This week ah ber's mood is quite ok. Busy but I feel good. Stressed but I feel good. This week was a historical week where I completed the sale of my tampines flat and completed the purchase of my sengkang flat.
Yes. I am the proud co-owner of my 5 room sengkang flat together with my darling hubby kenji. Tat nite, as I laid in bed I finally had the feeling that the flat is mine.
With the tampines flat closed, I think I closed another chapter in my life. Mixed emotions inside me about my tampines flat. The most expensive thing I ever owned in my life. $472k. A maisionette which I have never spent a single nite inside before. I used to wonder how would it be to stay inside the maisionette, make it my home, a cosy place I can call home and return to at the end of each day.
Each time I passed the flat on my way to other places. I would excited show and tell to the people along-side of me that I proudly owned a unit there. If I was alone, I would glance upwards where I could see my balcony.
My maisionette has 3 bedrooms upstairs - the master room is huge and all the other bedrooms had built-in cabinets. I have a total of 3 toilets, 2 upstairs and 1 downstairs. There is a small store room upstairs and all rooms are fully aircon. The floors are all parquet, including the staircase.
Downstairs, there's an area for a visitor lounge when they enter. The dining area is huge and you can put a 8 to 10 dining seater. The living area has a balcony and you could put in a garden table and have breakfast there. You could comfortably put in a sofa of quite a good size and still have walking space.
The kitchen is country styled and very well-kept. The service balcony can put 3 washing machines and my laundry as well.
That, was my dream house. Now, it isn't mine anymore. Feels kinda sad to lose something that belonged to you before. But....... if I didnt lose this, I will not have my better one!!!!!
My current house - IT BELONGS TO ME FINALLY.
Situated in Sengkang, it is very near to hougang and serangoon where my friends and family are. It is also 15mins to bradel and a straight road down to bradel.
My living room is really damn huge and there are 2 sofa sets sitting in my living room - 1 is a L-shaped sofa and 1 is a 3+2 seater that is of quite good size. I have a plasma TV that is like 42inches??? I have cable for all my favourite channels (except Zone Reality cos it closed down) and everyday is like movie-day for me when I watch my TV.
I have a balcony that has a 4 seater dining table sitting there where my friends and the gods of gambling gather to play Da Lao Er (Dai Di) and it is also a smoking joint for smokers with a huge ashtray. My plants and hamster also stay in the balcony and there is also a rack of clothes there cos we have too many clothes and cannot squeeze all into our cabinets.
I have 3 bedrooms where 1 is the guest room but currently terror is staying there. It is turned into a mahjong room when the goddesses of mahjong comes over and "Pong" and "Eat" and "Gang" and "Hu" (Win). In tis guest room, our play station is also stationed there and this is the favourite room of my godsons. ahhahahaha.
The next door is the study room where kenji will spend his time fightin the 3 kingdoms and this is also where I use the computer to type this blog post now. Hahahhaaha. My lappy is outside in the living room and I will fight my warcraft or control my SIMS outside with 1 eye on the TV. :)
My master room is my favourite room in the whole house cos I SLEEP there. Hahahhaha. Junior sleeps on the master bed with me and daddy.
All my rooms are parquet floored and I find it not very dog friendly.
The best part of the house is my kitchen cos I normally put my heart and soul there cooking for my friends and family. My laundry is done there too cos my kitchen is quite big too. i am going to install a bath-tub in my common toilet and spa there everyday. Bath-tub is here but I am waiting for the renovations to the toilet to be done and also the installation of a new storage heater cos I think the current electrical heater cannot tahan the usage.
My storeroom is also very big and I have a queen and single mattress in there and a huge 3 layer rack and a comote and some other things such as the spa machine and the aromatherapy oils and The kids' pram and other things and I can still walk around there - see how HUGE it is.
Ok, enough of my bragging. Let me brag abit la cos I am so happy ma....... Sorry la. :)
Think the happiest is junior and terror cos they can run around the whole house like mad..... :) And I chase them around the house during play time - I think I am mad too. hahahahahaha....
Saturday, September 27, 2008
Saturday, August 30, 2008
Ah ber is feeling down
I think the current working people have lots of stress. Besides being stressed by work, they get stressed when they do not have enought time with their loved ones, they neglect the kids due to work, they work and yet do not earn enough.
To me, work life kills all joy. It killed my joy in having evenings when I see the sun set. Everyday before the sun rises here I wake up to darkness. While on my way to work, it slowly rises to light the day. I can see the skies from my window just beside me in the office, but how often do I actually look at the sky?
I leave the office often without the chance to see the sun setting. I leave the office in darkness as the sun has long gone down and the creepy night comes along. It seemed that I married my job rather than Kenji.
