really well that the proud parents of Dino Junior cannot resist but to buy them separately.

Brought junior and coco to pet mart and then we went for early dinner as we were all soooooo hungry. Lena brought us to defu lane to eat crabs..... yummy. And you must try the things there with the stock (gravy). The vegetables cooked in stock is soooooo nice, the fried mee sua is nice too, the crabs were wonderful, i still prefer the crab in stock. The butter one I not used to it yet. Maybe must go eat a few more times then will get used to it..... hahahahahaahah.

The crab claw is gigantic lor...... slightly smaller than my hand, and bigger than a nokia phone.

After dinner, I decided to visit the chinese physician at Lor Ah Soo to "tui" my leg. Then doctor said very serious, so end up have to do acupuncture. Its my 1st time doing acupuncture lor. The 1st needle that went in (the one nearest to my ankle) gave me electric currents from the place I was poked all the way to my toes.

Then the 2nd needle at the back of my leg, I can feel the needle go rite into my flesh cos he really pushed the needle into my muscle or tendon or vein lor.

So I ended up like tat for 20mins.

After that cos it still hurt, he poked me another 2 times at different places. The 3rd and 4th needles were quick, but the 4th one nearly killed me cos he poke it rite into the tendon that was inflammed. I screamed lor.....

But after this treatment, my foot was really better. Yesterday I could walk normally lor. But today dunno is it because I drove, my foot started to hurt again...... sigh, must go say hi to the doctor and the needles again I presume.....

The Lone Ranger won

Remember the story about the lone ranger, the guerillas and the defendents?

In the end, after 1 week of war, the lone ranger won. It turned out he was RAMBO. Everyday without fail he would shoot poison darts at me and in turn, I shoot the arrows up the ladder. And the guerillas went into hiding and refused any contact, so the defendents have to come to our own defence and we decided to let Rambo win this war.

I have a feeling that the arrows have not stopped coming and more are yet to come..... I'm just taking a step at a time.....

Rants again...

Yesterday I finally finished packing the display cupboard area, the side sofas area, the dining area and the ktichen area PROPERLY. And although my leg is acting up again, but I am soooooo satisfied and I went to bed with a smile on my face.

I hope they stay this way though..... heehee (fingers crossed).

Today my agenda is to sweep and mop the floors again especially the master room and the living, dining area. And I still need to pack the rubbish in the study room. And fold the clothes in the laundry bag all that..... and paria has class today so maria got to do the work if maria has no class today. If Maria got class today, then too bad, another day then do housework. Heehee....

I'm bit sleepy today cos I ate some medicine for my leg, but i am trying to stay alert cos my boss coming down soon...... and I need to have information on my fingertips.... so i better better wake up my idea....sianz....

Today weather (i mean in the office) not very good, must bring umbrella......

Sianz....

Today's the day where I see sweet smiles and for extreme cases, tempers flare up in the office.

Cos today is salary release day for them.

Early in the morn I saw almost everyone of them giving me a sweet smile as I walked in. And some came early into my office to check and dispute some issues on their pay. Till date, most of them went out of my room smiling cos I managed to solve their doubts and uncertainties..... Only some, cos of some human errors (not my error I seriously hope), they received lesser pay. So some outstanding issues needed to be addressed before they can be happy again.

For me, its only been 4 days since my pay was giro-ed into my bank account but my bank account is almost empty. Haha. Dun ask me why and how..... I guess most of us face the same problem - earn this much and spend even more than wat we earn. Ok. I know of some who have savings and so on and so forth..... I really wan to save, once I settle down and calculate my expenses and I know march's gonna be better..... cos there are some things that I have finished paying for in february so march I should be more cash-rich.... heehee....

I had second tots on keeping tortilla cos he's really eating up my cash alot. Not on repairs, but on the cashcards and parking and petrol and now, insurance and road tax. But I love tortilla too much to sell him. I cannot do without a car I guess - too used to driving..... and he is my wings....

So I decided that I will keep him till he gets too old to move on the road.

My tendon is inflammed

I am fuming mad at this moment. I feel I'm acting in "Just Follow Law" where in the office there are arrows flying here and there and shooting me in the back. One f***ing fellow jus tried to stab me in the back.

