Monday, January 26, 2009

Dino Terror

Some news to announce.....

Dino Terror just received her 1st ang bao for Niu Year......

She started menstrating on saturday.... Wat a big ang bao for her..... and Junior :).

Just imagine my challenges in bringing her out to bai nian!!!!

She officially turned 9mths today 26 January 2009......

Only 9mths leh.....must look up the web to see if this is normal or has junior been naughty lately...

Happy Niu Year 2009!!!!

Happy New Year to everyone here!!! Happy NIU Year!!!

I sooooo love Chinese New Year cos everyone will be smiling and be full of happiness and smiles and laughter and I feel LOVE everywhere, especially this year when I go bai nian with my hubby and my kids.....

Ox year is a good year for monkeys..... so must make use of this year to work hard and strive ahead!

If I didnt resign, maybe I will be planning a trip with my family to Macau or maybe go with Angie to BKK. :) If I resign, then maybe cannot cos cannot take leave yet rite? Hahaha....

Anyway, anywhere I go, as long as I am surrounded by people who love me and tots of the people I love, happiness will follow.

Take this festive season to be together with your loved ones and friends and let happiness follow you. Dun stress yourself, dun quarrel, dun fight for anything..... just relax and be yourself, be happy.... just take things easy....... give and take..... YEAH.... HUAT AH......

I do not mind working hard now because the results will be at the end of the road.
Even if there are no results, I will not regret cos I have not failed - I have tried my best.
Along the way I have learnt alot and these will follow me all the way till the end......
And I know that the people who love me, will never give up on me. :)
And to all of these people who love me - A Big Thank You to all of YOU......
Especially my family, my hubby, my best friend Rina - Love you lots!!!

Sunday, January 25, 2009

HUAT AH

My promoter project ended yesterday nite at midnight SHARP. This morning I woke up with a smile on my face, even offered to go over to the market to get breakfast. :)

Yesterday morn i went for a class, then went to the market to get the freshest fish and meat and vegetables and spent my whole afternoon boiling chicken soup for evening's steamboat. Then I spent the whole afternoon preparing my food and cutting them into the right sizes.

Kenji helped me mop and sweep the whole house. :)

The late nights spent over cleaning the house paid off cos i was very happy and satisfied with my progress. :)

Yesterday evening's steamboat was a success. And today's steamboat was a success too!.

Yesterday my parents and family came over for steamboat. We had more than 20 dishes. :) Today Kenji's family came over and we all had steamboat too. :) Next sat having another round of steamboat with TFT. Great!!!!

On friday I tendered my resignation. I know I shocked my boss and I felt very guilty in wanting to resign. But I am really very tired. She refused to accept my resignation letter and pushed it back to me. She would like to change my role in the team and asked me to give her 2 weeks. I promised her I would wait 2 weeks for her to reveal her plans. My colleague said that I was very nice to my boss. Of cos as my boss is quite good to me. :)

So officially I am still with my company for another 2 weeks. :)

I am happy cos I finally can feel the CNY holiday mood. It is usually this kind of festive seasons that make your heart miss the people nearest to it, especially if they are so far away from you. Last week i dreamt of my grandma who passed away 7 years ago. I still miss her very much.

That's why today I prayed to ancestors as advised by master. I cooked them a sumptous dinner for them. I even bought "mama" chocolates and a big bag of stuff for her. I bought lots of money and lots of stuff for them. I boiled the steamboat soup in advance then used it to cook the 20 over dishes of steamboat stuff for them. I boiled rice then kenji helped me pack the stuff and put them into the trolley where we went downstairs to pray to them (kenji ancestors and my ancestors). They had soup, rice, 20 over dishes, green tea, "nian gao", "Huat kueh". :) So this ox year, I have lots of people helping me this year rite? :) So happy......

I am sooooooo looking forward to tomorrow cos I will dress up in new clothes and bring my kids out together with daddy kenji as a family and go and "Bai Nian" to my relatives and his relatives and importantly......I am Mrs Lim this year. :)

Seriously I am quite proud of myself for my house and my ability to actually prepare so much food and I think everyone is very much satisfied with the food. :)

I am also looking forward to next fri and sat...... cos the gambling kings and queens will come out and its is "HUAT" ah time...

HUAT AH HUAT AH HUAT AH!!!!!! HUAT AH!!!!!

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Depressed Mood

Today I am on MC cos I am not feeling well.

But my phone never stop ringing and my eyes never left my lappy screen at all.

I am very tired.

Sunday, January 18, 2009

Goodbye Job

I have decided to tender my resignation.