Juggling work is not easy. But after work I need to do housework, I need to wash the clothes, I need to sweep and mop the floor and wash the toilets and kitchen and other things. I need to tend to the kids too - clean them, feed them.
Then I can have some time with the TV watching shows for about 1 hour before I cave in to exhaustion at 12plus everyday. The whole cycle repeats itself everyday from mon to fri and I am lack of sleep, I am starting to feel the stress and I am frustrated with my life.
Besides this, I have sooooooo many bills to pay that I am on the verge of screaming. Wat in the hell am I working so hard for? To pay bills?
From a simple life, I have to re-focus on being sales-driven and fight hard for my commission. I have to find the energy that was used to be in me years back. I wonder where it went.
I sat down today and went thru all my unhappiness. And I realised a few things - could be I am not contented and wanted more and that is why I am unhappy. Could be I am not feeling appreciated, feeling taken for granted for by lots of people including JUNIOR and TERROR. I love my kids, I love my hubby, I love my friends, I love my family.
I think I just needed simple things like a smile, a hug to cheer me up. I also need retail therapy. I need time alone to touch base with myself. I refuse to think that age is catching up with me and I needed change. I am still me, maybe slightly older, but still useful and workable and the old me is still here. I think i just needed to take things easy as certain things are not easy to change as it is.
M&M here I come. Coke here I come.
I think I need a list of my favourites and whenever I feel down I will pull out the list and pick my choice. Heehee.....
To me, work life kills all joy. It killed my joy in having evenings when I see the sun set. Everyday before the sun rises here I wake up to darkness. While on my way to work, it slowly rises to light the day. I can see the skies from my window just beside me in the office, but how often do I actually look at the sky?
I leave the office often without the chance to see the sun setting. I leave the office in darkness as the sun has long gone down and the creepy night comes along. It seemed that I married my job rather than Kenji.
Juggling work is not easy. But after work I need to do housework, I need to wash the clothes, I need to sweep and mop the floor and wash the toilets and kitchen and other things. I need to tend to the kids too - clean them, feed them.
Then I can have some time with the TV watching shows for about 1 hour before I cave in to exhaustion at 12plus everyday. The whole cycle repeats itself everyday from mon to fri and I am lack of sleep, I am starting to feel the stress and I am frustrated with my life.
Besides this, I have sooooooo many bills to pay that I am on the verge of screaming. Wat in the hell am I working so hard for? To pay bills?
From a simple life, I have to re-focus on being sales-driven and fight hard for my commission. I have to find the energy that was used to be in me years back. I wonder where it went.
I sat down today and went thru all my unhappiness. And I realised a few things - could be I am not contented and wanted more and that is why I am unhappy. Could be I am not feeling appreciated, feeling taken for granted for by lots of people including JUNIOR and TERROR. I love my kids, I love my hubby, I love my friends, I love my family.
I think I just needed simple things like a smile, a hug to cheer me up. I also need retail therapy. I need time alone to touch base with myself. I refuse to think that age is catching up with me and I needed change. I am still me, maybe slightly older, but still useful and workable and the old me is still here. I think i just needed to take things easy as certain things are not easy to change as it is.
M&M here I come. Coke here I come.
I think I need a list of my favourites and whenever I feel down I will pull out the list and pick my choice. Heehee.....
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
Going to tioman!!!
I am soooooo looking forward to this weekend and next weekend.
This weekend I am going to re-do my outward bound together with the Team Fat Tigers. 2 weeks ago we went to try the outbound course but i only did the 1st course as it was threatening to rain and we had to stop.
Really really hope that this sun it will not rain and not too sunny as well.
So excited wan to do the climbing of tree and swinging and flying fox across the resevoir. Yeah!!!
Next weekend is going to be FANTASTIC too. I am finally going to some place that I have been yearning to go for the last 7 years. Last time I wanted sooooooo badly to go to tioman but no one wanted to go with me or no time to go. But next weekend I am going to go tioman!!!! YEAH!!!!
And I am going with my crazy part of the family Mummy Rina, D, Jakes, Michelle, Jared, Damon and Ryan. So we surely gonna have crazy fun over the weekend!!!! Going fishing, going snorkelling, going to try diving, going to trek to find the waterfall, going shopping, going island hoppping, going picnic, going suntan to get back my nice nice inner chocolate colour......
So i am actually in holiday mood already.
So exciting lor!!!!
This weekend I am going to re-do my outward bound together with the Team Fat Tigers. 2 weeks ago we went to try the outbound course but i only did the 1st course as it was threatening to rain and we had to stop.
Really really hope that this sun it will not rain and not too sunny as well.