This B*****d's staff came to look for me. She is on probation and her MC is still unpaid. She saw the doctor but didnt collect her MC cos she wanted to extend her MC. So she jus asked if no submission of the MC would be affecting her paycheck or anything.

I called up the other HR staff immediately and spoke to her on the phone. She adviced that although the staff's MC was unpaid, it would be preferred that she still submit the documents for validation.

So this is wat I advice her lor.

And that b*****d shoot an email cc all the department heads and everything saying that I AM THE ONE WHO WAIVED her MC. Please lor. F***ing mouth say F***ing things lor. I have never said such things lor. Anyhow put things into my mouth and shoot me dead.

So they think I am a scardy cat rite? I SHOOT them back lor. Now not my issue anymore. But I am boiling mad cos that b*****d is really a bastard lor.

Moreover, I am in pain cos my tendon is inflammed and I cannot move around lor. I am actually on 2 days MC today and tomorow but I came to work cos I have things to be done lor. And this morn the doc already pissed me off. I asked for MC and request for her to write it for tomorrow instead cos I have to come office today. She say how can she write MC for tmr cos she dunno ......blah blah blah.... so I told her, then write me 2 days MC can or not? Cos I told her, my leg not so fast heal one, dun think within next 2 days will be ok..... finally reluctantly, she agreed lor.

And I am not lying about my damn leg wat. It is swollen, even someone who is not a doctor can tell its swollen lor. She even touched the part and agreed that it was inflammed. I even told her the diagnosis cos I had this before. She asked if I sprained my leg or anything. But I dun recall lor. I didnt even wear high heels lor. This was going on for the past 3 days and yesterday I think I strained it further cos I had my photo shoot lor....

Wat a price to pay for vanity lor......

Sat all my furniture and cable and internet came.... so cool to have cable in the house..... I have my favourite channels Zone Reality, Animal Planet, and every channel on cable!!!

And on sun, I went for my photo shoot. I went to the studio at tanjong pagar at 10.30am. And my make up took 1.5hours lor.... and after changing 5 different outfits, it was already 4.30pm. So we rushed outdoors for our photo shoot. Luckily we didnt take the uncle transport cos surely very slow one, instead, we chose to drive. And you know, kenji was the "F1 race driver" so we managed to complete 3 outdoor locations within 1.5hours.

So when the pictures are out, i'll let you know ok......

monday blues

Ah ber is still having the achy bones and muscles thingy. For the past 2 days I cannot turn my head or stretch my neck cos the muscles in my neck and head sooooooo painful.

Today is better, but my muscles and bones are all still aching. Then later I have to lug the heavy lappy back to HQ for training. SIAN AH. Can someone help me? I didnt drive today cos I feel like fainting when I think about how much coupons I need to put for half a day there.

So I took bus to chai chee today. 1st time I'm taking bus from sengkang. I took 62 and many students from my previous Yuying Sec sch came up the bus and i was quite amazed to see them cos its already almost 8am. The uniform is the same except the badge and the nametag is ironed on - so nerdy. Luckily last time in my era, we can go out and make our own nametags and we can take out the badges and nametags after school. heehee.

And the students are still also wearin US masters school shoes lor. Heehee. Last time i used to fight so hard to get 1 pair of US masters cos its the "in" thing that my friends are all wearing. Except now, they are all wearing ankle socks cos the pulling of long socks up is no longer the "in" thing. Heehee.

Then I had to change bus and I didnt really know except 25, which other bus goes to chai chee. I guessed 854 went to, but I only took the 2nd bus cos the 1st bus was quite crowded... and managed to get a seat... can die lor if no seat..... my back can jus break into 2 lor....

Later after work I need to go take my measurements for the bridal gowns and then after that its home sweet home. I wished I could go off at 5pm today (training timing) but I guess i am jus dreaming lor.....

i have monday blues today

I fell asleep at the wheel today!!!!

Ah ber has a 1st time experience today. I fell asleep at the wheel.

I was waiting for the traffic light to turn green at bedok north junction this morn when I decided to close my eyes for a while cos the lids were drooping already. So I jus closed my eyes for a while and I was awaken by horning..... oooops.....