Because I look back. I have been working for the past 1 year at this same company. What did I achieve? Yes I learnt lots of things. I had satisfaction working here. I am happy about being able to work here. But I do not like the pressure, I do not like the stress, I do not like to give up my personal interests and time and health to this job.

For this past year I used to joke that I am married to this job. But I realise I am married to the wrong one. This job can divorce me anytime cos there are no feelings involved, no love, no ***, nothing. Whereas I'm neglecting so much of my life for this stupid thing named MONEY. I'm not earning alot. I'm just earning enough to make my life go past.

I have been working non-stop mon to sun for the past weeks and coming to the 2nd month already. No extra bonus, no OT pay, no increase in pay, no HUGE com due to this project, in fact whenever I claim my timeoff I feel so guilty.

I did not spend proper time with my kids, with my hubby (come on, I am newly married ok), i neglect the house and this is my 1st proper house and I am a house proud person so it really got to me that CNY is nearing and my house is in a mess.

I have been slogging, but for who? For the benefit of my company, but not to me, not to my family, not to my own benefit, but at my own expense, at my family and friends' expense.

Yes, jobs are hard to come by now. Yes, I may not get my current pay check. Yes, it could be the same out there. But if I dun take the 1st step outta here, I'm still gonna be stuck here in the same shit rite?

Haha. In fact this post is written to convince me that I should move on.

Hahahahahahaha.

I always pride myself on getting things done well. I thrive on praise. But this time round I really cannot tahan already. I am trying my best but I get shouted at. I am trying my best but I failed due to people's failure. I can try my best but if my best needs to depend on the people I use, then I cannot control anything at all!!!!!

I feel really frustrated.

My health, my relationships, my well-being, my life, my brain, my everything is at risk of breaking down. I cannot risk it anymore.

Goodbye job.

Friday, January 16, 2009

A story about Dino Terror

Did I tell you the story of Dino Terror? She is a fierce little creature who is black in colour and has a white diamond her chest. She swings her bum when she walks, pushes her bum in some male's face and scolds and shouts at anyone who walks her path, cos she is a typical B.I.T.C.H.

I cannot say she is a bimbo cos she is not blonde and she is not stupid. In fact she is very smart and VERY L.A.Z.Y.

When her dad is up to go to work, his pillow is like a warmed toilet bowl, nice and warm to her ass and she decided to pee on his pillow. When her mum is blocking her exit to get off the bed, she retaliate by shitting on her mum's pillow and peeing on her mum's pillow, twice in a roll!!!!

She behaves like a mad rabbit and kangaroo mixed together cos she bounces and hops like no body's business. She looks like a sneaky rat cos she is born in rat year and black like a rat, but she has the characteristics of a taurus, cos she is damn stubborn, just like her mummy.

I love her no matter wat, and I AM HER MUMMY. Yes, and I rolled on her shit on my pillow till it was flattened and I nearly wanted to kill her but she looked at me with her innocent, lovey dovey eyes and I cant bear to cook her in the curry pot. (anyway she got no meat on her)

This is the last weekend before CNY is here. Better go do your spring cleaning or marketing or shopping or your personal stuff before the next weekend.

Happy Ox year!!! 2009!!!! YEAH!!!

D-day today

I am a spider today. Today is the D-day or Dooms day cos I am having full deployment for my 40 outlets with 45 headcounts running TOGETHER. Besides that I have to watch my colleague's territory for her cos she has to go back to m'sia. Her territory under me is 24 outlets and 24 headcounts. I want to die. Please kill me please.

And then 1 of my receptionist project is down. So now I am doing receptionist duties and at the same time calling my people for my promoter project.

I am very frustrated and irritated because:

1) I love CNY but this year I totally no mood
2) I feel like a spider, going to be an octopus "many hands and legs"
3) I am at Novena now but I cannot go Dong Bar to drink beer cos its closed
4) I cannot sleep properly at night due to work and I am very tired
5) My house is in a mess and I am sooooooo tired everyday, too tired to pack anything.
6) I have no time for myself, my kids, my hubby, my house, EVERYTHING in fact.
7) I dun have time for spring cleaning, no time to do shopping, no time for marketing......
8) I feel lousy, I feel like a spider, I feel like exploding soon, I feel like killing myself....
9) I am having daily headaches
10) I am having my period NOW.
11) I am having PMS.
12) I am having cramps.
13) Terror is killing me by peeing and shitting on my pillows
14) I am killing myself with procrastination.

Ok. This is it. Must take action.