So excited wan to do the climbing of tree and swinging and flying fox across the resevoir. Yeah!!!
Next weekend is going to be FANTASTIC too. I am finally going to some place that I have been yearning to go for the last 7 years. Last time I wanted sooooooo badly to go to tioman but no one wanted to go with me or no time to go. But next weekend I am going to go tioman!!!! YEAH!!!!
And I am going with my crazy part of the family Mummy Rina, D, Jakes, Michelle, Jared, Damon and Ryan. So we surely gonna have crazy fun over the weekend!!!! Going fishing, going snorkelling, going to try diving, going to trek to find the waterfall, going shopping, going island hoppping, going picnic, going suntan to get back my nice nice inner chocolate colour......
So i am actually in holiday mood already.
So exciting lor!!!!
Junior's 3rd birthday
Celebrated my baby boy Junior's birthday yesterday. Oops. he is no longer a baby!! He is already 3 years in dog years and 21 years in human years.
Brought Deedee, toto and rusty to celebrate his birthday but his darling brandy and coco didnt come cos their mummy couldn't get a cab that is willing to pick the dogs. Terror for the 1st time saw so many dogs coming into her territory that she started howling and barking like mad cos she felt threatened.
And luckily rusty didnt kill terror or junior. Hahahahahaa.....
Sunday I brought the kids to the championship show. Next year I would like to enrol junior for the purebreed championship event cos he is like a royalty - tat is provided junior you dun grow above 3kg and look fat and ugly! ahahahahaha.
Terror brought on lots of squeals "she's so CCCCCCuuuuuutttttteeeee!!!!" "She's sooooooo Smmmmmmmallllllll!!!!!!" Hahahahahaha. So proud mummy ah ber. Terror's actually very pretty and sweet and if you look at her in the sunshine you can see her face and eyes and nose and mouth properly. If you look at her in the dark you might have problems seeing her la....
I love my boy and girl!!!!
Brought Deedee, toto and rusty to celebrate his birthday but his darling brandy and coco didnt come cos their mummy couldn't get a cab that is willing to pick the dogs. Terror for the 1st time saw so many dogs coming into her territory that she started howling and barking like mad cos she felt threatened.
And luckily rusty didnt kill terror or junior. Hahahahahaa.....
Sunday I brought the kids to the championship show. Next year I would like to enrol junior for the purebreed championship event cos he is like a royalty - tat is provided junior you dun grow above 3kg and look fat and ugly! ahahahahaha.
Terror brought on lots of squeals "she's so CCCCCCuuuuuutttttteeeee!!!!" "She's sooooooo Smmmmmmmallllllll!!!!!!" Hahahahahaha. So proud mummy ah ber. Terror's actually very pretty and sweet and if you look at her in the sunshine you can see her face and eyes and nose and mouth properly. If you look at her in the dark you might have problems seeing her la....
I love my boy and girl!!!!
"Xiao Ren"
Today wasn't a very good and smooth day for me.
Well. Life's like tat. Think as long as you do try your best and live health and proper, its the best you can get. Just try my best.
A fortune teller used to tell me that in my life, there will be "xiao ren" meaning there will be people in my life who will irritate the hell out of me and harm me. Last time, I refused to believe it as the only time i was upset was with friendship and I tot my friends were my "xiao ren".
Now I know that the people around me, the people who LOVE me, are not my "xiao ren". How can they be "xiao ren" when they love me and care for me? I realise now that the "xiao ren" that was supposed to be in my life, appeared in my career. Not my colleagues and boss, but the clients and candidates that come through me.
I am not racist but I curse that indian bitch who goes behind my back and stab a few knives in my back. No wonder you are fat and ugly and have a long tongue that you cannot keep inside your mouth properly. She's the fattest bitch I ever seen. I seriously think she is 150KG. And if it was 10 years back, ah ber would have boiled you in bleach and turn you white colour. And God forgive me for cursing you cos you are one of his own and you behave like the devil.
Some people wan to have certain level of authority in their lives and wan to have certain say in their work. Fuck off la. You dun control me and I dun owe you.
This indian bitch tries to poach all my girls who are at the client's place and keep asking if they like to be handled by agency or by her. Who wan to be handled by you as your management skills SUCKS big time. And dun need to try ways and means to get to me and try to save your big fat ass from trouble cos I KNOW EVERYTHING YOU HAVE DONE behind my back.
When people stick to you, you know its because they are loyal and they like you because you are true to them. Since that doesn't happen - go reflect on yourself why people dun like you. Even if people PRETEND to like you is because you are the SUPERVISOR, not because they would like to forge a friendship with you.
I am trying not to step on your tail cos you are half the client (cos you dun make the big decisions). So dun step on my tail cos if you do, you are in deep shit. I dun retaliate doesnt mean I am a coward.