I knew I fell asleep cos my mind went into the sub-conscious mode...... and of cos after I manage to find my gear and shift it to gear 1, I so paiseh and quickly drove off.

Rina said I did too much shopping. Hahaha. I didnt really do a lot of shopping la. I only went daiso and giant. And I only became ahmad to Lena and Jie fu cos his car broke down jus outside her office and I went down to accompany and send them to the workshop and then I drove all of us to vivocity. That's all.

Today I dun have class. But I still need to clean out the kitchen cupboards and the others that I can do. Yesterday kenji and me stayed up till almost 2am. Like tat everyday only about 4 hours sleep is definately not enough rite. Nvm. Sunday morn I shall sleep till the evening ok. Hahahahah.

Yesterday I cooked for the 1st time at Sengkang. Heehee. Kenji was hungry so I cooked maggie noodles. Heehee..... Not very fantastic, but at least the feeling's great. Heehee....

Today's at least not very boring. Cos later I driving back to HQ at Tanjong Pagar for Lou Hei with my company and my colleagues. HUAT ah!!!!

I am sooooooooo bored

I mentioned that I went on another shopping spree yesterday rite. Today I am going on another shopping spree. This time, to either ikea again (YES, I cannot get enough of ikea stuff) or daiso (YEAH).

And I need to get my coolie who worked for me yesterday to go with me again. YES MS LENA TAN, paging for MS LENA TAN to be coolie again today. She is power I tell you. She can carry that 18kg microwave and walk the distance of 2 bus stops you know. She is mad la. But ah ber really need help. Cannot carry too heavy things cos my tummy still on a strike from stomach flu.

I wanted to go IMM today but Jie fu treating LENA for dinner and he's inviting me too. Hahahahahahahaa. I GOT FREE DINNER TONITE. Go vivocity? I surely "Ka" you marche one..... hiak hiak hiak hiak.....

Suddenly I feel like an aunty leh. Hahaahhaaa. Maybe its time to get use to being a housewife. Hahahahah. Nvm, my new maid is coming this week and she can sweep and mop and clean. YEAH. She is from dino-land and her name is Paria.

2 more days is valentine's day. Hiak Hiak Hiak. I gotta buy some nice stuff. Heehee.

MAHJONG SESSION IS STILL ON @ Sengkang this weekend. 2 tables Mahjong, 1 table Ban Luck & 1 table Dai Di. Food and drinks provided.

rants & bullshits....

Its freezing cold in my office. In another half an hour I going back to IP to pass a document over. Then I will go on with my plans for tonite. But for now, I feel like a penguin in the north pole. I am wearing gloves and stuffing my hands into the pockets of my winter jacket but I am still cold. I have already down a bottle full of warm water but it didnt really help. So I went to get hot coffee and at least I feel warm enough to take my hands out of my pockets and type this entry with my gloves still on.....

I hope kenji doesn't turn down the aircon at home to the extent that me and junior freeze to death. Kenji's actually quite excited to bring junior back to our new home. But I dun allow cos its still so dusty and needs LOTS of cleaning. Any marias on loan?

Someone jus jio me to watch Mark Lee and Fann's new movie for CNY. Yeah!!!

And my fortune seems to say that my fortune with dragon is good..... hahahaha..... my boss is a dragon..... hahahahaha..... but i prefer to sit on the back of the horse cos he's steady and he's my hubby..... HH - horsey hubby...... hahahahah....

To me, every year is the same. Maybe bit luckier, maybe bit suayer.... but still, everything is in your hands. If you work hard and try your best, even if things dun work out for you, at least you know you have tried your best. Of cos feel sad and disappointed that things dun work out nicely, but at least you answered to yourself on trying your best.

If things dun work out for you, also cannot be controlled, jus take it easy as part of the whole life thingy lor. If things work out very nicely for you, then IT IS A BONUS dun you think so? Cant always expect life to be a bed of roses rite? Life is always fair. Has its ups and downs.

Remember that when its up, enjoy life to the max so that when it turns down, you know you have experienced good times and cheer up knowing that wat goes up, comes down and vice versa. Life will never be up all the way, or down all the way...... so dun be too arrogant when life is up for you and never be too disheartened when life is down. Be humble. Be nice to people. Be yourself.