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

CNY 2009

Been working non-stop since December 2008. Non-stop for saturdays and sundays. Working Mondays to Sundays and repeating the same thing week after week. My working hours are 8.30am to 6pm weekdays but I never go back on the dot except last week cos I really had to go for class.

My record was last week when I finished work near midnight. Even saturdays and sundays I finish work by midnight when my promoters finish their work.

And PMS is near. I can feel the frustrations building up inside me.

CNY is near. And I have not done ANY CNY shopping, I didnt do any CNY cleaning yet and my bathtub hasn't been fixed yet which means another round of cleaning up after the dust and dirt after renovation.

Last week for 3 days my bathroom was under renovation. And the dust and dirt was unimaginable. I had no idea how to live in such conditions. I wanted to kill myself cos it was really so damn dirty and dusty and I was soooooooo irritated.

Well, finally cleaned the kitchen and the bathroom 2 days ago and felt better. But there are still soooooo many things to be done and so little time left for myself. I wan to die lor!

So tired....... I dun feel any mood for CNY 2009 at all cos I am so busy with work. Help...

Luckily later I going ikea with my best friend or else I will go mad soon....

Its always during the festive periods that makes someone miss you more?

Thursday, January 1, 2009

Happy 2009

I know spiders are building nests here again.

Spent my christmas in Xiamen, China. Tot it would be a ulu samy place. But turned out to be quite happening.

Flew at 8.55am on christmas eve.

Seem to be always eating on the plane, at restaurants.

A total of 28 of us in the Xiamen airlines plane together with 25 bottles of Gordon Bleu. Really no kidding. 25 damn bottles of Gordon Bleu!!!

Dunno how many bottles they had over lunch and dinner for the 5 days, 4 nites there. But there was none left when we boarded the plane on the 28 December.

Christmas eve rocked.

Went to "Bin Lang" road where all the pubs and nitelife were. Counted down in 1 romantic pub where the bartenders rocked!! They actually played with fire inside the bar counter!!. There was also a santa claus going around passing lighted batons. And there was a chinese faggot dancing in front of me and it got me so pissed off that I would like to kick him squarely on his ass.

Had heineken there. Had some BBQ stuff tat took like 1.5hours to arrive. Overall it was fun cos they played chinese and english songs that I KNEW. hahahahah.

The next few days were sight-seeing, drinking, visiting places but not much time to shop.

On the 3rd nite, we have KTV. Something tat I liked (and I didnt know someone loved the song I sang). Drink drank and drunk ok...... red wine, gordon bleu, tsing tao beer (my fav). Managed to get a few of them drunk.

They have a custom there that they will toast to the people who finish singing and I hate holding the mike since then. They have sooooo many customs there that I simply hate drinking.

I named the hosts "madman". The especially crazy ones are the ones who drink non-stop and get people to drink as well. On the 1st nite itself Kenji's boss already got drunk and he even puked.

And kenji had been drinking non-stop since 24 to 28 dec. And today is 31st. He still went out drinking - that is why I am pissed off now.

Went to An Xi on the 4th day but An xi is worse than Xiamen cos there is nothing much to buy at all. Went shopping alone on the last day, but nothing to buy. The boots were quite cheap though.

Came back to sg with a flu. Took medicine and went to sleep, half way waking up and totally didnt know where I was. The flu med was really strong...... Couldn't get up for 2 mornings. Rina tot I got some SARS bug from china and she was bugging me to go to the hospital.

Luckily i am fine now, except I have diarhoea. Hahahaha. Rina's gonna nag at me again.

Yes, I am counting down at home. In fact I counted down while sitting on the toilet bowl. So Happy 2009 - I welcomed it with Shit!!!! Hahahahhaha....

I know 2009 is gonna be a better year - well I say the same things every year. Just let it be. Good or bad year, still have to survive wat. Cannot say bad year then I rather go back to 1999 rite? So just live it lor. Bo bian la.

I am in the "dun bother me" mood. PMS? maybe hor. Maybe just pissed off at certain things and certain people, especially TERROR. She has been barking non-stop whole nite and I am so pissed off that I am ready to cook her in the curry pot.

Today I pampered myself by doing my hair, doing facial so I feel a little better. Then it is down to face book and playing games. Well, I think I will definately feel better on the 1st day of 2009. Hahahahaha.

Been working non-stop since before christmas and after christmas. Feelin the strain and stress of this project. Been working late almost everyday, even today supposed to knock off at 1.30pm also went home about 7plus. No OT claim. No cab fare claim. Sian.

Bye unhappiness..... I gonna play games now!!!!