It just means tat I cannot be bothered to kick your fat ass cos I am lazy.
Tomorrow will be another fine day for me I hope. Stay away. Stay Far Away bitch.
Well. Life's like tat. Think as long as you do try your best and live health and proper, its the best you can get. Just try my best.
A fortune teller used to tell me that in my life, there will be "xiao ren" meaning there will be people in my life who will irritate the hell out of me and harm me. Last time, I refused to believe it as the only time i was upset was with friendship and I tot my friends were my "xiao ren".
Now I know that the people around me, the people who LOVE me, are not my "xiao ren". How can they be "xiao ren" when they love me and care for me? I realise now that the "xiao ren" that was supposed to be in my life, appeared in my career. Not my colleagues and boss, but the clients and candidates that come through me.
I am not racist but I curse that indian bitch who goes behind my back and stab a few knives in my back. No wonder you are fat and ugly and have a long tongue that you cannot keep inside your mouth properly. She's the fattest bitch I ever seen. I seriously think she is 150KG. And if it was 10 years back, ah ber would have boiled you in bleach and turn you white colour. And God forgive me for cursing you cos you are one of his own and you behave like the devil.
Some people wan to have certain level of authority in their lives and wan to have certain say in their work. Fuck off la. You dun control me and I dun owe you.
This indian bitch tries to poach all my girls who are at the client's place and keep asking if they like to be handled by agency or by her. Who wan to be handled by you as your management skills SUCKS big time. And dun need to try ways and means to get to me and try to save your big fat ass from trouble cos I KNOW EVERYTHING YOU HAVE DONE behind my back.
When people stick to you, you know its because they are loyal and they like you because you are true to them. Since that doesn't happen - go reflect on yourself why people dun like you. Even if people PRETEND to like you is because you are the SUPERVISOR, not because they would like to forge a friendship with you.
I am trying not to step on your tail cos you are half the client (cos you dun make the big decisions). So dun step on my tail cos if you do, you are in deep shit. I dun retaliate doesnt mean I am a coward.
It just means tat I cannot be bothered to kick your fat ass cos I am lazy.
Tomorrow will be another fine day for me I hope. Stay away. Stay Far Away bitch.
Sunday, July 27, 2008
Bad week & very bad weekend
The past week has been a roller coaster for me.
And this weekend is a nightmare for me.
I'm angry and pissed over somethings that I heard that I shouldn't have heard because it really upset me. All over a project that I have really worked hard at. I have heard nasty things and I feel really upset over these people's doings and the things they have said. May God punish these people for the things they have said and May God punish me for things that I might have said too.
I dunno who to talk to regarding these things. I tried telling people around me that I am really stressed at work. But no one understands. Everyone is asking me "Are you sure?" "Think Carefully." "Dun make a wrong decision". And 1 idiot was even telling me I was a job hopper. Do I fucking look like a job hopper to you? I'm in this bloody job for coming 8 months and I am NO job hopper idiot!!! Some people around me just kept quiet. Although I appreciate that you leave me to make my own decisions but at least show me some sympathy can or not? At least acknowledge that I AM TALKING TO YOU.
I am stressed cos I'm totally new to this industry and I dun have much knowledge and proper guidiance. I was almost on my own when I entered this industry, away from the office in some cold and far away place. Not all people have been kind to me, but of cos there are a few that are really nice to me. Of cos I survived cos I am a survivor. But doesn't mean I should stick to this place when I am so stressed and upset.
Yes I love the job but I dun like the work - Hahahahaha.
No one can offer me solutions because they are not capable of doing so.
i am thinking of throwing in the towel, but I have made some friends along the way and I would still like to work with them and be friends. And the stubborn taurus is finally coming out - I am going to try and try and try and try and never say die till the end. We'll see who has the last laugh - I bet I'll have it (cos if you win, I jus laugh at my own stupidness Hahahahaha).
You know when you are depressed, certain previous memories and certains roads you have travelled, certain people you have came across, will come into your mind. I realise that the mind is a very dangerous yet wonderful thing.
It can capture all the beautiful memories, the worst pains remembered when your heart broke - really wonderful. And when I am down and out, I remember these things, these times, these people. Goes to show how deep I either love or hate these things, these times, these people. So I told myself to keep the bad memories out so that I will not be depressed further. And I am indeed feeling better.