I think this year I wan to further my studies. I should go study Philosophy. Hahahahahahah. I got lots of bullshit..... hahahahhahaha...... Only junior doesn't get tired of my bullshit cos he dun understand a single thing I say, except "Let's go" and he'll start jumping up and down in excitement cos he knows it means - WE ARE GOING OUT. I wan to have junior's juniors..... I love junior soooooooo much, i wan his legacy to remain for my lifetime. hahahahahah.

So far I have 3 lengends to my name. 1) Stripey 2) Single horn BUG (deceased) 3) Dino Junior. Still waiting for my rat baby. Hahahahahah. I am seriously considering baby making cos babies are sooooooo adorable. I wan my legend to continue..... generations after generations..... YEAH......

Sloths...

Some people are really really irritating cos when they need something from you they will wan it the soonest, the best is RITE ON THE SPOT. When you need something from them, they drrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrag their own ass slowly for few days and sit on it.

Then when you remind them or chase them, they will JUMP on you asking you why you always chase them. Then you have to advice them that if things not received then cannot proceed, then they will CHALLENGE you or DARE you to stop the processing...... If its really stopped, I dunno how liao. Cos if really stopped processing, then everyone will start to exercise and practise "Tai Ji" and then maybe I will kena lor. Hahahahahaha. Too bad la.

I start to think that these people behave like sloths la - that slow slow mammal that looks like a monkey that hangs on the trees and move Reeeeeeeeeeeeallly slowly..... even when they fall down also slow motion one.... hahahahahahaha. They are really very slow....

On a happier note, today I went shopping again. Yesterday I went shopping too, but the bag I wanted was the last one and another lady took it. So today I went shopping again and I GOT MY BAG. Cos I know they surely will stock up ma, rite or not? And I also got a matching wallet to go with the bag.

Heehee.... I know I have lots of bags and wallets and clothes. But the shopping bug bit me so I HAVE TO BUY la. At least maybe tonite I can sleep better after satisfying my shopping urge. Actually I dun feel so satisfied yet, but nvm la. There are like sooooooo many things I wan to buy too. Hahahahahah. But not yet la. Must wait la...... buy too many things also difficult to keep la.....

So excited..... today so far is a good day and tmr's gonna be a great day too!!!

Good things....

Yesterday I had a bad day at work, but the evening made up for everything.

In the evening I went grocery shopping with my mum (YES, you didnt read wrongly - its MY MUM). She wanted to buy rice so I offered to go with her to carry it. We walked around looking for a nice CNY card for my dad cos he wanted to send it to his friend. Then we walked around the shops and my mum showed me the blouse she had her eye on.

I asked her to go and try it on, and it fitted rather nicely. So I bought the blouse for her for CNY. And I bought an identical one so that we can wear it together on CNY 1st day. Hahahahaha. Hers is bright red while mine, as usual, is bright blue. Hahhahahahah. I actually liked the black one, but I very "pan tang" so I bought bright blue instead.

After tat we went to NTUC and she bought the 10kg rice and since i was with her, she bought soft drinks as well. My dad normally doesn't help her (being the semi-MCP, traditional old patriach, MAN OF THE HOUSE) in grocery shopping cos he sweats very easily and he doesn't like to walk over to the central and get himself all sweaty and hot. Only sometimes he rides his motor and they go grocery shopping elsewhere.

I finally realise that actually tugging 10kg of rice from NTUC and walking back to my place, was not an easy feat. I was telling my mum and dad that it felt like carrying Coco & Junior together!!! I was suddenly full of admiration for my mum. She is not very young, +30years older than me, yet she does her housework like she is in her 20s or 30s. She does everything herself. Only CNY she will ask my dad to help out in the major spring cleaning of the sofas, the doors, the tidying of his rubbish in the hall. I wonder will I ever be like her? Or will my new house be like a piggy sty?

Last time I was really bad at housekeeping. My room would be in such a mess that I cannot see the floor (tat was before Junior came along). And my aunts and brother and mum and dad would comment that even if a robber came along, he wouldn't dare go into my room for fear of booby traps and even if there was a robbery, I wouldn't know what was stolen. And for outsiders, they would think that I have recently been robbed and the robbers were the ones who turned everything upside down in my room looking for loot. Hahahahhaa.

