Ah Ber is down

Ah ber is not feeling too good. I feel so heaty. My throat is bursting and my lips are cracking and my abdomen is killing me. I ate bread pudding yesterday and due to my greediness, I ate alot without considering the effect of the HUGE amount of milk that was used to make it. And that HUGE amount of milk was almost enough to kill me cos I am lactose intolerant.

Had a slight fever and tummy ache before I went to bed. Maybe the panadol I took helped to numb my tummy ache but I woke up at 5am with such a terrible tummy ache that I tot I could die on the spot.

I tried to sleep alot. But I am still irritable, I am still pms-ing, I am still feeling under the weather. Suddenly so many tots flooded my brain, it made me even more depressed. I suddenly have no idea wat the hell was wrong with me!!!

I went to sleep last nite feeling so alone cos junior didnt want to hug me. There's this draggy feeling inside me that I wan to get rid of but somehow i cannot.

Woke up this morn feeling much better but not really fantastic. The tot of national day coming up is perking me up. Another holiday. Not that I dun like to work (who likes to work anyway???) but I am not in top form for work. I still have a long way to go. I feel like getting out of this shitty place.

PS: I have been re-writing and re-phasing and deleting and re-doing this post. Feel like writing lotsa stuff here but dunno how to put it. Dunno wat to write. Bored. Think I go sleep somemore or watch some movies.