I guess I cannot control wat people say, do or think. As long as I control wat I do, say or think, I will be fine. Dont need to be too bothered by people who wan to hurt me. Cos there are many people waiting to love me. Junior is one of them who is now sitting down by my side and looking at me with lots of concern in his eyes. Daddy is sleeping but Junior doesn't wan to sleep cos he senses that mummy is not feeling too good. Where can I find another simple, innocent happiness like this? Where else can I find someone better than Junior who only knows how to love me and not hurt me or not love me? Junior always love me no matter wat. Same there as God. I know.
So God, please send me a miracle. Thank you.
And this weekend is a nightmare for me.
I'm angry and pissed over somethings that I heard that I shouldn't have heard because it really upset me. All over a project that I have really worked hard at. I have heard nasty things and I feel really upset over these people's doings and the things they have said. May God punish these people for the things they have said and May God punish me for things that I might have said too.
I dunno who to talk to regarding these things. I tried telling people around me that I am really stressed at work. But no one understands. Everyone is asking me "Are you sure?" "Think Carefully." "Dun make a wrong decision". And 1 idiot was even telling me I was a job hopper. Do I fucking look like a job hopper to you? I'm in this bloody job for coming 8 months and I am NO job hopper idiot!!! Some people around me just kept quiet. Although I appreciate that you leave me to make my own decisions but at least show me some sympathy can or not? At least acknowledge that I AM TALKING TO YOU.
I am stressed cos I'm totally new to this industry and I dun have much knowledge and proper guidiance. I was almost on my own when I entered this industry, away from the office in some cold and far away place. Not all people have been kind to me, but of cos there are a few that are really nice to me. Of cos I survived cos I am a survivor. But doesn't mean I should stick to this place when I am so stressed and upset.
Yes I love the job but I dun like the work - Hahahahaha.
No one can offer me solutions because they are not capable of doing so.
i am thinking of throwing in the towel, but I have made some friends along the way and I would still like to work with them and be friends. And the stubborn taurus is finally coming out - I am going to try and try and try and try and never say die till the end. We'll see who has the last laugh - I bet I'll have it (cos if you win, I jus laugh at my own stupidness Hahahahaha).
You know when you are depressed, certain previous memories and certains roads you have travelled, certain people you have came across, will come into your mind. I realise that the mind is a very dangerous yet wonderful thing.
It can capture all the beautiful memories, the worst pains remembered when your heart broke - really wonderful. And when I am down and out, I remember these things, these times, these people. Goes to show how deep I either love or hate these things, these times, these people. So I told myself to keep the bad memories out so that I will not be depressed further. And I am indeed feeling better.
I guess I cannot control wat people say, do or think. As long as I control wat I do, say or think, I will be fine. Dont need to be too bothered by people who wan to hurt me. Cos there are many people waiting to love me. Junior is one of them who is now sitting down by my side and looking at me with lots of concern in his eyes. Daddy is sleeping but Junior doesn't wan to sleep cos he senses that mummy is not feeling too good. Where can I find another simple, innocent happiness like this? Where else can I find someone better than Junior who only knows how to love me and not hurt me or not love me? Junior always love me no matter wat. Same there as God. I know.
So God, please send me a miracle. Thank you.
Monday, July 21, 2008
PMS
"The higher your expectations, the more you get disappointed".
Humans are all the same. We all expect more even when we have the basics - we can never be contented. When we see other people having the same things, we still think that theirs is better. Comparing will never end and the greed compelling you to compare and want more, will only drive you crazy.
For the past 2 weeks, I am down with PMS + depression due to work. Feel that I simply do not want to wake up to go to work. Feel that simply not enough time to finish my work. Feel that I cannot breathe when I wake up.
I get depressed thinking its sunday because the next day I have to work. I get blue thinking that its friday cos monday is around the corner. I didnt know that recruitment has sooooooo much paperwork and data entry to be done. i also didnt know that I have to make sooooooo many calls and incur so much expenses in my enthusiasm to perform better.
I look at my house and the mess (not really a big mess) and I get stressed cos I simply am too depressed to do housework.
Then Rina came to visit me on friday. The thought of someone caring and bothering about me, made me feel better immediately. Sat came and went, and I managed to lift my depression a little and tidied the hall. Now I am proud of my hall.
I am also able to get outdoors and do some shopping today. And I bought a new jacket for myself that I tot was quite nice. And my depression diminished. I am in fact looking forward to face the challenges tomorrow at work and cross my fingers and hope that I get lucky and things go well. I hope no one sms me in the morning and tell me they are on MC or else my spider legs have to come out again.
You see. I am doing outsourcing and for outsourcing terms, there is a need to have someone there under contractual terms, so when someone is on MC, I HAVE to get a replacement within 2 hours if not I will get a penalty.
There are some people out there who are really irresponsible. They promise to turn up and yet they report sick. For those who report sick last min, they are already 50% responsible when they INFORM you. I have candidates who DO NOT TURN UP AT ALL. And there's no sms or call from them at all and after a few days, they claim to have misunderstood or fell TOO SICK to inform you.