Well, I try to do my part for MY ROOM. Hahaha. And jus try not to spill my things into the living room to make things more troublesome for them. That is why I am packing my stuff into bags and boxes and sending them to sengkang already. Lesser things mean lesser work to pack them.

Yesterday after my grocery shopping, I sat down watching TV with them and then went to pack my room (again - dun you get tired of hearing me say I packing and packing and packing? Well, I am indeed still packing Hahahaha). I only managed to pack 4 bags of clothes and 2 bags of my trophies and wine and liquor.

My cupboard of clothes is still 3/4 FULL. I really dun understand why I have so many clothes? I already packed 4 bags of clothes and my cupboard is still 3/4 FULL. WHY? I also removed 1 bag of clothes for the needy.

I am moving these 6 bags of stuff + 1 trolley full of Ikea items to sengkang TONTIE. YEAH. At least my dreams are moving nearer.....

This morn i was awaken by a phone call from kenji saying he arranged for the painters to go down tomorrow. I was so happy to hear that, that I woke up straight away, and I have been happy since then till now...... heehee......

Later I going to sengkang and move my stuff up (I have a wonderful trolley from my mum - heehee) and then I am going to dismantle the beds and see if I can bring the single one home for my brother - I wun be too ambitious to bring the queen one to bradel. I shall wait for the tambi(s) and ah neh(s) to help me on tat.

YEAH.

But yesterday I still didnt sleep well. I dunno wat I was dreaming of cos I forgot already but they were not very nice dreams la. WAT IS WRONG WITH ME?

BITCHES

Ah ber was fuming mad jus now and hopping around with rage.

I hope to kill the bitches around me. The bitches who think they are cleverer than me, the bitches who think they know more than me, the bitches who think they can step on me, the bitches who stepped on me, the bitches who belittle me, the bitches who are f***ing bitches.

I know why I am not rich. Cos if I am rich I will use money to slap these bitches' faces.
I know why I am not having a high position. Cos if I am their boss I will make them bark like bitches do.
I know why I am not in USA. Cos if I am in USA I would have already KILLED THEM BITCHES (with guns and anything i can lay my hands on).

Jus cos I am nice doesn't mean I can be bullied. Jus cos you are my f***ing client doesn't mean you are always rite. EAT ME? Go eat yourself.

Is there a job where you can be nasty and yet people still love you, maybe even more when you get nastier? Hahahahahaha..... I must be dreaming. Tonite I will dream that I am kicking ur butts and making u all bark and dream that junior is peeing in ur faces.

On a brighter note, I am glad that you are jus the client and not my boss, or else I will resign on the spot. So I am still considered very lucky cos YOU ARE NOT MY BOSS.

I will jus do my work and u can say anything you wan, but I wun bother lor. I will definately be affected, but you are jus a bitch and I wun bother. Hahahahhahha....

I cannot sleep last nite...

Yesterday I couldn't sleep.


I sat in my room on my bed starring at the things still in the cupboards and still on the shelves and still lying around. I was tired, but I cannot sleep. It must be the coffee I drank in the morn and the green tea I drank in the afternoon.

So I lay down in bed hoping I will drift off to sleep. I miss my son, my little black fur ball that is smelly, wet and moves around quite a bit.

I started to visualise the furniture and my stuff around the new house. I tried to move and fit them mentally in my brain. Its really a big headache to move house and all the cleaning and all the arrangements that needed to be done. Packing is no problem, its the unpacking and arranging of stuff that can kill. Cleaning too. I think I hate cleaning up the most. Cos I am lazy. HAhahahaa....

I got frustrated cos I couldn't fit in the furniture without measuring them 1st, then I drifted off to sleep having weird dreams that I was still in office having meetings and talking to my boss and stuff like tat.

So bottomline was, I didnt really rest.

Today I can bring junior home, and maybe bring brandy over. But my room is in a mess!!!! Not liveable for my son and daughter in law. So they have to wait maybe over the weekends then come back la. I only recognise brandy as my daughter in law. Cos I am not really close to niu niu. I am very close to coco and brandy and I love them cos they are my god-daughters. But niu niu looks like very poor thing la. Cos her mummy didnt really visit her over the 1week she was at rina's house.