Seriously I get really pissed off with these irresponsible people. They promised and they broke their promise. And I will seriously consider ever using them again. I do give 2nd chances. But when I keep giving them chances and giving them opportunities, I feel like a beggar when I keep asking them and reminding them to turn up.
So I decided not to ask anymore. I am no beggar. Things work 2 ways. I help you and you help me. If you are not going to help me, I am not going to ask you to do so. There are many people out there who can do the job besides you. At any time I can go into the job and stand in for you. Then why is there a need for you anymore?
These people need to learn to be responsible. They need to know that they have made a promise and they should fulfil it.
The past 2 weeks are a difficult time for me. I tried my best to be as routine as possible and try to focus on stuff but its difficult. At least certain things keep me going - my babies and my god daughter Deedee, godsons ToTo and Rusty. Seeing their innocent faces and loving licks makes me feel better at night, no matter wat challenges I face in the day.
Although i have been going over to their place to feed and clean them up all by myself almost everyday, all thanks to Alan boi and the gang who do try to clean up and bathe the furkids weekly / or at least once every 2 weeks.
And I decided to try to sleep by 11pm everyday cos I know my depression also stems from lack of sleep. Heehee. And I think my period's due today or within the next couple of days so I should be able to get off chocolate soon!!!!! YEAH.
Hope everything will get better tomorrow. Good nite.
Humans are all the same. We all expect more even when we have the basics - we can never be contented. When we see other people having the same things, we still think that theirs is better. Comparing will never end and the greed compelling you to compare and want more, will only drive you crazy.
For the past 2 weeks, I am down with PMS + depression due to work. Feel that I simply do not want to wake up to go to work. Feel that simply not enough time to finish my work. Feel that I cannot breathe when I wake up.
I get depressed thinking its sunday because the next day I have to work. I get blue thinking that its friday cos monday is around the corner. I didnt know that recruitment has sooooooo much paperwork and data entry to be done. i also didnt know that I have to make sooooooo many calls and incur so much expenses in my enthusiasm to perform better.
I look at my house and the mess (not really a big mess) and I get stressed cos I simply am too depressed to do housework.
Then Rina came to visit me on friday. The thought of someone caring and bothering about me, made me feel better immediately. Sat came and went, and I managed to lift my depression a little and tidied the hall. Now I am proud of my hall.
I am also able to get outdoors and do some shopping today. And I bought a new jacket for myself that I tot was quite nice. And my depression diminished. I am in fact looking forward to face the challenges tomorrow at work and cross my fingers and hope that I get lucky and things go well. I hope no one sms me in the morning and tell me they are on MC or else my spider legs have to come out again.
You see. I am doing outsourcing and for outsourcing terms, there is a need to have someone there under contractual terms, so when someone is on MC, I HAVE to get a replacement within 2 hours if not I will get a penalty.
There are some people out there who are really irresponsible. They promise to turn up and yet they report sick. For those who report sick last min, they are already 50% responsible when they INFORM you. I have candidates who DO NOT TURN UP AT ALL. And there's no sms or call from them at all and after a few days, they claim to have misunderstood or fell TOO SICK to inform you.
Seriously I get really pissed off with these irresponsible people. They promised and they broke their promise. And I will seriously consider ever using them again. I do give 2nd chances. But when I keep giving them chances and giving them opportunities, I feel like a beggar when I keep asking them and reminding them to turn up.
So I decided not to ask anymore. I am no beggar. Things work 2 ways. I help you and you help me. If you are not going to help me, I am not going to ask you to do so. There are many people out there who can do the job besides you. At any time I can go into the job and stand in for you. Then why is there a need for you anymore?
These people need to learn to be responsible. They need to know that they have made a promise and they should fulfil it.
The past 2 weeks are a difficult time for me. I tried my best to be as routine as possible and try to focus on stuff but its difficult. At least certain things keep me going - my babies and my god daughter Deedee, godsons ToTo and Rusty. Seeing their innocent faces and loving licks makes me feel better at night, no matter wat challenges I face in the day.
Although i have been going over to their place to feed and clean them up all by myself almost everyday, all thanks to Alan boi and the gang who do try to clean up and bathe the furkids weekly / or at least once every 2 weeks.
And I decided to try to sleep by 11pm everyday cos I know my depression also stems from lack of sleep. Heehee. And I think my period's due today or within the next couple of days so I should be able to get off chocolate soon!!!!! YEAH.
Hope everything will get better tomorrow. Good nite.
Monday, July 14, 2008
My baby gal had a fall yesterday
Yesterday My baby gal had a fall from the bed. I was changing her when she rolled off the bed. Luckily she is ok, except there was a slight limp in her but now its gone when I massaged her both legs. She didnt even cry or anything. She is really a TERROR.
Only 2 months + and she behaves like she's mad. Wonder how will she be when she grows up.
Junior cannot stand her cos he's jealous.
Well boy, you gotta get used to it.
Me also sprained my rite knee tendon (not due to the cycling ok - I already felt a pull before I went cycling yesterday) and today was supposed to be on MC but rushed to work cos 1 of my projects got problem. Sian. MC also cannot rest properly.
Dun have time and energy to blog. Cos always so tired after work and either busy with Warcraft or cable or housework or my 2 kids or sleep.
Will try to keep the spiders from coming by to spin cobwebs again. Shoo spideys....
Only 2 months + and she behaves like she's mad. Wonder how will she be when she grows up.
Junior cannot stand her cos he's jealous.
Well boy, you gotta get used to it.
Me also sprained my rite knee tendon (not due to the cycling ok - I already felt a pull before I went cycling yesterday) and today was supposed to be on MC but rushed to work cos 1 of my projects got problem. Sian. MC also cannot rest properly.
Dun have time and energy to blog. Cos always so tired after work and either busy with Warcraft or cable or housework or my 2 kids or sleep.
Will try to keep the spiders from coming by to spin cobwebs again. Shoo spideys....
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
WAKE UP PEOPLE
Being a recruitment agent, I have interviewed many youngsters for holiday jobs and have come across many school leavers without a proper education cert. I wonder why these people dun bother about education anymore.
Is it because their parents have been too nice to them and these people's mindsets are they can always and forever depend on their parents or get a rich husband or wife to marry and have a comfortable life?
These people who dun study properly and get a proper basic cert ('N', 'O', ITE, Diploma...etc) will find it difficult to get a proper job in life and move forward in life!!
Your parents have high hopes for you when they gave you life. They nurtured you, fed you, made sure you grow well, gave you knowledge, supported you, bought the things you liked for you - THEY LOVE YOU! Do you know you are being very selfish by not studying hard, by not being fillial to them, by not being able to support them in future when they have given you almost everything that is the best for you!!
Friends may be important and they may influence your life and you really like to hang around with them, but when trouble comes, who stick with you? Who offer you advice? Who help you settle things? Who still love you no matter wat happens? YOUR PARENTS!!
And if you are between 15 to 20, your parents are not getting any younger. They would have slogged their youth away just to support you, just to buy you that toy you badly wanted, or that Play Station or PSP or MP4 player that you really wanted. Things that they dun even bear to own themselves - yet they try their best to provide for you.
So isn't it rite that you study hard and try your best for their sake? I am fed up with looking at resumes that state "Sec 4 - Not completed", "Secondary 3 Education". Its not that I am anti these people, just that the society out there requires certification - NOT ME.
I am just anti these people who break their parents' hearts because they are selfish and are so centre-minded that they focus only on their own difficulties and cannot see how much effort, tears, heartache, money, hope and LOVE that their parents put int for them since they came into this world.
To these people, I say, WAKE UP. Work hard now and you will not suffer later in life. Its better to suffer now a bit and study for a couple of years more rather than to suffer the next 20-40years working like a cow and paid peanuts. And worse still, your parents suffer with you as they get old and you are unable to provide for them properly. So you better wake up now and start somewhere in life.
Is it because their parents have been too nice to them and these people's mindsets are they can always and forever depend on their parents or get a rich husband or wife to marry and have a comfortable life?
These people who dun study properly and get a proper basic cert ('N', 'O', ITE, Diploma...etc) will find it difficult to get a proper job in life and move forward in life!!
Your parents have high hopes for you when they gave you life. They nurtured you, fed you, made sure you grow well, gave you knowledge, supported you, bought the things you liked for you - THEY LOVE YOU! Do you know you are being very selfish by not studying hard, by not being fillial to them, by not being able to support them in future when they have given you almost everything that is the best for you!!
Friends may be important and they may influence your life and you really like to hang around with them, but when trouble comes, who stick with you? Who offer you advice? Who help you settle things? Who still love you no matter wat happens? YOUR PARENTS!!
And if you are between 15 to 20, your parents are not getting any younger. They would have slogged their youth away just to support you, just to buy you that toy you badly wanted, or that Play Station or PSP or MP4 player that you really wanted. Things that they dun even bear to own themselves - yet they try their best to provide for you.
So isn't it rite that you study hard and try your best for their sake? I am fed up with looking at resumes that state "Sec 4 - Not completed", "Secondary 3 Education". Its not that I am anti these people, just that the society out there requires certification - NOT ME.