I better go back and pack my stuff and move them to sengkang 1st, then have more room for junior to run about and chase brandy. Heehee.....

I seriously cannot wait to move in. I seriously AM frustrated that things (including me) are moving so slowly. I am frustrated when my excitement is high, hope is high, then disappointment also high. Arrrrrrrrrrgh!

Rants + ah ber is sick...

Ah ber was on 1 day mc on monday. I woke up stoned cos I took a flu tablet the nite before. I wasn't feeling that sick, but physically I was very tired. My eyes were wide open, but my body jus refused to move at all.

All because of kenji lor. He passed the flu bug to me when he kissed me lor. So I had to go see doctor. And he gave me 5 types of medicine and 1 day MC. So I slept the whole day. I slept for a total of 22 hours on mon. I only woke up to cook my own porriage at 3pm and then I woke up at 9pm to watch the last episode of "Huang Jin Lu" then I KO again till the next morn.

But it was all worth it. Cos sun I went JB with kenji and TFT and I was very happy cos I managed to SHOP..... I bought 3 pairs of shoes (including my wedding shoe as well).

I think the past few days I overslept. That is why these past 2 days I have been waking up very early and taking my own sweet time in dressing up and bringing junior down for his morn walk and going to work really early.

I am waiting for 25th - payday!!! So that I can buy some more things. YEAH!!! And kenji's getting the aircon man to go down today to check out the aircon routing.... so i will have aircon soon...... YEAH....

Credit Card & Loan

I got a little pissed off with an agent from some BANK. I dun wish to mention the bank cos its not the bank's fault but its the agent who did not inform me accordingly.

Last week I got this call from this agent from XX bank, introducing me a package where there are 3 products tied together - 1 personal loan, 1 credit card, 1 funds transfer thingy. It can give me up to 4 times my salary. So I asked bout the annual fee. He said it was free (I cannot remember if he mentioned it was free only for 5 years).

So he kept rambling on the goodness of the product and kept harping on the repayment structure and loan calculations and interest rates and stuff like tat. I lost my cool when he asked about how long my loean tenure will be. I told him, how would I know the tenure now when I am not taking a loan and I dunno how much will be my future loans also, how to tell him to fix a tenure period? I even told him if smaller loans of cos take shorter time to pay, big loans take longer time to pay. He said he needed the info to key into the computer cos he is applying online for my application. So i jus said, put the longest tenure which is 5 years repayment period.

And he had to call me back 3 times cos I cannot decide on the loan tenure and he needed more info from me. I shot him back saying if this kind of credit (assumingly fast credit) thing need to take so long and so many details need to be filled in, then I wun sign up cos its so troublesome. He kept trying to tell me interest rates and loan calculation and repayment rates and everything. I had no time for him seriously cos every call took an average of 15mins.....

So finally i jus told him, put the longest tenure and he did and finalised the whole thing.

Then today I called the XX bank cos I wan to confirm if the annual fee for the credit card was waived. Cos no point paying annual fee for the damn card when you dun use it at all rite? Yup, it was waived for 5 years and to my horror and shock, I realised that wat I signed up was actually A LOAN that is 2 times my salary.

I nearly screamed at the agent but luckily I didnt cos she wasn't the one who created this mess. I immediately cancelled the whole thing cos I didnt know that the things I signed up for, were actually a loan and not the credit and cashline type of things. She told me that once the loan is approved they will send me part of the money. I screamed at her asking her when did I ever say I was taking a loan?

I really dun understand. Why would this bank call people up and offer them a loan when they dun need it? I am angry cos I wasn't properly informed and I am going to shoot a letter in to complain about how they go about doing their business. Jus imagine if I didnt call up and the loan was processed, won't I be incurring interest charges FOR NOTHING? Cos I dun need a loan!!! Why should i pay them interest rates for giving me something that I dun need? Angry rite?

And another best thing - that agent didnt inform me that after the 5th year, the annual fee for the credit card would be charged to my card without informing me. And mind you, the damn annual fee is $180 for that lousy card. I rather go to other banks for credit cards cos at least there are some perks coming along with it.