I am just anti these people who break their parents' hearts because they are selfish and are so centre-minded that they focus only on their own difficulties and cannot see how much effort, tears, heartache, money, hope and LOVE that their parents put int for them since they came into this world.
To these people, I say, WAKE UP. Work hard now and you will not suffer later in life. Its better to suffer now a bit and study for a couple of years more rather than to suffer the next 20-40years working like a cow and paid peanuts. And worse still, your parents suffer with you as they get old and you are unable to provide for them properly. So you better wake up now and start somewhere in life.
Sunday, June 29, 2008
And Ah ber is back!!!
And Ah ber is back!!!
I am now Mrs Kenji Lim, and enjoying every moment with my darling Kenji and our son and our daughter who is due to come home next week. Just saw my baby gal at the nursery and her hair's still patchy but her eyes were telling me that she is mine and she wants to come home with me. But baby gal, hang in there, mummy's gonna bring you back next sunday alrite?
I know my blog has lotsa spider webs since 02 May 2008. But got so many things to do so didnt update my blog. And I thank my dearest friends who still look into here to find out how Ah ber's doing.
Nope, I wasn't dead or anything. And I wasn't putting all my time into making a baby and my internet access and electricity wasn't cut or anything. My computer didn't crash. I AM JUST VERY LAZY. Hahahahahhaa.......
My wedding was fabulous!!! All thanks to the Team Fat Tigers (TFT), my dearest Lena, Cadrina, Jesslyn, Anna and all my friends who attended our 80 tables wedding dinner. Thank you very much to all the people who attended the wedding, all the people who helped out to make things smooth, all the people who took great care of me before, during and after the wedding, all the people who cared and blessed us, all the people who LOVE me yet had to see me give my love to Kenji instead of you (hiak hiak hiak) - a BIG BIG THANK YOU to all of you!!!
SOrry ah, Ah ber had a hangover ........ till now. Joking la. More than 1 month liao still hangover really no standard la. My colleagues said I was mad - I was drinking like a fountain. Hahaha. It was my big day ma. Everyone must be happy. I am the host so I had to go around toasting everyone. I still think about the whole event and it never fails to make me smile!!! :)
I am still in honeymoon mood heehee. Hope this honeymoon mood will remain till long long. Hahahaha. And I am not drunk when I am writing this post. It was really terrible being drunk!!! I was puking red wine and Gordon Bleu and Martell.
But everything was worth my hangover. Because I was the most beautiful person on earth that wonderful nite. And the most "幸福" person on earth from then till now.
Stay tuned for the next post cos I will be putting up photos. Heehee...... hope wun have spiders anymore.....
I am now Mrs Kenji Lim, and enjoying every moment with my darling Kenji and our son and our daughter who is due to come home next week. Just saw my baby gal at the nursery and her hair's still patchy but her eyes were telling me that she is mine and she wants to come home with me. But baby gal, hang in there, mummy's gonna bring you back next sunday alrite?
I know my blog has lotsa spider webs since 02 May 2008. But got so many things to do so didnt update my blog. And I thank my dearest friends who still look into here to find out how Ah ber's doing.
Nope, I wasn't dead or anything. And I wasn't putting all my time into making a baby and my internet access and electricity wasn't cut or anything. My computer didn't crash. I AM JUST VERY LAZY. Hahahahahhaa.......
My wedding was fabulous!!! All thanks to the Team Fat Tigers (TFT), my dearest Lena, Cadrina, Jesslyn, Anna and all my friends who attended our 80 tables wedding dinner. Thank you very much to all the people who attended the wedding, all the people who helped out to make things smooth, all the people who took great care of me before, during and after the wedding, all the people who cared and blessed us, all the people who LOVE me yet had to see me give my love to Kenji instead of you (hiak hiak hiak) - a BIG BIG THANK YOU to all of you!!!
SOrry ah, Ah ber had a hangover ........ till now. Joking la. More than 1 month liao still hangover really no standard la. My colleagues said I was mad - I was drinking like a fountain. Hahaha. It was my big day ma. Everyone must be happy. I am the host so I had to go around toasting everyone. I still think about the whole event and it never fails to make me smile!!! :)
I am still in honeymoon mood heehee. Hope this honeymoon mood will remain till long long. Hahahaha. And I am not drunk when I am writing this post. It was really terrible being drunk!!! I was puking red wine and Gordon Bleu and Martell.
But everything was worth my hangover. Because I was the most beautiful person on earth that wonderful nite. And the most "幸福" person on earth from then till now.
Stay tuned for the next post cos I will be putting up photos. Heehee...... hope wun have spiders anymore.....
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